It's basically a combination of a lot of things at once.

My roommate and I will be moving to a new place this month, which is good for us because our apartment will be right over (well, almost) a dear friend of mine, and it will be nice to be closer to her. The problem is that it's still 2 months before the lease is up and while this is a touristy location and they can probably re-rent the place for just 2 months to someone, if they can't do it I will still be on the line for rent and it's been so tough for me I'm hesitant to ask people to loan me money AGAIN. So I'm terribly nervous about that.

Also for the past 5 weeks I've been applying to several places for jobs, as a requirement to continue getting food stamps. Now I can certainly understand that they'd want to push me to find work partly so they don't have to give me money but I have mystery leg pain and dizziness problems but nothing specifically wrong with me so I can't get a break on this because I can't get a doctor's okay on me having any medical requirements as all my tests have been negative.

And finally I got really mad at a game my beloved and I play, called Fists of Fu. I mostly like the game and it doesn't lag too much (which is nice since my beloved and I live 7 time zones apart) but there has ben very little company support and I suspect it will be closed down soon. I just got mad at the fact that the game is very hard on melee characters and my playing today made me feel really useless and helpless, as if all I was doing was being a punching bag while my beloved did all the work. It wasn't really this way of course, it's just the other stuff making me overly sensitive and it made me want to lie down and cry for a while...which I did. I still don't feel perfect but I do feel better than I did a couple hours ago at least.

Awwww *hugs* that's no fun at all. i really wish i could help you out. but i'll be here for you if you wanna talk! ^~^

I'm trying to motivate myself to play something ^^; I really want to finish playing White Knight Chronicles so I can stop using my ex-roommate's PSN account :P

-hugs Airina- Just posting it helped a lot really. It always helps but when I get this way I start to feel worthless and that no one should bother with me >> So I don't SAY anything until after I breakdown. It's a terribly bad habit of mine D:

*wiggles in*

fists of fu isnt going to close down anytime soon, its an outspark game :P

maybe you should switch to fiesta and play on bijou >.>

I do the same thing... I've been trying to be better but its really really hard..... i don't like having people worry about me.... i don't say anything till my breaking and then the breaking point keeps going on all of the time..... until i finally leak it all out. I feel bad that i lean on people so much.... but if i don't i just freak out..... and its not good.

-waves at Burlesque-

Ashy... Fists of Fu hasn't has any events in a month, not even the usual daily ones. And the original version was closed down, I just don't see much hope for it. And Fiesta is cute and all but... I don't like the gameplay of it past level 15 :/

-hugs Airina more- Someone told me that the hardest part to do is admit to people you're feeling weak. But in doing so it shows how much you trust them and are willing to let them hold you up. Sometimes I can admit my problems before I break and sometimes I can't...but I believe I can get better and I'm sure you can too :3

What's going on y'all?

you havent even gotten to the good levels yet D:<

60+ is where its at :P

ive got a paladin at 90 and a warrior at 91, an archer and a mage both at 71 plus miscellaneous others and i havent played in a few months.

honestly it takes about a week to get to 70 without being plvled or sparkcashed up

But I hate the Kingdom Quest mechanics. In all my attempts I never finished the king slime quest because I was never in the right party of the one who got the kill. The pirate one was even worse, we hardly killed a thing and just ran up to the boss, and I found it to be incredibly boring.

*hugs serra* yea being open is hard for me in general.

I'm way more open when it's post-breakdown like today. It just sort of comes streaming out ^^;

Thanks for listening too :3

Awwww no problem! Yea when its post break up it just sorta leaks out.... and comes out until it just is all gone.... but it takes a while..... like its been a month? and its still coming out? ish.....

Ashy, are you cosplaying as Doctor Who?

close, but you dont get a prize unless its exact :P

ok, what season is it....I know its the recent one. Is it series 6?

not even close

Darn in XP at least I was close

btw people tend to distinguish doctors by which number they are not which season :P

Hey hey thread~ whassup? :3

I love the hair Lauv

I like your outfit echo it's really cool!

*snuggles Airi* hey you

*snuggles obbie* hey you! How are you doing obbie?

BROTHER!!! How are you doing?

Im good how are you my sis

*snuggles up to obbie curling up* i'm tired

Eh, my emotions are now at a complex situation =_=

What do you mean Echo?

Hi airi and whats wrong echo

I'm trying to get over it but it's too big to easily get over it

*huggles sissy* Well i hope you start feeling better

Thanks brother, have you noticed that your sister is a sheep, BAAA~

O.o No i have not lol *pets the sheepy* hehe

BAAA~ I've been a sheep since the beginning of the month. I'm the monthly item

awww thats cool im a sniper clearly >.< sucks that males dont have a huge amount of items/skirts for the lower body

How about Boxers?

true but im more looking for something for my mid area cause its hard to balance the colors >.<

A corset, a belt?

*Waves madly* Hi erybody!