sleep paralysis is where you wake up before your body does and you are unable to move


what lavender le fay is talking about is the rather common phenomenon of people imagining something dreadful happening while they are in this exceptionally vulnerable state. most people imagine a human or a humanoid monster coming towards them and violating their personal space in some way. you have to have pretty strong mental fortitude to stay calm and rational so it is recommended instead that if you are having this issue that you close your eyes. as it is an auditory hallucination only(for most of the world) closing them lets your brain calm down and either let you wake up properly or at the very least take you out of a state of panic so the hallucination ends

Moonshadow, I just finished watching some Trisha Paytas videos (kind of a popular YouTuber who went off some deep end lately. Entertaining as all hell, honestly) and anything you and I discuss seems "normal."

I had a dream that seemed so real that I was on a swing with someone, and it was Spring. All full of trees and flowers, and the swing set was... really nice. I think it was made of sturdy wood with lots of carved details.

@cho: that was a very good explanation. I get kinda tongue(finger) tied when I explain concepts that are different from the ordinary. But the one time I had it I was aware i was awake the whole night, but couldn't become aware or move.

@Lav: woah, she is "interesting" to say the least!
Yeah its nice to meet someone who believes the same way I do. Whose mind is open enough to think for themselves and not what the conventional "wisdom" says is the truth.

I've always done my own thing. I've always had the philosophy that I'd rather be hated for who I am rather than loved for who I'm not. Plus, I was always attracted to whatever was "strange" or even seemed "magical".

I spent a lot of time trying to get people to like me, and if they didn't trying to convince them they should. Now I am not so inclined to have people like me, if they do they do, it doesn't matter either way as I am not in the friend market. I am who I am and I have always been drawn to the "strange" like you said, knowing that there are things that we don't know, but once we know them we know that it is truth. Hard to explain though. I read the Synchronicity Key by David Wilcock and as soon as I started I knew that was what I knew, but didn't know I knew it until I read it.

I'm surprised when I remember my younger self; I never wanted to change for anyone no matter how lonely or sad I got. I handled so many things so badly, barely knew how to stand up for myself, but that's one thing I did right by myself. I've had people tell me "I'll be your friend if you do this or that, changed that." I brushed them off. I even had this fellow I had an insanely hot crush on tell me "If you butched up, I'd absolutely date you."

i know someone who gets them almost nightly because of the meds they are on, i've had time enough for eloquence X''D


so how are you both doing today?

Hey cho: doing good, how about you? you were up early :)

doing ok<3 i am finally on a reasonable sleep schedule! getting up at 5am like a grown man instead of a mopey teen, hahaha

My best time to wake is between 7 and 8.
I try not to stay up too late that throws everything off.

staying up late is my weakness X''D

Used to be mine too.
I would stay up till 3/ 4 AM talking to my friend in England.
Then sleep for 5 hours and the day was pretty much done.
Last night I went to sleep at 11:15PM woke up at 7AM that is perfect!

i could stay up until 1-2pm talking to american and australian friends XD

now i just make poor choices XD noone wants to talk to me!

I have been just disappearing at 11:00
I figure if they are not on by then I don't really want to chat anyway.

chatting is the bulk of my daily entertainment

I like chatting, but I only do it at night mostly. If I log on during the day then I'm on all day!

Banana! Because I refuse to let this hangout die.

OMG thank you. I was just going to ask you to post in here.
hahahaha
I have been so tired the last few days. Went out tonight and had to rush home at around 8PM cause of the snow. It was snowing like crazy.

I've had a crazy few days. One day of shopping (I've bought the prettiest bedding and sequin shorts.), a day of exercise and then a day of realising I've done everything wrong.

Wow, that is quite a range of emotional turmoil.
Sequined shorts? sounds awesome, what color sequins?

Black, and I'm happy about it. If I found silver or gold ones, I'd be crying my eyes out.. Still. Three days later.

Black is always a good color.

It's the colour of my heart.

Nah don't say that!
in the chakra system the heart chakra is green

Green? I like that colour. It's the colour of... wasabi.

and this is where i fail at being as awesome as galla XD he'd tell a nonsense story about once owning something with black sequins and it would totally pick up the mood

Green is a beautiful color. Color of growth and protection <3

cho: totally relate. I don't even know how to be particularly engaging on forums.

maybe we should learn evocative dances?

OK you start! hahaha
How does one evocatively dance online?

hhhhhm, that part i hav not worked out. possibly in gif format?

I think that would work

-goes to look for "evocative dance gif"-
https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com...a27c9182ef.gif

yes but what is that evocative of?

Hey Moonshadow! I stalked you over here since I saw you post on another site advising people to come here to chat with you.

Hey everyone!

Hey Huntor! I'm glad you stalked me here.
I miss you, haven't seen you around much.
Tonight I was super busy on other stuff and did not get a chance to post much, but please feel free to post here, don't just stalk me hahahaha
Seriously you are one of the nicest stalkers I've ever had! hahaha

ARe you well? I hope so, work is going good?

Hey guys! Came here from another site. I heard the owner of Trisphee and you were on trisphee back in syndrone, so I came over and hang out here in case syndrone shuts down. Work in college is doing good btw.

Hi Neonriser! Glad you are here.
I love this site, everyone is so friendly and inclusive!
Glad life is going good for you. :)

except me. i am super halla mean >D

Don't you be a fibber cho, you are one of the nicest people on here :P
What is the name of that background? Love it!

Mine? It's a peony background. I got it from posting at the forums.