D: oh no...

He's gonna die soon, he keeps getting worse and worse. We should probably make an appointment with the vet.

Yes, definitely. :s Did not realize it was that bad.

It only started getting like this yesterday but it happened so fast.

...I already agreed to take him if Dad can't.

At his age the only option is to have him put down.

Indeed... Seems like it's always like that with dogs. Nobody knew Brutus or Ginger were sick until the very last days, at which point there was nothing more to be done. :s

I feel really awful

I know you must. I'm sorry, willis. :[

I know he's really old and he's lived longer than dogs that size typically do but that doesn't make it easier.

No. Just how knowing to expect something doesn't necessarily make it better.

As much as I expected it, I didn't realize I'd take it so hard. I hate feeling so emotional.

But that's how it is, especially with something so big.

I know....


I still hate it.

Well, you can't help caring...

No, but at the same time, I feel more vulnerable than I want to own up to, I can stand up to people and the world all day and all night but the minute something that actually hurts happens all my courage dissolves and any supposed strength I have is gone. My dog is dying and I just want to curl up and cry.

I wouldn't see that as a lack of courage or strength. You will have feelings, and how you show those aspects is in how you deal with life, even in the face of said feelings. Acknowledging them and experiencing them does not keep you from doing what you need to do. It does not keep you from facing reality and pulling through. There is no shame in being upset.

No one else here seems affected at all, they're just going about their regular night, I'm the only one here who's a sobbing mess. They've already moved on.

Well, that doesn't really surprise me; while I'm sure your family loves Max, you were the closest to him.

They keep wanting to talk to me. I kinda just want to be left alone.

Indeed... did you tell them that?

They don't seem to get it, they insist that it's unhealthy of me to always demand to be left alone when I'm upset. They're trying to be nice but I can tell mom at least is getting aggravated with me.

Good lord... -_- Wanting to be alone is a pretty common response, too.

When mom gets upset she wants everyone everywhere to come and pay attention, so she doesn't understand that all that does for me is make me uncomfortable and tired. I can't properly feel anything and get it out of my system if I don't have the privacy and solitude to vent it out.

Gah... How can someone be so stuck up their own ass?

I don't know, today it's really hard not to snap at her, I can feel my self-control slipping.

I wouldn't be surprised. Maybe if you're insistent...?

She'll leave me alone for about 15 minutes then ask if I want to talk about it.

Gah... > ___< Surely she'll have to give it up eventually.

Eventually, but eventually doesn't look to be happening anytime soon.

:/ That's not going to make things any easier...

No, no it isn't.

I need something that will take my mind off of things, feeling miserable and upset isn't going to make things better so I may as well try to do something enjoyable.

Indeed... Like what?

Not sure,

>_>

...Make me laugh.

uhhhhhh
8D Have a large black man eating baby food
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nJuUXSGFnME

Actually that does make me feel better.

I can picture Randy tasting little Randy's baby food to see if it's fit for her.

oh lord the face and the sound he made when he tasted it. ; u; I cracked up.

And yes, he totally would. He would insist that his baby only eat the best of mushed things.

Imagine Baby letting him tasted pureed peas and carrots.

And if he doesn't like it... "BLAUH, YOU TRYIN'A POISON MY BABY?"

Indeed, he's such a good daddy.

Yes. o uo I imagine there would be no processed/pre-packaged baby food in that house.

speaking of babies
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CumIj-NH5RA

some of these are pretty cute.

Some of those are adorable,

Daw, babies.