-snuggles Ulty-

I dunno...I just don't feel like talking much today ^^;

How come Serra? usually you join in the conversations.

Just feeling a bit out of it today. Sort of like I might snap for no reason :/

Something on your mind that you would like to talk about?

-Pulls up a huge pile of pillows.- I would like to help if I can.

Aye, I would aswell

I dunno...I just feel like sometimes my beloved friend (who lives in France, I'm in the USA) might just be using me for company when she doesn't need it. I mean, she's fine doing things on her own, but I'm not. If she's around I want to do things with her and I spend too much time thinking of asking to do stuff that I think she'd want to do, rather than what I want to do. Tonight I picked something she didn't want to do and I did it anyways...I know I did nothing wrong but I feel damn guilty about it.

You shouldn't feel guilty about it. Friendship is give and take. You can't always do what one wants. Sometimes you have to do something you don't care for out of respect for the other person.

I very often choose to do things I can't do with her later, like single player console games or even coming to Trisphee...sometimes I think perhaps I give too much of myself to her. But I care about her so much, probably more than I do about anyone. Sometimes it feels like it's worth it.

Then I don't know what to tell you

-Looks at Croni.- Any idea?

I would say I'm either obsessed or addicted. Whether to her or the feeling of being "needed" I'm not sure though.

Hi Sunako, I'm alright.

@ Serra: You deserve to be treated equally by her. Everyone desreves to be treated right by people, especially by friends. You should never be made to feel like you are doing something wrong if you arent, but in any relationship both sides have to respect the other. You know?

Thats good to hear :)

Hi Sunako.

@Cronislee, Oh, I am treated better than most people she talks to. I give her a lot of leeway, maybe too much but we know each other very well and we spend a great deal of time together. She didn't make me feel like I was doing something wrong, *I* felt it myself. I have for a long time. It's most likely because I have built up expectations of what should happen and in truth I need to stop doing so. Sometimes it doesn't feel like I get respect but almost all of those times I have done something that was disrespectful, at least for our situation. Today I just kind of felt down but I'll accept it and get over it. It helped to write it out, especially to people who aren't her.