Oh wow.

Losing a little one does horrible things to parent's heart...

See Katara, that is kind of the reason I chose to live. I couldn't leave my Mom with no one there. And one day you will be able to except that it happened, and nothing you could have done that day would have changed that... trust me, you can't change what Fate planned. I have gone over a million what ifs in my head, and it all comes out to this, would your life be different? Yes. But would it be what you have now? Maybe. I know I would have never met Alpha if it hadn't happened, and though I wish my Dad could meet him I know that something horrible lead to something good. Just think about what good has come from your life after it? Maybe getting closer to your husband or spending more time with your daughter?

I have gotten closer to him, and we have had a second little one afterward. I just keep looking at my babies and thinking how blessed I am to have at least them.

That is the better way to think about it.

I keep saying that my oldest is my reason for waking up in the morning and my youngest is the reason I get out of bed. lol Otherwise I become their favorite trampoline

Lol that sounds really funny. But human trampolines are not fun at all I've had bruises on my stomach cause my cousins little kids decided to try that.....

When my youngest does it, its not that bad. She is only 18mos old she she jumps, lands and then usually just cuddles. The four year old is the one that you have to watch out for. I've had the bruises and a black eye

Ouch that sucks.

I've never had a black eye but my cousins kids are 3 and a half almost four and three and it is painful when they decide I'm a tampoline

I love looking at tattoos and learning of the story behind them (if any) cause it's all just fascinating to me. :3
However, I don't foresee myself getting a tattoo anytime soon unless I have a real reason to get one, other than for the sake of having one. This is because since tattoos is the injecting of ink into one's skin, unless it has some sort of real meaning I don't think I'd want to live with it forever or pay lots of money later on just to have it removed via laser. :3

Personally I would rather be their jungle gym then their trampoline

I agree jungle gym is much less painful

That it is.

And my cousins kids are not the smallest of kids they aren't fat just both large for their age aka very tall

They are aren't they.