Hah...that reminds of this practice an order of assassins would do to cure their members of a lack of confidence.

after they had been in training for a year or two (so they would be totally well muscled and fit) they would have the initiate (male and female) stand in front of a mirror naked for days on end only stopping to sleep and eat and such

I could NEVER do that!! *shudders* that sounds like my worst nightmare....

that's the point it would be awkward and embarrassing for them at first but after awhile they get used to it and then become completely used to themselves

After years of my momma telling me that i'm not good enough.... I doubt that i will ever truly feel comfortable with myself.

Meh, you just have to tell her to screw off

It's hard to do that to my mom. She is wonderful at guilt trips. And then she makes me feel like it's my fault that I blew up at her for making me feel that way... And then I feel even worse about everything.

my mom used to do that...but i got used to it and then became immune to it

You would think that after almost 20 years of it I would be used to it.... but nope. I can still hear her voice in my head saying that I should be more like my brothers.... Be this be that.... I feel like she has never once heard me for what I want to be.

well let's drown our sorrows in gratuitous video game violence...well that's what I do...you do whatever you do to cope

Just watch meaningless television....

well that works too...watch White Collar It's a great show

I watch a lot of food network.... it's just sort of mind numbing.... actual tv shows make me want to think.... food network just lets me veg.

lol...I can cook but I never watch food network

.-. so this doesn't seem like much talking about video games

I like it.... my brothers hate it when I watch it when we are home....

we were a while back, it's just whatever usually...but since you asked so nicely >.> DA2 tomorrow! w0000!

Man, the topic shifted... Q.Q

*hugs Alex*

*hugs*
How are you, hun?

sick..... *whimpers* but i'm doing better than last time we talked emotionally.

Well that's good. Anything happen since we last talked?

Just realizing that I've been letting other people dictate my life. And trying to find out who I really am. Instead of what people want me to be. It sounds silly but this is the first time that I've felt like I could do this.
How are you?

Fweeeee! Whose all here? =3

@ Airina - I know how that feels.

My kitten just fell asleep... on my lap.

Well, half on my laptop, half on my lap. xD;

It's a very weird feeling.... But it was a much needed change.

My full grown cat enjoy long brisk walks over my flesh while I'm asleep

*giggles* that is really funny.

glad to be of amusement ;)

My kitty used to do that.

I'm allergic to cats :D

And yet you own one.... Smart.

no my mom owns 3 I had no say in the matter

Oh dear!

yeah well...i like cats, if only I wasn't allergic to them there would be no problem

Yeah.... I hate my allergies.

what are you allergic to?

Sorry, I haven't been posting much here recently. Been really busy.

*hugs Alex* I've missed you! Is everything good with you?

Eh... Things are tough right now.