My area gets a bit rough at night.

That's not good. Buy a good knife, and take some self-defense classes. They work wonders.

Naa. I'm ok. I just don't go out past dark. I try to avoid fights as I fear what I would be like in one.

Same here, except I know what kind of fighter I am, and in a way it scares me. I'm a very defensive fighter, I wait for them to attack, and simply redirect. Unless I lose my temper, then I just... Flow. Last guy to really make me lose my cool had 'Bruised Bones' And he told people he had fallen down a flight of stair, and the injuries looked like it.

It's a good way to be to be honest. If you're defending yourself deflection before attack is the best method.

I guess... But it's what happens when I lose my temper that scares me. And that what I do I never learned, it's simple instinct, I always flow around others, subtly diverting attacks away from me.

Maybe you learnt it in a past life or somewhere else. I do many things by instinct from my art to the way I move.
Though I know what you mean about fearing losing control. I have the same problem.

I'm glad I'm not the only one who fears what they are capable of... My brother is less afraid of what he's capable of, and more of the feelings that come with losing control.

That can be frightening.

I have a stop tap for my anger. When it hits a certain point I cry and it defuses completely. I just hope it never fails.

that happens for me a lot, but there are times and ways to push my buttons that send me away from crying, and towards this infectious anger that just makes me want to hurt someone. And my Mood Affective Disorder makes it all the worse.

Aww that sucks :( I've been lucky. People have never pushed me that far.

But the thought of learning how to fight in a past life kind of makes sense. I have a direct lineage back to Leif Erikson, the true discoverer of the Americas, and a Viking.

Wow. Good blood.
I have no idea about my ancestors as my family always avoid the subject.

That's kind of odd. But you deserve to know your past. Also in my blood are three different U.S. presidents, and some native american.

I think there are a few skeletons in the family closet. I'll find out one day :)

I personally believe that you should confront your family and demand to learn about the skeletons in your closet. Hiding things only make them fester.