That sounds like my cats but Fenrir and Lavendar too lol. I love when they cuddle with me though. It's so much fun for it.

I miss having a lap kitty :x I miss that a LOT. Someday though...

>.> I'm doing awesome at forgetting everything haha.

Well hey there Serra lol. ; ; Long time no speaky.

Hey Saiyouri, has life been treating you alright?

I've missed you.

Life has been here and there for me. Been getting oddly ill and not sure what is wrong with me and don't have anyone to take me to see the doctor so I am hoping for the best.

I've missed you as well.

I hope things have been good for you.

Not perfect but I've been doing well. I'm having some emotional issues but I keep hoping I'll resolve those. I am keping busy with work at least :3

That is good. At least you are trying to stay positive. I hope you can resolve the problems on your own.

Trying to...I keep getting very annoyed at things I shouldn't.

Been there and those times are horrible. I really hope things get better for you.; ; *hugs*

-hugs back-

Trying to do what my therapist says and remind myself of the truth. Stuff really isn't as bad as I keep viewing it as.

Thats good. I hope you keep up the great work and get better soon.!~

I'm certainly doing all I can to do so :3 Work helps distract me.

That is great to have distractions. Wished I had more. I started playing Kingdom Hearts Birth by Sleep which works great so far.

Work takes up a lot of my time but I'm so drained afterwards it's hard to keep going sometimes. Work is not bad and rather fun but long hours are draining.

Ya I can imagine they are. When my hubby worked long hours and he still does, he is so drained its hard for him to do anything. But at least you are keepying postive!

If I didn't absolutely adore my job it would probably be a lot harder to stay positive.

Yes it would be. I'm having a hard time staying upbeat right now. Noticed I've been getting really depressed alot lately and I am wondering if trying to force myself into staying happy is the wrong choice. Maybe I should give into it. ; ;

Well that's a big dilemma. Saiyouri, I would never want you to force yourself to be happy. That just hides the issues and won't fix anything at all. On the other hand I would never tell you to give into depression either. Is there a third choice? Something else that could possibly be done? I can try to listen if that helps.

Thank you so much Serra. That is so nice of you. *hugs* I have no idea what happened but I felt a ton better today. I guess I needed a day to just cry during the day for who knows what reasons to make me happy. And Gintoki is not feeling well so that might of pushed me out of it too.

Not sure on a third choice. I thought of everything I could possibly think of and nothing works >.< I have tried talking to people but its like they don't care and no one seems to know what to do with a person who is severely depressed ; ; And being raised in a family you were not allowed to express your true self or feelings doesn't make it any easier. I don't even know how to talk to people about my problems to be honest. That sounds so retarded >.>;

Well Saiyouri, if I were around more I'd say you could talk to me. Well, you can always talk to me but I can't give the amount of time I think I would need to sufficiently listen to you. I don't want to make it seem like I don't care because I do care about you.

As for learning to not express yourself, I wasn't taught that by others but I did teach it to myself. I tend to think that my opinion is worth it if it conflicts with someone else's. I've been teaching myself to express myself more as well as give my own opinions some worth. I'm sure you can do that too :3

I will try to do it. Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. Things got bad here. My cat Gintoki I thought was constipated and 5 days later I found out it was a kidney rupture and he was actually dying of renal failure. He died before we could get him to the vet Friday morning and I'm going out of my mind with grief and so is his sister Lavendar. ; ; Last night was hell on me. I'm waiting right now to get the call that his ashes are in at the humane society so we can get a urn for him. ; ; God this is hell for sure. I really hope things have been a ton better for you at least.

Oh no...Saiyouri... -hugs-

As for me, stuff has been mostly alright. Been really busy with work but I have been super annoyed at my roommates. It's like they constantly press my buttons. I'm trying my best to deal with it however. Work is being a very good distraction.

At least you have a distraction. I'm glad things are pretty good for you. I hope they get better.

Thank you. *hugs* I haven't heard from the society yet on his remains being in but that is ok. The longer I have to wait the better. Lavendar doesn't look at me with the most depressing look in her eyes as much and I am getting better with the grief, just dehydration is harder to deal with lol ~_~ FML! We are thinking of trying to adopt a puppy and I really want it. It's a pitbull, weinaminer (or however you spell those klutzy lanky doggies) and maybe lab in there too. I so have her name picked. Most likely will be Grune Legendia. LMAO I wonder where that name is from?? HAHAHA But Grune for sure. Still working out the kinks for her middle name hehe.

Grune Legendia is a great name :3

Sorry for the delay in answering, I worked so much on 11/15 and 11/6 I barely came here at all @.@ Stuff has just been so crazy busy. I hope things have been well for you the past few days.

Hehe thank you!~

Things have been pretty good. I had two good days one good one, then a bad one, then good again, bad and now today is finally good again lol. I keep getting smacked with alot of energy and then the next day pratically I get smacked with being so drained. (@_@) No idea why either. Still waiting on a response on the puppy and Ginny's ashes. But it's ok. The longer I get the pick up call the easier it might be to get them.. I hope lol ; ;

I sure hope so too, my dear.

I might get a regular 40 hours next week...instead of a bunch of overtime. But we'll see :p

Oooo good luck getting a normal week hehe. ^^

Thank you. Today is a mix day for me. Tired as heck but want to be active. Like that makes sense lol.

Today I thought I'd have a normal week but I guess not... XD

Hehe heres hoping to a normal week! Good luck getting one lol.

Well the hubby thinks I damaged my body bad, just like I do. I got badly dehydrated again and even one can of beer gets me pratically drunk, I'm tired non stop and he thinks I'm anemic again and so dehydrated that it's gonna take alot of constant water (that I keep forgetting to drink lol) in order to fix me ~_~ I am so smart.... haha

Evil possessed doll to mothership, come in mothership! XD

Hehe hi Kaguya~

How are you?

Wheeee, I get Thanksgiving off!

Hello Kaguya :3

YAY Serra!~

I'm doing ok Kaguya. Tired as heck though. Good chance I'm anemic right now lol. Sorry for the delay in response. Tried to keep myself busy yesterday to drink water non stop. I'm dehydrated and retaining water badly (stupid thing I inherited from my grandpa) >.>

Oh wow that really sucks ~.~

I had a really nice day off actually. I almost don't know what to do when I'm off work...

I'm glad that you had a good day! I'm still pretty bad. I get tired alot during the day alot and sometimes I get dizzy as heck. I hate it alot, been like this a few times already and it's hard especially when you can't get in to the doctor to get iron pills to build up your supply that needs to be watched carefully the entire time you are on the pills. Takes me like 3 months of taking iron pills to build up my entire body supply and I have to get my blood checked a few times during that time to make sure it's all ok. >.> Ya anemia is so much fun haha ~_~

But at least one of us is doing good haha.

My roommate is accusing me of being a workaholic. Which I might be...it's draining work but I do like it and overtime is nice...

Hehe well at least you are getting overtime. I hope you are enjoying all the work!~

I am, I really am. I don't like everything I do but for the most part it's wonderful. It's a really great job :3

I'm so glad to hear that. That is so awesome^^

Sorry for the delay. I've been out of it lately cause of the anemia haha. I have a bit of awareness right now lol.