I am going to doctor next Wednesday. ;3; Stupid long lines. i will be in school before that, though, probably with this Thursday.

Zaoki, what's wrong?


Rainy, maybe you won't have to miss anymore school. I hope they do help you though.

I'm just worried about my surgery tomorrow. There is like a 1% mortality rate which is less than like majority of surgeries but I'm still worried. I had a dream I died of massive infection so its constantly been a worry in the back of my mind. And its not like this hospital is very good so I just am sweating everything.

Yea, I hope so, too. -sighs- I hate that I am so sickly.

In dreams, dying actually isn't bad thing, as stupid as it sounds, even if the image implanted by it in mind is so worrying. Well, I sure wish you lots of good luck and hope everything goes smoothly for you. -hug-

Thanks my mom tells me that all the time but I still worry. I mean the only surgery I had was when I was 6 or 7 so the experience will still be pretty new to me >.<

-huggles- It's understandable to fear, but the worry won't help. D:

I hope all goes well with you both.

Death is suppose to mean the end of one problem and the beginning of something new.

I am not afraid of death. I just... wouldn't want to leave mom behind now, and I wouldn't want it to be painful. And it would be sad if my friends never ever found out about it. ._.

I just don't want to have my life end without me really experiencing a positive aspect

I know how you feel. I have been having death type dreams for years now. The first were about other people and a murder. The ones of late are my own death.

I don't have that kind of dreams, actually. I had some earlier this year, though, in spring,t hat was very unpleasant and involved my mom dying, but they are very rare still.

I think it all depends on what I'm thinking about when I'm going to bed. I have quite a few death dreams

I remember this one dream ebtween being asleep and awake... I don't remember most of it, except the ending, where I was running down the railway and train was getting nearer and nearer... I think one it's one of those two or three times I have waken up with a muffled yell.

most of the time my mom hires someone to assassinate me

Dx That mustn't be fun to watch. >_<
Well, now I am kinda heading off. XD I got my 10k posts and all. XD