Yeah but they make me feel horrible.

You need some kind of emotional outlet that they can't take away, that they can't ruin. Write, Draw, do something and work until you are the best at it... That's how I'm working through my own self-esteem problems.

I try but they find it and ridicule me for it. So I stopped.

and this is your FAMILY doing this? that sounds like emotional abuse. You could try and send them to jail over this.

No I don't want to do that. I'll be leaving soon enough.

Where are u going?

Me and my bf will get an apartment in a few years like 2-3 not too long

2-3 more years is a long time to have to deal with horrible people.

They aren't bad all he time. I'll be counting down days.. makes it go faster

I've found that often makes time seem to slow down and mock you.

Not for me xD things go pretty fast

I guess time just hates me... Which may may sense...

I don't think time is capable of hating

Hate wouldn't be the right word... It'd be Karmatic backlash really.

I don't see why lol

When I first joined Trisphee I was just starting into wicca and Witchcraft. And I was able to force things to happen with my force of will. Gallows called it Accidental Magic. More then once I used it to skip an hour or so where nothing happened. The rule of three says that would end up coming back to me three times over. So at times time seems to slow down and I can do more stuff then should be possible in a set amount of time.