@Vincent: XD yeah I think the blaring rock music really threw me off for the final battle. Edit: XD and whats really strange is I think FFX is the only FF game I beat all the way through. I usually stop before the final boss.

And yes he did. He would say your too tense and hit my chop my elbow.
And believe it or not I have a friend like that, in fact numerous friends like that who occasionally like to go out but mostly spend time at home. One of my friends spends his time at home making art. And I would be miffed if my friends did that.

Meh, there are some things you can do by yourself. XD what you could try is not listening to others so much and decide for yourself. You know what level of company you like to keep so you may be able to find a person that likes that same level of companionship. -shrugs- Like all of my friends respect when I want to be a hermit.

-rolls around- hey bro~

Hello Zosa -rolls around and then surprise smooches-

@ Poggio ;
Yeah that was a bit... off. XD
How is that strange? O: FFX is awesome. Probably my favorite one.
There's a remake of it for ps3, even, out now if you ever wanna give it another try too. x3

But. that's distracting...doesn't sound like a good teacher. x:

Meh I just can't do that. Too much... socialness. XD
Like you could be in the middle of something and 'boom' surprise XP

Hm. Maybe. I just feel so... different from everyone else.
So I thought it might help to take in some advice to better interact with people, but everywhere I look the advice is so conflicting x.x

That would be nice, but meh all the people I know (people from school, not neccessarily friends) just seem to have all their little social lives going. Which adds to my feeling so... different/outcasted.

Though I guess maybe I should think about not trying to incorporate what people say I should be like...I just don't wanna end up so different people dont understand/like me. xD

Eh the people thing really depends with me. Like I want to get out and do things but I am so scared of crowds and just talking to people makes me anxious enough already. My coworkers do not believe it but I can get goose bumps just talking to some one in a 1 minute conversation asking them rehearsed questions. Then tongue tripping happens and it all turns into horrible word vomit in which I just stop talking.

I used to be anti social to the point of panic attacks but I really have gotten better. Baby steps is all I can say, and well being forced to get a job and get out in the world also helps. So if I find my self comfortable then yeah I don't mind but being thrust in a situation like random as house guest or overly crowded bars, and stuff like that I may flee.
The only advice I can give is baby steps and just do it.

I mean you are talking on here? And yes I know walls of text over the internet are different from talking in real life but you are still talking. It is really all about balance. You don't need to be a socialite to fit in and make friends though hanging out when you/ they feel like it is fine. XD and you are entitled to say no if it becomes to much. Or ask them for a movie day. Because going out is actually very expensive.

Yeah oddly enough out of my friends its the anti-social ones that have stuck together. We did not start out this way but the four of us have gotten to know each other better then the ones that have gone off.
And you worry to much about what others think about you if you are worried about not being yourself. People can accept you for who you are. If you have to change drastically there is something wrong with the relationship. I think that is mostly a self conscious issue and they may not even be thinking about wanting change from you at all XD.

poooooooggio... i am so not enough braining for conversation

@Zosa: XD it is alright. We are just ironically being social.

Yeah that's no fun. x.x I don't do groups either. I never could, prlly never will. XD and talkign to someone new, I get so nervous and my nerves start making me all shaky. x.x Verily much so if it's someone I like.

I guess so. Not sure how to start in baby steps though. People say go out and meet people, like the mall or something and I'm like 'pfft, go up to some random person in the mall? riight.'

Yeah I know. I used to not really talk much before I got on here so. XD there's that. Yeah I hate saying no since I want people to like me. x.x I had this one friend that wanted to hangout like a hella lot and I never really said no. XD I mean it was fun but I wanted time to myself.

That's good. x3
And I hope so. I just havn't met someone who has so far, thus my bleh mood. x.x Thinking too much. XD
And maybe. I guess they might have been so ...into their normal lifestyle. XD That they didn't know they wanted change.

okay o: i might try it one day

also i had a great day c:
im really excited for tomorrow!

@ Asami ;
Really? O: What's happenin tomorrow?

XD I understand that. I think people don't see it in my since it really is easy for me to strike up a conversation about any old thing. However when I think about it too hard ( like trying to talk to an attractive guy, or a person that looks like they need help, or likes something I like.) ASfdasfdafdsa fail... just fail, I start thinking about all things I find weird and realize that he is probably normal and would never accept me and probably has a hot girl friend some where. And I just stop talking... ._. The worse is when they suddenly get excited and I am at a lost as to what to say.

Well that may be a bit much... but what about going to a quieter store. Like if you like games what about going to a gamestop and if you happen to find some one looking in the same section as you try asking them what would they recommend to buy? I mean I met one of my good friends at a bus stop, all because I made a comment about an ant pile. ... Some how we got into an existential conversation about ants and life. It was strange.

Well sounds like you need to have an honest conversation with yourself and your boundaries. People will still like you, you need them to respect you. There is a difference. Right now it sounds as though you are being a people-pleaser.

Yeah but you are allowed your comfort zone. I mean you really shouldn't have to adapt too much to a person just to be with them. At least that is what I think.

@O@ good luck and have fun!
Asami is starting her first day tomorrow. <3

yea c: i got a job!! C:

@ Poggio ;
That's pretty much me right there. XD I start thiking I'm weird and he wouldn't accept me and there's better then me. Only instead of me stop talking, it normally ends in awkward silence I think. XD

Hm. maybe. I would if it was easier for me to go out. XD I gotta bus if I wanna go anywhere like that. Sometimes transferring, and I feel if I'm doing that just for a chance at that, and it ends up not happening, I'd be wasting my time and stuff. x:

I am a people pleaser haha. XP Maybe I should practice somehow somewhere. XD Just whenever someone doesn't feel happy with me I start to feel bad so I try to prevent that. XD

Yeah I try to tell myself that alot whenever I'm with someone. XD It's a constant battle between 'not wanting to be alone again' and 'wanting to be myself'. sorta. xP

And oh I see. o.o I think I read that in the Life Discusion forum. 8D
Congrats Asami! :3

sorry i went mia there for a moment, how ironic is this?

@ Zosa: XD Well we are talking about being anti-social while being social.

@Vincent:
XD we are birds of a social feather then.

Ugh buses I feel your woes so hard on that one. =_= soooo hard. It is annoying trying to go some place only to have to prepare two hours a head of time. I am lucky enough to live in a city and I can walk some places but down town is like an hour away from my house.

Its tough but being a people pleaser can be a horrible habit. People will come to expect it of you and take advantage of that. I think if you select who you want to be most happy in life you will find it easier to distinguish between short term relationships and longer ones. You really can't please everyone and those who really like you/you trust will not take advantage of this kindness.

Eh I learned how to be selfish from my mom. Because I do not look out for number one, no one is. Sadly u.u I do like to be around people its just more then often I prefer to be alone with my thoughts.

that is weird XD how about we talk about talking?

@ Poggio ;
XD yay us~

I know right x.x It's just so much work that makes my inner lazy cry.
I mean I live in a good location. There's a store in walking distance (have to carry groceries home. x.x) and a few restaurants and such. Even the mall is pretty much within walking distance (although not a fun walk xD)

Hm. I guess I'm just not used to people disliking me. I wouldn't know what to do. x:
Sorta like a 'just let the haters hate' thing? XD

Hm I need to learn how to be selfish. X: I'd share just about anything XD
Although some things i tend not to budge on. x:
But yeah same here. being around people is fun and all but so is being alone in my thoughts, too. x.x'

@ Zosa ;
Talk about talking? Whut. XD

yes, did you know you cannot read a person's lips from the the side

Well I didn't -know- that but it sounds logical to me. XP haha.

I can't read a person's lips in general, though, really.

i can do a passable job of it XD i used to be a lot better at it

Why did you randomly get worse at it? xP haha.

just did not do it regularly -shrugs- as is life right? XD i got interested in it after space odyssey 2001 but that was back in highschool and it is not a skill i had much need for

Ah. Yeah. xD
Kinda hard to keep at something sometimes like that. x:

That's why it was hard for a foreign language to stick on me haha. XP

yeah, the better part of a decade will wash all that out

On a side note, I'm off for today, Poggio. I'll continue the conversation tomorrow? x3 Or such?
Nice talking to you , though! x3
Laters~ :3

@ Zosa ;
lmao XP i know right. not sure if I should try again. XD

goodnight~


only if you use it, otherwise it is a waste

Bwah Now I am the one confused @.@
And Alrighties good night Vincent. xD.
-snuggles with Zosa in the kissing booth-

hehe~ cuddles<3 and your dress is so smooth and cool~ this is nice

Daw thank you. XD I have been trying to use this item for the longest time.
Where is your face?

i dont have one XD

Oh no Noh face D<

it's on my butt? my cheeks are painted XD

XD You are not eating my soul with your buns, that is a no no.

hahaha, you are thinking all wrong, i eat your soul through /your/ butt

-is so scared at the current conversation-
o~o...

I agree, and that's why I thought you may have skipped it intentionally. xD Though the numbers do start getting really far apart once you get high enough. We probably won't make it to 89 pages in here though so no big deal. :P Anyway, my inner math geek (which is actually the same as my outward math geek) approves of your use of the sequence for page prize purposes! It's such a beautiful sequence in so many different ways. :)