What no.
I don't wanna.
My phone already did it for itself.

ah man. . . i didn't fall asleep until 5am last night and I couldn't figure out how the time passed so quickly while I was just laying in bed there. . .

And then I woke up and it's 11:30 and i'm so tired T^T


also can not find my phone T^T

Explains why you never replied =P
My betta is so pretty =O I'm so happy I got it

i named mine sir william! ouo

Yes I have looked but i can't remember where i put it XPPP

So agenda for today:
Find phone
Text SparX ;D
Play 1 maybe 2 games of LoL
Dye hair?
Art
Cook tri-tip
More art
Sleep

;3

I have to fix moms computer
make roast and put in for 6 hours
clean hours
text glitch
buy wraps
wait for people to show up

I've been wanting to art and I'm having tons of inspiring ideas in my head but it is a completely different matter getting those ideas on paper as anything more then descriptive words.

well if i remember too, i'll stream it so you can get inspired XD

Please do I have so many pretty visions in my head
like a fake oil pastel/ waste of paint flower or mountain painting (the kind with huge globs in parts of the painting that add "texture" but actually waste paint for how much it costs..... but people love it!!!!) by melting crayons on canvas and spreading them similarly to how the other paintings are, then drying them and just adding more and more layers of melted crayon to achieve the look.
Much less expensive and if I'm right it should come out looking almost the same.

Awe <3 you've just gotta tell yourself to do it and get started <3

I do and when I do bullshit flies from my fingertips like a fire hose.

haha i like your new avatar! I don't even know what half of the items are

Some evnt items that got traded to me =3
Dinner smells so good but I can't eat till people are here T.T
This marks my 1,001 post =D

i should probably start dinner soon

What are you gonna have?

i just made a tri-tip and so we ate all of that and now cookies! ouo

That sounds like a good idea!

Yes it was awesome, I need more cookies though

I have bags of gummy worms and bear sand fig newtons too

i don't think I'd want to eat bear sand. . . .

too excited to realize my typo =P

hhehe ^___^

I'm off to work~

and super sleepy~~~

oh boy!

haha

I have art plans to do at work today! I'm hoping to follow through with them too because my pin business relies on it XD

i didn't sleep well last night... hubby's working through some things and it keeps him up at night - he says he needs mindless things going on (like the tv playing) to 'turn off' his mind which is going a zillion miles a minute. one of the things is that he's worried about our financial state (which sucks, btw), and that keeps him up and his mind going. so some nights he'll start out in bed, but end up on the couch.

last night, something didn't really go his way (he didn't actually say anything that he wanted something (which was he wanted me and younger daughter to join him in a game) but rather sat on the floor, playing on his phone, with the game next to him. and after a while, just got up, went into the office and closed the door.) and then he watched tv on the one tv, then moved into the room where i was on the computer and crocheting, turned on his show on netflix and was asleep shortly thereafter. at one point when i was ready for bed, i asked if he wanted to join me, and he mumbled something about he needs the tv for his zillion-mile-a-minute mind. but after i'd gone into the bedroom at 1 something, and couldn't get to sleep until 4ish, he'd turned off the lights (and even turned the tv back on when one of the times i'd gotten out of bed i turned it off.) and the only thing he even said last night was when i'd popped into our office a bit after he'd gone in there to ask if everything was good, and he said it was.

i emailed him this morning at work, because he sounded really grumpy this morning - i wake up when he comes in the bedroom after his shower, and say 'love you' and his reply this morning was kinda grumpy. i don't really expect an answer, but i've been married to the guy for almost 22 years, and i'd like to think we're still best friends...

yeah, sorry for the blathering.

oh no worries hun, vent away.

Maybe you can get him to talk to you and try to help him sort out his problems or come up with some sort of plan for the things that are worrying him? You could also try and just engage him and get him to do stuffs with you?

thanks Glitch. =)

he's a guy, but i'll see what i can do. =) {{hugs}}

I personally see the biggest problem being lack of communication. often times people will get set in their ways and just expect you to understand this is what they are doing, when there is no verbal communication as such. But also having to have dealt with sensitive guys before who get worse when you bring stuff like that up, I always play the I've been wrong with how I acted and I just feel like if you helped me by remembering then we can both work on it type of thing. Then, you aren't laying blame on them or calling out their faults, but seeming to want to better the whole.

my 2 cents, dropped =P

i do a bit more apologizing than i should, and sometimes it works. we had a big talk about a month ago, which is when he first told me about the financial sitution. this one, i think, is a personal one - he'd made a friend at the go-karting place where him and younger daughter would go, but teenager things happened with younger daughter (14) and go-karting friend (15), and now hubby doesn't get to go go-karting as he did before. he's finally found a place where he can be himself, and now he can't really. it's a loss for him and i don't think he's dealing with it all that well. but i hope to talk to him tonight. =)

I guess I am pretty lucky XD my guy and i spend 24/7 together basically and he's pretty chill with talking about whatever is on his mind, but he is a little feminine so maybe that helps XD

Maybe he can work it out so he can go go-karting again!
Or you could start saving up for a different toy for him. If you were in Oregon I'd send Brady go-karting with him.

I pass by a go-karting place everyday I work for pizza...... I keep thinking about maybe taking serg there but on what day off XD
Me and serg have had a total of 5 days apart in our 6 years of being together(as of august, I'm rounding up) so I'm on the same page as glitch.except for the fact that my husband is very simple minded/one-track/illiterate(junior in high school at 25?)
While I am extremely complex/thousand thoughts a minute/Years of reading and education(first big book was a encyclopedia I read at 7)
So we have problems coming up with appropriate topics to discuss with each other that aren't shared interest.
Black white and grey pretty much =x

Brady was a 4.0 student in high school but he's a looker and focused more on girls than school work so he hasn't gone to college or anything yet. Me, I'm average -- not that smart. I had a 2.5 GPA in college XD pretty bad. So I'll say something and then he has to really dig into subjects with me that are usually all over my head but it's ok.

I must say I will missing having access to a printer with free ink to get my art all together .-.

ah yes, work printers <3

I want to buy a desktop and a printer
But I also want to minimize on stuff in my house and how much stuff I already have
and it's never ending.

we have two printers at home but they are both in the closet in their boxes XD

So brady went off to get lunch --- I normally get hot food but I thought maybe a BLT would be ok so long as I still got french fries since they're hot xD

Anyway --- he gets back with only the sandwich and no fries and just says "they screwed up your order." And so I"m like "but where are they" well he decided since they goofed up he wouldn't get me any fries.

And now i'm just so depressed and the BLT doesn't sound good since it's cold and there's no hot fries to balance it out XD

So I put in the fridge because I didn't really want that i just really wanted fries XD Normally I only eat fries --- i was trying to be more healthy.

I know I should go eat it but I'm just so. . . so disappointed.

Gahhh sometimes I hate being a girl xD

edit: i went and got the fries <3

Seriously the other half of the meal makes the entire thing I completely understand.
My biggest issue when eating is I'll get super pumped for food and then by 3-5 bites in I start over-analyzing my food and the flavors and get sick of it. =(

we had a short little chat earlier, and things did get cleared up. we've been married for almost 22 years, i know what to ask. and i heard it in his voice that things were better, which is good.

he still does go go-karting every once in a while, but my unmedical opinion is it's withdrawal. maybe he'll be able to go again soon, yeah. i think he needs it.

but i think most what he's going through is really him, and the way things affect him. i do take comfort knowing that it's not me... but at the same time he's hurting about something he really can do nothing about. and he was the guy who taught me that if you can't do anything about it, why worry about it. (like the weather.)

That's awesome then!
D= I've only had 5 patients today...and none in the past 2 hours...so dull....

agreed.

sorry your day has gone slow....

I was going to say we've hardly had anybody and been really dead at work but when I looked it says we've had 20 so I guess not as dead as it feels like.

@Trystan: well that's good. Just be there for him and support him ^_^

it is good Glitch. i think it's that sometimes he might forget that i won't support him.

I may just ban this woman from my shop for being so stupid.....I'm going lose my shit on her.

Edit: now that I have no-one coming let me elaborate
3 times I've informed her she can't park in the dumpster. She's even parked directly in the middle of the road(parking lot roadway) to run in, but "it shouldn't be a problem for only 10 minutes" so she says.
Yes it is a problem you need to stop.
She also freaked out on me because the wind turned my be-back-soon sign around to a come-on-in sign(we never even put the sign up unless were not there thus making that side of the sign useless and everyone who comes here knows that....) she apparently went next door into the rec shop freaking out about it trying to make them come unlock it from the inside so she could get her stuff, since it says were open and the door is locked and the other side says be back at 3:15 and it was 3:08..... but they aren't associated with us technically (same bosses, different businesses)so they couldn't help her.
Then she sits in here for 20 minutes complaining about everything while 2 more patients build up.

I just
want to shoot
something.