Dear Diary,
I love him more with ever breath I take. It's just not fair. He is the reason I smile... the reason I laugh. I'm uninterested in the guy who contacted me because of him.

Sincerely,

Lovesick

Dear diary,
please please help me pass these tests that I have coming up. I really need to pass these desperately in order to do the next certificate. Please.

Dear -

I know I don't ask for much, and I know when I do ask for something its normally impossible for you to help me with it. Yet here I am with request(s) and I pray you will see me through the hard times ahead.

I need this job, and so I need to pass this test. I've taken it before but its not the same now... theres actually a need for me to pass it this time. (With the highest score possible) So please oh please help me to achieve one of the new jobs. Please;

I wish you would do something already. You're ruining your god damn life and you don't even care. Blame me or whoever else you want but nothing will change till you change it yourself. You're about to lose everything and you're to blind to see it. What are you going to do if you lose your job? What are you going to do when she doesn't take you back if you fuck things up again? Blame me for you relationship. Fine. But its the ONLY good thing in your life right now. If you can't even see that then boy you're already to far gone to realize.

I wish you would be more careful. I still worry about you. Even though you're farther from me then ever before. I'm scared that something is going to happen and I'll never be able to talk to you again. You still mean so much to me, and I don't know what I would do if I ever lost you.

I'll never forgive you. Ever. You've hurt me for the last time, and now you're taking your problems and your stress out on those closest to you. Grow Up. We don't deserve your shit. It's not our fault that everything is falling to pieces around you. Nothing you say will change that, but some of us are not stable enough to deal with your shit. Get over yourself. Pull your shit together. Or get out of my life.

I'm so scared. Everything is about to change... and you don't even have a job yet... What happens when I don't get the new job? What happens when we can't pay rent. I know you hate it when I freak out. And I know we should be saving money but we keep spending it. I'm so worried about what the future holds. I've been holding it together as much as I can but I'm not as strong as you think... You know me better then anyone... Why can't you see how worried I am?

You are the only one in the family that I truly never want to lose. And I feel I'm losing you. You're keeping things from me, and the one thing I want to talk to you about I can't bring myself to. Cause it would make it real and that would kill me inside. I'm scared about whats happening. I just want everything back to normal. You used to walk on water... but now you're slowing slipping under the waves. I miss you. The way things were... I don't care what makes you happy... but I wish you could find a better way to do it then this... I wish I could just talk to you about this. If only it was simple... but it feels like it's not my place... I hope things get better soon...

Dear Heart,

Why must you be so fickle? Sometimes it seems you attach yourself to someone just because they are new and interesting. Don't you care how that makes me feel? I want to believe that you can have space for more than one person but if so I wouldn't feel so flustered all the time. Please remember that I can only be one person...myself...

-Serra

Dear whoever people believe in,

Please help Mizeria and her family.

Thanks,
Espy

-hugs Mizzy- Wow...I...hope stuff gets better <3

Espy; Thats not even the half of it. xD

Augh. I don't think I could even imagine... -headdesk-

I try not to think of everything...
Life is just... not the best right now.
Not horrible because of Obbie
but he's the only things good I've got right now

Dear Trisphee,

I met and talked with many wonderful people on here. All of it is because of Fenris. If it weren't for her, we wouldn't even know of the name 'Trisphee' (or 'Trisphe' as older users remember it by.) I hope the greed settles down here so I can come back someday to help run the charity in the welcome wagon again, and enjoy these beautiful pixels.

Sincerely,
Miranda

Dear self, why can't you just let me be happy, why do I allow these negative thoughts to consume me and control my every movement of the day. It hurts when I think negative about him and our relationship.
But, it ain't his fault. It's mine, I know that for sure. He is the best thing that has happened to me.
I think I'll be okay though, in time that is.

Dear Who ever cares. . .

I hate you. . . .

With love,

Nikko

Dear Diary,
I feel so confused. I'm trying so hard to change, but allot of things are still unresolved. I'm stuck with what I want to do with my life. I know I need to change allot of things.The challange lies in figuing what things come first and why. I know I'm part way to who I want to be, but I'm not moving forward like I want to. I wish I was more like someone else, but I have to banish that thought because it's blocking my path. I am who I am and learn to acept and live with what I've got.
-me

Dear Diary,
I'm still pushing him away with all of my power.
I feel just awful... I want something to change soon.
Otherwise I might just go crazy.

Sincerely,

Me

Dear Me,

Seriously. Start going to bed a lot earlier and stop feeling so down.

Sincerely,

Your body and mind.

Hey, you.
That's what you say, isn't it? After I tell myself I'm over you, four months of no contact, and what? "Hey, you." And my heart skips a beat. Betraying my feelings even when I'm telling myself that this time, I'll be happy being friends. It's true, you know. I'm just happy if you're happy, I don't need anything from you. What do you want from me? I wish I could ask.

Dear Muff,
Thanks for the creation of this thread. I really needed that.

Dear me

ARGH...GO TO WORK ALREADY!!!

Dear -

I'm sorry. For everything. But most of all for turning to the one person you ask me not. He's the only one to response when the panic hits me. I love you and only you forever and I hope you believe me. I know he's still stuck on me and still wants me back, but more than that he wants me happy. I freaked out yesterday. The stress has really been getting to me. I texted two people. You first, and then him. You didn't respond and that sent the breakdown I was having into full swing. He kept me calm through work. When I got home I thought I would be fine. Yet as soon as I tried to sleep... This job holds our future and it scares me that its all left up to a test that doesn't even apply to our work. I was freaking out but I couldn't get you to wake up. I know things are not perfect and never will be but things are better and you've been there for me. But yesterday you weren't. And I needed you.
I'm sorry for leaning on someone else. I'm scared and worried about what the future holds. I'm unstable and fragile. Things are getting to me that shouldn't and I fear that you might have misunderstood if you saw those messages. If you really want me to I'll delete him from my life. No facebook. No Skype. No Phone.
I would do that for you honey. The only reason I haven't yet is he is always there if I can't get ahold of anyone else.
I don't know if you'll see this or not... and I'm not sure how to bring it up in person. I don't want you hurting because of me... and I fear that it will hurt you I turn to him...
God why do I keep messing things up?

Dear People From the Past,

Please stop popping up out of nowhere. I was happy forgetting the majority of you. Seeing you and speaking to you makes it harder to live life in the present. I do not need this and would appreciate it if you disappeared again.

Sincerely,

Holly

Dear Sadie,
I really miss you, but I promise I won't cry anymore.
-me

Dear you,

Yes you, I just wonder why is it that I always get stuck in this position. I do realize I put myself here on multiple occasions but its the hope and the humanistic NEED to be accepted wanted and also feel useful that I keep doing this.if I was stronger this wouldn't affect me but truthfully I know if I was strong enough not to be affect by it, I wouldn't need friends and thus I would become rather lonely.

Despite your words you still sit there and at times I catch it, a word, a phrase an unintentional slip of the tounge and little behaviors that allude to the very obvious fact you look down upon me as being- younger. I am, chronological, and I am still learning and experiencing quite a bit. This however does not mean I'm not as skilled or that I am incompetent. So stop it.

I do DESPISE the fact you have to sit there and say that you dislike being censored however if I were to speak freely I am chastised and you lurch backwards as if I have physically wounded you. Do you not hurt me with your words or your unspoken words to be as an obligation to be silent? We are to be the BEST of friends and in the past I could say 'Hey, this is bothering me" but as I approach you now with a simple soft 'Hey, this is bothering me' I might have incurred the wrath of hell itself! No your wrath is not in the form of anger and flame but tears and 'heart wrenching' sob stories that are exaggerated and untrue but to discredit them would shine me in the light of the villain even more.

I'm triad of being the villain. I'm triad of being your erren boy and doing all that I can to make you happy. More over I'm devastated that it's the you and the ____show whenever we all get together to do something. I didn't want to hear about your last trip together because every 5th sentence was 'oh and we missed you too! it was like we were missing something!" I call FOUL and I say you're lieing just to try to appease me.I WANT you two to have fun yes, but when I tried to date someone all you could do was lament how I was 'pulling away' and yet for ___ I feel discarded and left aside.

suppose she is older then me....therefor more Worldly and to your taste yes? this leaves me..... oh yes on the side like a dog begging for both attention and praise.

Please, help me find a way to tell you to STOP IT because it hurts.

Dear Boy,

It seems like you're having fun on your trip. It makes me jealous to see pictures of you with her on the plane... in the hotel room... or even eating tacos. All the same, I'm glad you're having a good time. & I hope you come back home safely... Though I wouldn't mind it if you realized how wrong for you she is along the way.

Sincerely,

Holly

Dear _____,

I really like you a lot. A LOT. If I had known you longer one might even say I was in love with you, but it's probably not gone that far. I've told you how I feel, and I sort of know how you feel too. I'm not going to insist that we be together because I'm not sure I can make you happy. At least not in the permanent way that a relationship would require. So I will stay and love you from where I am, and stay your friend for as long as you want. My heart will always be open to you.

-Serra

Dear Andy at Work,
I hope you know I officially hate you, and this means war.
Trying to tell another coworker back in the day that when I got my tooth pulled I was taking my pain killers at work.. and freaking selling them!? Uh yeah, no. I will destroy you if need be.
You do NOT piss me off.

Dear who/whatever may control this..~

Stop thinking about having a baby..It won't happen that way. I wish the doctors would stop saying PCOS but not saying yes you have it here are the paths we can take to get it under control or anything. I want to have a baby. My husband and I have had that "when ever it happens" talk, we want a baby. I feel fat and ugly but can't seem to find the motivation to change that. I see my hubby losing weight because of his work and I think why can't I lose any.

Why do I have these weird muscle spasms and bloatly feeling.

Oh well maybe I'm just crazy..

Seriously, you need to stop, ASAP. You're being too obvious.
"Rocks, oh rocks from the heavens, whoever it might hit, shouldn't get mad." -Southeast Asian Proverb

Dear Trisphee diary.
I've been neglecting you, and Trisphee in general.
But life has been tough on me.
People should learn to watch their mouths...
Just saying...
Sincerely.

Dear Person I took photos of.

Did I not tell you I am having computer troubles? Have I not said I would do my best to post things? Sure I jumped in head first into the waters. I said I'll grab my camera and take epic pictures! Did I think of a place to PUT said pictures when I'm running off of bubble gum and duct tape? be GLAD I was even able to put the small handful of shots up I did. guess what I'm doing them in SEQUENTIAL ORDER now that I uploaded the shots of you from LAST YEAR. Do you know how hard you've been to contact? did you not READ my million Pm's of "I havent forgotten about you!" Sure it may SEAM as if my computer being down is the only excuse I have. it is and it isnt. I work. I have a job with unknown days off I get paid enough to LIVE support one or two little habits to satisfy MY life because if I didnt... I would HAVE A CAMERA TO TAKE PHOTOS OF YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE.
*sigh* I do know you're excited. But a THANK YOU would be nice. a thank you of posting the pics I did owe you and posting of the pics from this last shoot. a thank you that I did this for you FOR FREE. I have a DEGREE in Photography. I have had my camera for a total of ONE month and already I'm keeping pace with the people who charge 15-30 bucks a HALF HOUR and only give you the "best" shots. if you can get linux to communicate with Java and flash better. Then please do it. maybe the processor on this poor little machine- which thus far has done me better then my desktop which is a lovely stand for the laptop- just cant handle large photos being uploaded. really.... really.

ungh. just... THANK ME and oh credit me... and a little understanding.... and maybe just.... MAYBE I might be more inclined to upload a little faster. sadly today I had life get in the way.
I cleaned my dungeon, I walked to the store, got food, cooked food and cleaned some more. you have to understand. thats EPIC AMOUNTS OF CLEANING TO BE DONE @_@ there were spiders the size of shelop in there! I HAD TO WEAR GUTTS ARMOR TO KILL IT!.... many times. whatever. time for bed.
I'll work on the photoshoots before yours tomorrow....after I get my wig ready.

vindictively yours <3

Dear Diary,

The last few days have been stressful, but the end will be rewarding. I'm glad I've had the courage to take care of these kittens. Also, that family has supported me and assisted me with doing so. Most of all I'm thankful that they're improving by leaps and bounds. I wish I could keep them, but that would make 5 cats... We will see. > u >

Sincerely, Holly

Dear Heero Yuy(who is my fav anime chara)

I am very happy right now! I have a new laptop and found some really great sites to post on. I even have a girlfriend who i have been with for almost 6 years now. I think life is going well. Now all I have to do is get going on getting my monies saved up for a tablet and a 3DS and I'll be good.
thanks for listening
'D'

Dear dad.

I'm gonna tell you.
And you cannot disown me.
I'm your son, your flesh and blood.
You can't change that with just words.

David.

Dear people that like to reply without knowledge,

Just because you don't know something don't assume I'm in the same boat. I don't make suggestions that I've not done in my own life, or researched long before I'd tell anyone else. Yes, it may sound odd/dangerous/counter-intuitive, but I have most likely already proven it works.

And the next person that even implies I would do something that would hurt an animal...I will kick you right in the kneecap. I've been working with animals longer than most of you have been alive, so just btfo.

Love
A very upset Fey

Dear Jane,
I love you, but you drive me up the wall sometimes
-me

Dear Diary,

Please give me strength to murder customers when they appear with less than 3 brain cells. I don't care if I'm working in a toy shop. I will murder a bitch.

Oh and I love my wife. Lol, only thing that keeps me sane she is.

Love,

JenJen.

Dear Diary,

Please help me to get less frustrated on this costume I'm making. I have already screwed up a ton because I was impatient and foolish. Also I can't frigging figure out this dang spindel thing that is most definitely a falis symbol of doom -.- Along with this I wish that this heat would pass because I hate being soaked with sweat when I work out in my tool shed XP Thanks for letting me get my frustration out journal.

Sincerly,

D*****

dear self,
sometimes you get super sad in regards to a lack of IRL friends and social outings. please for the love of god remember that you will always have world of warcraft.
<3

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