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I will, once I know for sure that I'm rid of an abusive relationship once and for all. Whether that means he's gone away or he's changed, idc. As long as I'm not treated like crap again. =A=
Unfortunately, it just keeps following me around. Dx ONTO A HAPPIER SUBJECT, I finally got into Pottermore. ; v ;'' After swearing that it hated Americans. Rofl. And also, progress on the Trisphee stuff is getting steady again. \o/ |
Aw, bleh, don't worry people who give you shit get shit, so try to stick it out and finally you will see that it needs to over and you will find someone who doesn't treat you badly.
Other than that...YAY~ |
For right now, I get the feeling he's trying to kiss up to me since I finally stood up for myself. >__>
So to be honest, it's been a little easier for me to resist it instead of trying to resist all the "It's because of all the stress"/"I wanted to push you away because +excuse+" etc etc. And the guilt tripping. And the belittling. -__- All that. So at least the hard part is over with. Told him it didn't take just three days to heal over. So he'd have to really work for it if he thought it was worth it. I know I'm actually probably being too nice, but egh. And I'm aware I'm not over him yet, which is stupid and kinda weak of me, but what can I do except wait? =A= Sorry if this is depressing; I don't mean for it to be. >__> I'm just the kind of person that rants on the spot. xD; Tv's sort of fixed. Except the scifi channel. ; n ; +dresses in black for the death of the scifi channel+ |
/attends the funeral.
It's not depressing. YOU HAVE to let it out. But I think you are being too nice and that kind of shows him that you still care for him and if he wants you he better get to steppin'. XD |
He's sort of a hard person to read if you know him well, to the point where you try to see the best of him. He has a rocky life, but I won't share his personal stuff with the world, so I try to be as understanding as possible, hence why I put up with it for... ugh, since April-ish when he started to get... mean.
And he's the type to make up excuses for why he did things, to the point where he tries to make you feel bad for him. About 90% of the time, he had me convinced it was part my fault, so my spine was like.. non existent. >__> I made it clear though, that I was done with it. And then for the past 3 days, despite that I know he was out on dates with other people, he's been sending me messages and I've been avoiding them because HE basically said he wanted me to not talk to him for a while, and then calls me ignorant because I haven't been answering. +pulls on hair+ Aggggh I don't understand his way of thinking. It's so arrogant and self-centered. But I know a lot of this was unintentional. I'm not being the guy who is defending a bad guy because he's broken down to do so; that's what makes this so complicated. He's actually not a bad guy. He just has bad habits and a jumbled life, kinda. OTL Hopefully people understand that. Dx I'm not being a fool. >__> I rant anyway, if you hadn't noticed. Just recently stopped trying to give a crap if people wanted me to shut up or not, rofl. If people don't like it they can just not read it. =A= |
It's fine. >w<.
And you aren't being a fool. I think you aren't. I will rant randomly as well. XD |
>A> I'm fully aware that I seem like one. I don't even feel like a victim either, rofl.
Even though I sort of look like one. Because to everyone else, this is just sort of like a classic case of mental abuse. >__> People will think I'm only defending him because I think I deserve it. Sure, that's how it was before, but not now. OTL I just reeeeeaaally don't want people to think that. Roflololol. It makes telling my mom about why I've been distracted awkward, because she's been "8C" about it. >A> And I always end up going "NO, I'M NOT BEING A DERP" about 50 times. xDD +scribbles more stuff onto Trisphee picture+ D< Need to finish... as soon as possible... |
Well, people don't understand what you are going through.
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The water was disgusting. xD; So we came home.
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*Comes in flaunting his ugly Funky color avatar*.
Hello. |
LOL. BATTY.
XD /it's not ugly, Heon. XD |
ITS NOT UGLY! I actually really like it. :3
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Some do; I'm not the only one it's happened to. xD
And it wasn't even that bad.. It could've been worse. Since it was long-distance, it was just over the internet/phone. Although... well it's terribly, terribly complicated. OTL OTL Like the complexity of this situation is crazy. Dx +flails about+ At least I can poke fun at it. xD Batty: >A> All our lakes are all infected with toxic algae. Roflolol. |
Caramel : Yes it is.... it hurts your eyes if you staire at it.
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Not really. XD.
I don't have hurting eyes when I see it. XD |
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Well, that is good. >W< |
My eyes don't hurt looking at it. o__O;
Then again, I stare at the computer all the time... >A> |
Mei: That might be it... it is just to many funky color.
Batty : Thanks <3. |
HAY MEIZ!!! <3 What are we talking about? xD;
Hoen;; Your welcome. :3 |
I NEED THOSE PANTS AND MASK.
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Batty: I was just ranting about stuff that I've been ranting about for a while since it wont go awayyyy. xD
Caramel: I'm going to give you these 9 pearls I have. Because.. 9 isn't gonna get me anything. xD |
BATTY! I wish I could stay on all day to shower you in love~
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-sits down rubbing feet- this one time at band camp.....I made my blister bigger than it was before....
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I have 14 pearls. xD;
I'm just waiting for the contest prizes to be distributed. And aww.. you can rant at me, if you'd like! <3 I'm a great listener. -nodnod- |
Batty - The judges have come to a conclusion! I have 5 pearls for you from when you won my avatar contest during the Masquerade :3 I'd announce it in the thread but.. it got closed v.v lol
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@ Batty:
You still need the pearl items? XD |
Belle: I was in marching band when I was in school. ; v ;
Itwasfun.. But we had "band camp" in the school parking lot because we were poor. >A> And I was a drum major. 8D +got to yell at people+ xDD |
Ginger;; REALLY?! =O! YAY! THATS THE FIRST AVI CONTEST I'VE WON, EVAR!
Taiki;; I WANT YOU TO BE ON SO I CAN CUDDLE YOU ALL DAY LONG. -flyingtacklecuddle- Cheese;; No, I have them all. But I'd like to have extra sets to give away later. |
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GO GET THEM SETS, GIRL~ xD @ MEI: WE ARE DOING THAT AS WELL. XD. BUT IT'S NOT BECAUSE WE ARE POOR, WE JUST HAVE NO PLACE TO GO AND WE AREN'T GOING TO PRACTICE IN GRASS. |
Does someone need Pearls? I have like 15 I think. o3o
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xDDD!!! I love giving people things~
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>w<. And thank you. xD |
Caramel: xD
There was one year that we had this crazy guy trying to "help out". He forced us outside all day in 100+ degree heat, and made me, the other drum major and the pit go line a field behind the school with twine strings and spray paint. OTL Half of us were like incompetent because of the heat, but the crazy guy got pissed anyway, but then we found out he was stealing money from the band boosters, so he got fired. >A> ROFL. <3 Karma. We called him "Gay Gandhi" because he was FLAMIN' and he looked like Gandhi. xDDD |
xD; Pumpky... you have people giving you stuff left and right.
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I feel like a bum. XD. @ Mei: LOL. AT THE GAY GHANDI. He must have been a bitch to steal money from the band boosters. ISN'T A PAYCHECK GOOD ENOUGH? xD |
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