Needren huffed a little before he looked to Thalion "Trust me it was better then being at home" He said moving away a little from Thalion "It was better then going through the things I did to save you" He said with a growl but this was when Thalion made a comment about how he didnt try and nothing was done. Needren growled "Are you kidding me!?" He all but screamed at Thalion. "I was five when you born Thalion...five" He said to him.

"When you were born mother died...father didnt want to do anything he didnt know the first thing of raising a kid!" He said to him "And you think I had any idea...no I had no idea I was a fucking child!" He said to him "But I did I tried my hardest. I was there to kiss your booboo's better, I was there feeding you and washing you...I did all I could for you!" He said with a growl as he clenched his fists.

"I did more for you then you could even understand" He said with a shudder "I did my job as the older brother. I saved you from that hell hole Thalion" Needren said looking at him as he placed a hand on his chest "I did...me!" He said in a raised vocie.

He knew that, or from what he remembered anyway. Heck the only time their fathers ever said anything to him it was to scold him or to hit him when his temper was hot enough. Or if he was drunk enough... that was often too. He knew Needren had taken care of him when he was younger. Thats why he never understood why things changed.

"Then tell me now, hell I thought for years I had pissed you off or something. Just all of a sudden one day you seemed to hate me even breathing." It was true it was like just out of no where, he was never told why or what was going on.

"I had tried to do everything right by you and you say you cast me aside. Why then? I half started to think that father had gotten to you too with his talks of how I shouldn't have survived or that mother should have been around instead! Hell for a while I thought it was only fair that both of you hated me." He laughed weakly thinking on it.

But he did really want to know, he was old enough now that Needren didn't have to keep protecting him from whatever horrible things that was in their past.

"You want to know..." Needren said looking at Thalion but when he got an angry yes he growled "Fine then..." He said "You want to know why I shunned you and pushed you away at such an age..." This was When Needren growled as he moved his head "He had a thing you know...after mother died" Needren said in a broken tone "One night he got drunk...and it all started" He said lightly.

This was when Needren explained to Thalion the details of what he went through. The drunken nights alone with his father after Thalion was in bed. The night things went to far and how they continued. "The drunken rapes and beats was all I lived with for years" He stated brokenly as he moved and pressed his back into the wall before sliding down it.

"Then one night he told me I was to old...that he needed something that was not worked on...something brand new" He said sadly with a little shrug of his shoulders "I stopped him...every time he tried...it was me or you...." He said lightly "Then the beatings started...each time a new bruise or mark" He said with a huff.

"So I did what I had to do" He said "Even though it broke my heart I made you leave and forced you away" He said "I thought you were better off alone then in a place like that" He said with a shrug "You wanted to know why I forced you away...there it is...I am finding you now because the bastards dead and I now have the chance to" He said in a short reply.

He listened to Needren talk about everything that happened over the years. He never knew, how could he have? He had the crazy thought now that he could have done something but he knew he couldn't have. Not at that age anyway. Needren had done everything just to spare Thalion. All those years he had blamed Needren for things and now with the truth out he felt like he had done the opposite of what he should have done.
They were both quiet for a moment before Thalion finally spoke again.

"Why.. why didn't you try to get up with me sooner or something, hell you didn't have to stay there you could have left too." Maybe he couldn't... maybe he stayed behind to make sure that he was safe... He moved finally sitting next to Needren going silent for a moment again.

"all these years and i never knew... damn what was i blind.." He said shaking his head a little. "Yet now you finally found me and we're stuck in this hell instead."

Needren shook his head as Thalion spoke "I couldnt..." He said lightly "He always threatened to find you" He said with a shake of his head. "You didnt know because I didnt want you to know" He said with a nod of his head as he felt Thalion sitting down beside him. This was when Thalion spoke again and Needren smiled some before lightly rocking against the male pushing him to one side.

"Its not that bad you know" He said "I found you didnt I...not to mention that hot man piece you have yourself there" He said with a smile though batted the air as Thalion said not to think about it. "What you think just because your back I will stop trying to get him?" He said with a little laugh "Nah...whats the fun in that?" He asked lightly with a little sigh before he closed his eyes.

"I am sorry Thalion...for leaving you all those years ago" Needren said "I never wanted to...if I could I would of left with you" He said "but I couldnt take the chance not with the threats he made...finding us we would of been dead" Needren said lightly with a little huff and a shrug of his shoulders.

After that he placed his hand on the males knee and patted it twice before using it to push off of the floor. Standing before Thalion he smiled a little "I am glad I found you Thal" He said with a little nod "And dont worry...big bros back" He said winking before leaving and entering his room. As soon as the door was closed he gave a shuddering breath before he retreated into the darkness.

Yeah he figured thats why Needren didn't leave. Over the ears he had probably been nearly impossible to track down. Not like tracking someone after all those years would have been easy by any means even with good leads.

"It is that bad I died remember?" He shuddered at the thought of it. That was not a pleasant feeling, let alone waking up was more of a shock then the death. "Heh... there is a rather long story on how that happened..." Wasn't that the truth. Somehow he doubted Mizuki had told him. He glanced at Needren as he said he said he wasn't going to stop. "I'd expect nothing less, I'd almost be disappointed if you did stop."

"Yeah.. well I know that now." He sighed a little. If only things had been different. Though because of everything he even met Mizuki. Things happen for a reason heh. Least neither of them had to worry about that now right? He said the old man was dead and all. But still if he had known maybe he could have .. helped years ago or something?

"glad huh? What were you worried I didn't make it on my own?" Though remembering his childhood it maybe was a bit of luck he had made it. Though the next comment he glared at before standing as well. "Yeah yeah... though I think I've managed without you for this long, not sure your needed anymore." Though he was joking. In a way maybe he was glad this all happened. It had mended over the issues in a way. Maybe not dealing with Mizuki but the other ones.

As the other moved towards the other room he stopped him a moment. "Don't leave me out anymore ok? Your not alone even if you think its your job to be the older brother." He had to let the other know that he was here for him. If he needed anyway. Its all he could say or do for now.

Though after the other closed the door he went back into the room with Mizuki as he sighed heavily. Mizuki was still out of it. Probably would be all night too. For now he had a lot on his mind so he sat on the edge of the bed. Just everything wasn't it?

Mizuki was out cold for the entire night and didnt wake until later the next day. Groaning he placed a hand on his head as he sat up "By the gods" He said with a groan "I will never touch that shit again" He said before he heard a chuckle off to the side. Looking over he noticed Needren standing at the door "You always say that yet you never learn" He said with a laugh walking in side the room.

"I mean it this time" Misuki said moving to sit on the edge of the bed "You always say that to" Needren said and Mizuki growled as he glared at the male. Mizuki moved and stood from the bed. It took him a moment to gather his balance but once it was there he didnt loose it. Moving he went about and got what he needed and headed to the bathroom attached to the room.

After a moment or two he came back out fully dressed and braiding the last bit of his hair. No one had seen his hair down but himself and Thalion and he intended to keep it that way "You suck" Needren said with a huff as he crossed his arms "Not going to happen and you know that" He said with a growl.

This was when Mizuki walked over to him "Well since your here...." He said looking Needren he glared as he slapped the male across the face "That. Sir. Is from last night" He said with a growl "If you ever try that again I will kick your ass and trust me you will not be able to move for a week" He said with a nod of his head "Do I make my self clear?" He asked and Needren smiled as he nodded "Crystal" He said with a smile.

Needren knew that was coming and he was prepared for it. He knew he crossed the line but it was worth it for the moment of contact. Though Mizuki as well as himself knew that it would happen again or at least attempted. It had been that way for almost five years why would it change now?

Mizuki sighed as he began to walk out of the room "So where is Thalion?" He asked. He needed to speak with the male and Needren knew that "Last I saw he was out at the training grounds with that halfbreed" Needren said with a shrug. Mizuki smiled "Alright" He said as he headed in that direction only stopping his footsteps when he stood and waited for Thalion to stop swinging at the male before him.

Reluctantly he had left Needren with Mizuki. Very reluctantly. Though he had told Raden he was going to practice today. The ranger wasn't good at melee combat at all and his ranged skills were, nothing to laugh at, still in the works. Though he hardly minded training with the half blood. He didn't talk a lot, well most of the time.

They had been at it all morning and poor Raden probably was more then happy to stop at this rate. Really in the real world Thalion probably would have been better suited to take up a military career then anything he had done. Though he didn't really like following orders that well. But would when he had to.

After a moment he noticed Mizuki as he finally let up so Raden could lower his guard before nearly fallow over before he steadied him. "Gonna make it? You said you wanted the help." Raden nodded a little before panting and planting his hands on his knees till he felt like he could move again. He couldn't get long sessions like this in with Raden before when they were traveling. Too much of a danger for them both to try and push whatever limits there were.

Though moving towards Mizuki he paused a little not sure if he should expect the other to be ticked or not. Ok probably both, he kind of deserved the ticked part after saying he needed to think like a damned idiot. Plus apparently saying anything or breaking up that kiss and fighting with Needren... Though that hardly stopped him from acting normally.

"Finally awake are you?" Though he half could see that Mizuki was still affected by the drinking he had done last night. Probably paying for it. Though now he waited for whatever lashing the other had prepared to come all the way out here.

Mizuki watched everything happen and waited until Thalion walked over to them. Mizuki was awaiting the comment to come and he knew exactly what he was going to do. Over the years he had been apart from Thalion he had done long days of training. This was something Thalion was about to figure out. After last night and waking this morning Mizuki had figured that he would see Thalion at his side but instead he awoke to Needren.

That right there was one of the reasons that he growled as the male stepped forward "You..." He said after a second of looking at the male. This was when he swung at Thalion cracking the male in the side of the face with a bawled fist and a heavy punch. "You son of a bitch!" He said before he swung again watching as it was blocked.

Mizuki knew that Thalion would give him one shot but after that he had to work for them so that is what he had planned on. Punching and kicking he attacked Thalion with a stern glare. Over the years he had learned how to fight. Thanks to some close incounters he had conned not only Luna to teach him but others as well. So now his hand to had was good if not great.

He didnt use a weapon as he struck time and time again at Thalion "You need to think about it..." He said as he struck again "I will give you something to think about!!" He said as he got the opening he was waiting for. With s punch to the cheek he doubled back with a knee to the side sending the male to the floor.

Stopping Mizuki stood there and glared at Thalion as his breath heaved "Out of anyone in my life I have never loved yet hated some one at the same moment like I did last night" He said in a growl "Do you have any idea how much guts it took to do that?" He stated "I put everything I had on the line...I bared my fucking heart to you Thalion!" He screamed at the male "And I get I need to think about it! Out of anything you could of said...and you choose those words" He said.

Mizuki was pissed. He loved Thalion to death but those words hurt like you wouldnt believe "Oh then to top it off I woke up to him!" He said point at Needren before he paused and looked at him "No offense" He said and Needren shrugged "Non taken" Looking back at Thalion he sighed deeply "For once in your life...why cant you think of what you say before you say it" He said in a sad tone as he looked to the ground a brim of tears lining his lavender eyes. Turning on his heel and started walking away.

First hit he was expecting, though maybe not the force behind it or the strikes afterwards. He'd blame Luna for this. He knew Mizuki had hardly been slacking off but still. He needed to work harder or something seeing as he currently had the chances to. The fight with Needren was a close one and Mizuki being able to keep up like this was hardly reassuring.

Either way he was managing to block all of the strikes, probably lucky on his part. Listening to Mizuki as he spoke, though the other was right he did kind of deserve this. He should have just said yes, but no he had to be a damned idiot about it.

Though the blocks hardly seemed to last long, probably a combination of thinking too much and already having dealt with Raden this morning. Also knowing he pretty much deserved this or asked for it. Though knocking the heck out of him hardly was going to make things better.

After Mizuki seemed finished he forced himself up before grabbing Mizuki and making him turn around. "I know it was stupid ok I get it. I've been back for three days. How the fuck was I suppose to answer? For over five years I had been doing nothing but fighting and the thought was there that it was all for nothing or that I probably would never find you. Hell I had accepted that for the longest time."

Though after that little bit he stepped back from Mizuki before shaking his head. "I said I needed to think not that you had to storm off and let some sex crazed idiot kiss you." He almost said worse like what would have happened if he had let things go? Or he could have let Needren deal with Mizuki when the guy was passed out drunk. Though he did manage to hold his tongue for that.

"I gave you a answer last night but if thats not good enough then fine I get it. Damn it Mizuki out of anyone here you should have known what answer you were going to get from asking out of no where... You know what maybe Needren's right for once, maybe do you deserve someone better." He had no intention of sticking around long enough for Mizuki to answer any of that. At the moment his temper was too hot to even bother listening.

He knew Mizuki loved him, he returned the feelings for the other. But it was true out of anyone Mizuki should have seen that answer coming a mile away. But he would have thought that also out of anyone he wouldn't be this upset over it. Oh the number of times he wished he could take things back. Heck last night he had gone over everything and he half thought it might have been better to just stay away.

Mizuki let Thalion walk away. He didnt want to try anything anymore but the last of the words that came from Thalions mouth made his fists bawl. He waited for Thalion to leave and what happened next he was waiting for. Needren walked over and placed a hand on his shoulder "Aww dont worry man this-" But is words were cut off as Mizuki turned and slammed a fist in the side of the face.

Mizuki stood there and glared at him "You told him he wasnt good enough for me!?" He screamed at him "Are you fucking kidding me?" He said pissed off beyond belief. "You have some fucking nerve do you know that?" Mizuki asked him with a tilt of his head. "You need to get it in your thick skull that this...will never happen" He said with a growl before walking away in search of Thalion.

It took him awhile to find the male but when he did he growled "I love you damn it" He said to him "I know you gave me my answer last night but thats not how I wanted it" He said. Mizuki paused then for a moment "I said it once and I will say it again...there is no one in this world for me but you Thalion" He said "Im sorry I got so angry...now I will leave you be" He said lightly backing up a little

After Mizuki seemed to clock Needren again and walk off Raden cringed a little before shaking his head at the thought. "That explains why those two get along so well..." Sure Thalion had a short temper but Mizuki seemed to have a equally short one at times. Granted that Needren sort of brought it upon himself.

Most would have taken a while to figure out where he had walked off to. It was just in sight of the protected area. But far enough where he didn't feel quite as smothered by everything. He had often enough complained about being trapped in the real world where they lived in the city and all.

Though he needed this time to cool off a bit. Damn he thought or was sure he had that short temper under control. Well that was a thought that he needed to scrap cause he had lost it a few times here. Maybe it was just being here or something that was putting him on edge. Everything just happening and going on probably wasn't helping it either. He had just barely sighed when he heard footsteps.

Though the growl that soon followed answered who it was. Mizuki said what he needed to before he started to move back from the sound of the steps saying he was going to leave him alone now. Though this was when Thalion spoke up finally. "I kind of feel sorry for you then."

He said before turning to look at the other a little. "I'm not the easiest person to get along with, let alone everything thats happened..." He sighed a little thinking on how to word any of this. Let alone he did agree Mizuki could and deserved better but he couldn't just flip a switch and change who he was. "I didn't really have to think on that answer you know.."

"I wanted to think on it because things are different here. I was more of thinking what happened if we ever were able to go back." It had been on him mind for ages, not everyone looked the same here as they did back in the real world. "I'm probably just over thinking on this now." Besides that what about finding him? If they were to go back somehow what if it took a while to find him? Or what if he never did like something happened.

"That wouldnt change a thing" He stated to him "I want you here and there" Mizuki said stepping forward "I have found you then lost you then found you again Thalion...." He paused a moment "I dont want to loose ypu again Thalion...dont you understand that?" He said with a tilt of his head. "I am sorry I reacted the way that I did...I should of expected it" He said "you were right"

Mizuki paused for a moment before he continued "You say I deserve better..." This was when he stepped closer to Thalion before looking right into those ember orbs he loved so much "...But there is no one better for me then you" He said lightly.

Mizuki wanted nothing more right now then to latch onto the male before him but he figured after what had taken place it was the last thing that Thalion probably wanted. "Im sorry...and I love you" He said lightly "Forgive me?"

He knew that answer without Mizuki saying it. Though it had been on his mind. Not that at this rate he saw any of them leaving this place any time soon. If ever they would be lucky it seemed. Though maybe he didn't want to go back anyway now. What or how do you explain being gone for over five years? Besides that the thought of having to back step and track down Mizuki, plus his sibling even if he still did have some things he disagreed with on, the thought of failing to do so soon followed.

"I do understand it I just... I dunno I told you ages ago when we were living together and we joked about when we got older and through with college. You always said I'd change my mind on marriage or I'd grow out of whatever insecurities I had." Needless to say he didn't, he still had some fear looming in his thoughts. Probably his own family life hardly helped but still.

Though he stopped talking as Mizuki moved closer and spoke again. "I really do pity you then. You could have picked someone that at least doesn't have a short fuse you know." Though he needed to stop saying Mizuki deserved better. Trying harder would be the better answer to all of this, though that normally seemed to end badly whenever they were both involved.

"Stop saying sorry, it was more of my fault anyway." If he had said yes from the start last night would have played out different as well as today. Moving a little as he pulled Mizuki close he kissed the other before speaking again. "I'll only forgive you if you socked that sex hound of a sibling of mine at least once... though I guess I'll forgive you even if you didn't because I love you."

Mizuki was glad when the kiss came. He really had thought that Thalion was going to step away and take more time but he was glad when that thought didnt happen "Heh...you left to soon then" He said with a growl as he thought of it "Telling you your nood good enough for me...the nerve of some people!" He said shaking his head "A right hook was the least I could do" He said with a shrug of his shoulders.

Leaning in Mizuki kissed Thalion again. Holding it for a moment he stopped and stepped back "You know what I think we need...a vaction" He said with a nod of his head "I mean...after everything that has happened a time to sit and relax with little to no people....sounds good to you right?" He asked with a tilt of his head.

Before Thalion could answer though Mizuki nodded his head "Yeah no its decided" He said "I know of the perfect place..." He said with a smile You the group and I...thats it" He said with a smile "Not to many people we will pack some food...it will be nice" He said with a smile before deciding now was time to tease.

Taking a step closer placing his hands on Thalions arms he leaned in so his chest was pressed into Thalions. Moving now his mouth was right at the males ear "Then I was thinking we could have a little...relaxation time of our own" He said with a smile as he ghosted his tongue over the base of Thalions ear to the tip before he pulled away with a smile and half lidded eyes.

"Eh be glad your a only child.. there was a lot I was told and most of it makes me think ignorance is bliss about now." Though really Thalion never talked much about his childhood anyway, even with Mizuki. So adding more mystery to it hardly changed anything. "Kind of sad I missed it, not it taught him anything." Nope Needren was still the same, stubborn.... ok maybe that was a family trait.

He blinked a little listening to the idea Mizuki had. Though he wasn't really allowed to answer his thoughts on it as Mizuki said it was decided. "Well glad I had a choice in it." He said laughing slightly at the idea of it. "Nope not many, just most of the loud ones is all." Not that he was complaining. Anywhere to get away from this place would be better, or so he thought anyway.

"Is that so..." He said before moving and getting Mizuki's back against a tree. "Keep talking like that we might have some before then." Damn tease was in the back of his mind. If he hadn't of given away that weakness some time ago he might fair better against Mizuki. Though why would he want to fight it too much anyway.

Mizuki smiled as he was pushed into the tree "Hmmm you know I wouldnt complain" He said with a smile before he rapped his arms around the males neck and leaned in. Lips touched and it was soft and slow but then it turned into a little bit of a heated one. Mizuki after a moment or two pulled back for a moment before he kissed the males cheek before he moved kisses to a dark neck and a pointed ear.

Mizuki didnt mind this in the slightest as he kissed Thalion feeling the male shiver. It was worth it. Though he couldnt continue much further before he heard a cough and he sighed. Dropping his head it fell on to Thalions shoulder. "What do you want...cant you see im busy here?" He asked before raising his head and looking at Luna "Yes I can but at the same time you need to go over the border reports..." She said "And before we head on this little trip you want to take" Luna said with a laugh as she walked away.

Mizuki growled. How long had she been that close to know of everything that was said and done. Mizuki shook his head before he gave a last nip to the tip of Thalions ear "Seems it will have to wait for later" He said with a little groan as he pulled back "You should do me a favor and gather some of the others and get a cart ready" He said "I will gather the food and and what we all need" Giving Thalion a kiss he growled a little "Now go before I change my mind and we are delayed a little longer" He said with a smile before starting to walk away.