okay o: i might try it one day

also i had a great day c:
im really excited for tomorrow!

@ Asami ;
Really? O: What's happenin tomorrow?

XD I understand that. I think people don't see it in my since it really is easy for me to strike up a conversation about any old thing. However when I think about it too hard ( like trying to talk to an attractive guy, or a person that looks like they need help, or likes something I like.) ASfdasfdafdsa fail... just fail, I start thinking about all things I find weird and realize that he is probably normal and would never accept me and probably has a hot girl friend some where. And I just stop talking... ._. The worse is when they suddenly get excited and I am at a lost as to what to say.

Well that may be a bit much... but what about going to a quieter store. Like if you like games what about going to a gamestop and if you happen to find some one looking in the same section as you try asking them what would they recommend to buy? I mean I met one of my good friends at a bus stop, all because I made a comment about an ant pile. ... Some how we got into an existential conversation about ants and life. It was strange.

Well sounds like you need to have an honest conversation with yourself and your boundaries. People will still like you, you need them to respect you. There is a difference. Right now it sounds as though you are being a people-pleaser.

Yeah but you are allowed your comfort zone. I mean you really shouldn't have to adapt too much to a person just to be with them. At least that is what I think.

@O@ good luck and have fun!
Asami is starting her first day tomorrow. <3

yea c: i got a job!! C:

@ Poggio ;
That's pretty much me right there. XD I start thiking I'm weird and he wouldn't accept me and there's better then me. Only instead of me stop talking, it normally ends in awkward silence I think. XD

Hm. maybe. I would if it was easier for me to go out. XD I gotta bus if I wanna go anywhere like that. Sometimes transferring, and I feel if I'm doing that just for a chance at that, and it ends up not happening, I'd be wasting my time and stuff. x:

I am a people pleaser haha. XP Maybe I should practice somehow somewhere. XD Just whenever someone doesn't feel happy with me I start to feel bad so I try to prevent that. XD

Yeah I try to tell myself that alot whenever I'm with someone. XD It's a constant battle between 'not wanting to be alone again' and 'wanting to be myself'. sorta. xP

And oh I see. o.o I think I read that in the Life Discusion forum. 8D
Congrats Asami! :3

sorry i went mia there for a moment, how ironic is this?

@ Zosa: XD Well we are talking about being anti-social while being social.

@Vincent:
XD we are birds of a social feather then.

Ugh buses I feel your woes so hard on that one. =_= soooo hard. It is annoying trying to go some place only to have to prepare two hours a head of time. I am lucky enough to live in a city and I can walk some places but down town is like an hour away from my house.

Its tough but being a people pleaser can be a horrible habit. People will come to expect it of you and take advantage of that. I think if you select who you want to be most happy in life you will find it easier to distinguish between short term relationships and longer ones. You really can't please everyone and those who really like you/you trust will not take advantage of this kindness.

Eh I learned how to be selfish from my mom. Because I do not look out for number one, no one is. Sadly u.u I do like to be around people its just more then often I prefer to be alone with my thoughts.

that is weird XD how about we talk about talking?

@ Poggio ;
XD yay us~

I know right x.x It's just so much work that makes my inner lazy cry.
I mean I live in a good location. There's a store in walking distance (have to carry groceries home. x.x) and a few restaurants and such. Even the mall is pretty much within walking distance (although not a fun walk xD)

Hm. I guess I'm just not used to people disliking me. I wouldn't know what to do. x:
Sorta like a 'just let the haters hate' thing? XD

Hm I need to learn how to be selfish. X: I'd share just about anything XD
Although some things i tend not to budge on. x:
But yeah same here. being around people is fun and all but so is being alone in my thoughts, too. x.x'

@ Zosa ;
Talk about talking? Whut. XD

yes, did you know you cannot read a person's lips from the the side

Well I didn't -know- that but it sounds logical to me. XP haha.

I can't read a person's lips in general, though, really.

i can do a passable job of it XD i used to be a lot better at it

Why did you randomly get worse at it? xP haha.