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Dear Miki,
i know things are tough for you, seeing your family shatter over time it really hurts, but the key to everything is patience as you wait it out, there will be many ideas you will be successful someday, be it whatever profession you want to be you still have many years, dont waste your life, you will be somebody life is your own journey, its yours for a reason dont always listen to others youre still young, spend your time wisely keep on dreaming and trying, never give up dont lie to yourself, you know there'll always be someone looking out for you - from you and only yourself, miki |
Dear Dark,
Make your mind up, you can't be a child of two worlds no matter how much you wish to be. You can't be the head of the family and you can't take care of that child without a proper head on your shoulders. One that doesn't take off and decide things are 'boring'. You cannot do what you enjoy you have to do what is required and expected. You'll have to stop putting yourself in so much danger so your lover and adopted child won't have to worry themselves sick over whether today will be the day you die. You have to give up acting too, because the girl with elbony hair deserves it more then you. Who are you to fight the world? You are a single rain drop, you make no difference in the end. Besides who, other then Jasmine and the kid, care what happens to you? Be honest with yourself, DarkForbidden~Love |
Dear Dad,
No I do not have messed up priorities. Pardon me if I put school work over getting my drivers license, and working out. I didn't realize being good looking and owning a car was more important than my future. I guess I don't need money to buy the car. Sincerely, MuseSick. |
Dear Diary;
I know it's cliche, but I love him. I love him more than anyone else on this planet. I've never felt this way before, when I talk to him I feel so..so very very happy. I understand I can't be with him..I'm moving hundreds of miles away in a few months. I already missed him more than anything ever since he moved down to Georgia. I don't want to go. I hate the heat so much, summers make me so depressed..but if it was with him, I wouldn't care. I'd do anything to make him happy, which is exactly why I haven't said anything. I will continue my facade of anger and deceit. I know he likes her, who wouldn't like her? Shes charming, sweet, and graceful..Not to mention pretty. Shes very talented, too. I could never compare..I'm rash and loud..childish and a crybaby..I'm really clumsy too..Even he knows this, he teases me about it all the time. "Fall down again, Meatball head?" Ha, I can't believe how long I've been hiding this..Coming up on two years now, eh? I guess It'll continue for another 2..Because I can't even fly to him until then. You'll always be in my dreams. You're what I think about before I sleep. When I look at the moon, I think of you and me..Happy.. I love you, --- |
Dear diary,
Domt take what they say about you seriously. No matter what they say you are perfect.. yes you have your flaws but doesnt everybody? I know having all your faults thrown in your face hurts and you want to cut or make yourself throw up but asami you are stronger than that ...at least i hope so. I know i have many scars and new ones have joined in but you cant keep using that knife as an escape. I know im fat and chubby but having my father yell at me and tell me how worthless and useless and fat i am doesnt help... after he told me those things i ran to the toilet and purged myself of that unwanted food. I always wonder why people think im beautiful and are jealous of me when they have nothing to be jealous of. I am not the person they think i am.. its hard to put this mask on and pretend everything is great and my life is so so perfect when its not. I know depression has gotten ahold of me yet again and this time i know im not strong enough to fight it... i really need some help but not therapy like last time that turned out to be a disaster ... something else but i dont know what... You really need to learn to love yourself and think better of yourself because all i end up doing is hurting the people who mean most to me.. And STOP pushing people away... if you keep doing that someday youll have noone.... is that what you really want? Love asami |
Journal Open:
Perhaps this is a sort of reflection on the small and meaningless accumulation of what I have accomplished so far... 17 and a half years, almost, and I still don't have a drivers license...[bleep]in neck. If only I could turn to look more naturally. But then again, maybe that makes me a fake, having to try to look natural. I don't care anymore. The inquiries are over. Defeat is that much more bitter when the sweetness of victory has freshly run dry. I was so happy, it was almost like drugs two weeks ago. Why did it suddenly come to this?...Ironic...ironic that I enter these halls to calm those with these thoughts...And now here I am thinking them. But you need not worry. I'm too smart to kill myself. It's just a passing thought.Things always get better, just look at history. But my worries stem from lack off purpose, now. Do I fade into the background again? Do I disappear into that oblivion? It's not destruction, it's worse, which maybe why it seems so compelling to let it close. But rationale tells me that ending on the low note is no way to good, and it always leaps up again as long as you don't act stupid. So what's next? What's left of the empty toybox? Nothing?...maybe a place to let my head rest a little while...until i think of something funner to do... Journal Close... |
Dear friend,
I got news from you today that has broken my heart and will sadly forever cloud how I look at you. Your financial situation is transitory and will improve, but the action you have taken is eternal and irrevocable. You say you feel guilty now. I'm afraid that guilt is something you'll have to live with for the rest of your life. I'm not sure now I can even talk to you reasonably at the moment...and that hurts. |
Dear Diary,
You cannnot change the past but you can hope for a better future. Time and life are both fickle, and haven't you always been saying luck is fake? Life without Dark by my side will be hard, not impossible. She wouldn't have wanted you to wallow away in self pity because what could have been. She knew what was going to happen and she believed enough in you to allow it. You should be happy, isn't death was her dreams where full of? The chance to finally escape this life to someplace where she did not need her mask to understand people. It hurts, as all illnesses and death do, but you will recover and maybe even Dark will too. She won't be defeated until her heart stops. Believe and maybe, maybe she'll pull through this like she does everything else. Sincerly, The Broken Muse |
Dear Head,
Why do you keep remembering things day after day that aren't important? When I walk by him I don't even notice anymore so why is it that with the slightest reminder you go to what went wrong? He does not deserve any more thought and yet weekly, at the least, he enters my head. I don't feel for him, but I still remember and it's obnoxious when I have better things to think about. This needs to stop. Sincerely, Me |
I think I may be in love. Which is fine of course, though I am rather attached emotionally to someone I can't be with physically. The new person I can...but is a physical relationship any better or more important than an emotional one? I certainly care emotionally for the new person, and want to stay with them. I may have to think about myself first on this one.
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You were the person everyone dreams about having in their life. You remained strong through your last few months. I had no idea you were so ill. I wish you could still be here with us, and I'm sure your family must be completely devastated. Yeah, you might be gone.. but the memory of you will stay here with us. I wish so much that we could have talked more. I saw you frequently here during a certain period of time. In that short span you really have made an impact, and we really do care. You, a single raindrop, turned into a rainstorm.. one of the most beautiful forces of nature, because in the end it forms and shapes the earth to make way for new life. You were a beautiful person to everyone who knew you. Even though I didn't know you very well, I know you well enough through your writing to know you were and still are a very important person to those who were close to you. Sincerely, Miranda; Another raindrop who has yet to fall to earth. |
Dear....
I let it slide when little things started going missing. I let it slide when my stuff mysteriously broke. I let it slide when you lost your temper and ransacked the living room and kitchen. I let it slide when you 'accidentally' trashed my stuff in the garage. I don't know if I can be a big enough person to let it slide this time. I'm giving you a chance to fix it...and only one. Make this thing right or I will be done with you on every level there is. Earnestly, Me |
Dear Me;
Damn it all, stop it right now. You know better than to start crushing on your guy friends. It never ends well. You know it won't go anywhere, and you know it'd be best to just let it be. So why, why do you insist on harboring these feelings? Just let it go, alright? Also, stop forgetting to eat, that isn't good for you and you know it. I know you get busy with things, or you think it's a waste. You've gotta stop thinking like that; you eating is not a waste. And on that note, kid, where's your self esteem gone? In a week, I've seen you go from proud and lively to quiet, apologetic, and meek. This isn't like the normal you, so would you kindly snap out of it before people notice and start to worry? Sincerely, Yourself |
Dear Arri,
Why do you spend so much time fighting and arguing about the things that are a part of you that you just can't change? There are so many people so worse off than you, and yet you turn defensive at the slightest bit of a hint that you might not be 'normal' - or might have something wrong with you. These things happen, and they WILL happen, because of who you are, and how your body works. These things aren't curable. And the treatments aren't exactly top-notch - the condition has only been known for.. what.. 20 years? If that? Of course they don't have 'tried and true' methods for this sort of thing yet. Yippee - you get to be a test subject. As are the other people that have the condition. You just have to be one of the subjects with seventeen-billion other problems as well as your condition. Good luck getting through things. But your mom said it best 'You're a survivor' - You've been through the Hell of highschool, the self-destruction of early college, and the abandonment and lies of false friends. You can make it through this. - Sincerely, Yourself |
Dear you,
No I have NO CLUE how you're gonna survive the summer. If you can barely make it a week, how are you gonna survive on simply one visit a month (if your lucky)...Who knows...All I know is he's the most amazing thing to happen to you in a long time...So don't screw up!!! Sincerely, Someone happier than she has been in FOREVER!!! |
Dear ---,
I have no idea how to even bother or fathom some of things you have done and just watching you all this time pisses me off and you go and get some so quickly with out even knowing anything. But them again I can be wrong, I can be oh so wrong about how you do it and why you do it but good god. I have tired talk with you and seeing things your way I even offered to be of some help to you and you tell me other wise. This is just plain annoying and stupid and how you do things. But then again you are selfish person over all. . . . From, Me. |
I don't see you like I used to. It's been a long time since then. Four strokes ago, if we're being blunt about it. You're waltzing over to your deathbed, and all I can think about is how I didn't realize how much I can't stand you sooner. I bet you didn't expect your kid to turn into this, did you? Well, this is what happens when you're so damn hypocritical around them. They were always supposed to be so smart, smarter than you, smarter than anyone in your entire family. But what did you do? What you've always done. You're the one that's always right. Of course. And they're supposed to be so mature, so wise, why wouldn't you let a child like that make choices about where their life will be headed! You wouldn't when they're only eight god damn years old, just went through surgery, and is still learning how this 'friendship' thing works because, guess what? They've been made fun of for the last three years they've been in school. How on earth could letting a child like that make a major life choice backfire? And now, now that it DID, you certainly don't trust them with anything else in their lives, do you? Oh no, you try to make the choices for them, without so much as a word of warning.
Daddy issues are a little cliche in this day and age, aren't they? I wish I could tell you about the murder. Honestly, I do. And I wish I could tell you about the rape. It was only three years ago, you know. I was seventeen. I'd only just dropped out of school. Do you understand why I dropped in the first place? I wish that I could talk to you about everything. You make me feel like I can't. I hope the day will come when I really can, because I want you, both of you, to know everything... but let's face it. I can hear the way you cough, every day, until you get sick. I'm awake at those times, don't you remember? Have you started to see blood yet? You're a stubborn fool, you should have seen the doctor ages ago, money be damned. As if the issues you've already had weren't enough. You'd think that if you're so worried about what will happen to us, you'd at least try to take better care of yourself. I've only hated one person in my entire life. Not the killers. Not the rapist. Not even you. But believe me when I tell you, if I wasn't already aware of how much I would regret it for setting those words in stone in my own head, I would hate you, too. As it is, I'm still trying by damnedest just not to be afraid of you anymore. I'll be praying for you, and everyone else in this household. I hope something changes before one of us is gone, because there will be no looking back. ~Gal |
Dear, that guy over the phone.
Do not tell me to go to hell because you cannot take care of your loans and to pay your interests on time. It's not my fault that one of your items is on the shelf of our store. And then after telling me to go to hell you hang up on me. At least I don't need to get any loans cause, I know that I get a paycheck biweekly so I don't need to worry about borrowing money then pay interests on that loan. And not only I get paychecks bi weekly but I also get commissioned to add a little extra into the bank. I don't want to do business with you until I want an apology from you for the way you got angry at me and then telling me to go to hell. Well sincerely if I'm going to hell then I hope I see you there too :) Your pawnbroker Kaitlin. I needed that out of my system before I pimp smack a b**ch |
I really need to figure out priorities. If it hurts so DAMN much if someone I love might be intimate with someone else, why am I not trying to be with her? Is it because we probably can't be together in person? Is it because there's someone nearby you love a lot too? You have to STOP and pick, then accept what comes of it.
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Dear humanity (is that too broad? lol sorry),
Oh, are you actually reading? Since when did you have a heart to give a damn about what a person had to say? Are you regretting that you laid your eyes on this specific post? You better because now I get to bash on you with no cares in the world. Who are you to think you're all that and a bag of chips? How pathetic! You and I are the same and no matter how much you deny it, you're just as weak as any other person. U mad bro? DEAL WITH IT. Because no matter how much you whine and complain, it won't matter in the end. Who will remember what you said? No one because no one will ever care! Eventually, you will forget my words as well. You're probably asking yourself, "So why bother telling me about all this when I will one day not care about it?" A person's mind is effected by one single moment and numerous thinking mentalities can be turned around just by one phrase... one word... it doesn't matter what the word or phrase may be because as long as it changes someone... my work here is done. Do you have a new outlook on me? I bet you do... and I bet you won't care after while because you will forget about all this... you selfish piece of shet. Your friend, Xun, The Judged |
Dear Self, What's wrong with you? Why do you always seem to push people away? You get close and then you just let them go whenever they please. You welcome them back with open arms as if nothing ever happened. As if they don't have the power to bring you down and smash you to the ground all over again. Every time you make a friend something happens and they leave you. They forget all about you until its convenient for them to remember. Until they want something from you. You know that's why they come back. You understand that you'll just be hurt. Again. Why don't you stand up for yourself? Why do you allow yourself to get hurt over and over and over? I don't understand and you're me! What is so wrong with us that no one ever stays? Will he even stay? So far he's the only constant in your life and yet...You'll always worry. Always wonder if you're good enough and put yourself down. Everyone tells you how gorgeous you are. You never believe. Everyone tells you that you're a great singer. You never believe. Maybe people always leave because you can't take a compliment? Maybe you just hate yourself and they can't love you if you don't love you. Why is it all so confusing? |
Dear self;
Why are you so frustrated? Why can't you be happy with the way things are going? Ultimately, you got what you wanted... Maybe not EXACTLY what you wanted, but he's gone now. Why can't you just let go? Why do you still want to hold onto him? I understand that you still love him, and I understand that maybe you always will. But he's bad for you. He's not worth your time. Move on. I know things will be hard financially, and I know your heart is broken... But remember that you're better then that. And please... Don't do anything stupid. He's not worth it. Sincerely, your rational mind. |
[M]Mature rant is a GO
((Rated [M] and possibly more. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. OmO))
Dear roleplaying bitch on another website, Are you seriously fucking complaining about no one posting for 2 days? 2 DAYS? Fuck you, bitch. I've had to wait for 5 days-- 5 DAYS for me to post something up for my character and here you thought you had the balls to come into the OOC chat and say that the rp is dead because no one posted for 2 DAYS STRAIGHT. What that makes me? Oh, that doesn't make me anything in your book, I bet? You have something against me, don't you? Just because you haven't gotten any posts? I bet the thread master is tired of your FUCKING complaints about wanting POSTS from them! No wonder the rp is dying out-- it's because of you, ya little piece of shit! Now gtfo of the roleplay like a good little fucktard and never come back in my face! >:I |
Dear life,
Why are you so hard lately? What happened to all those years in which I just did what came naturally, worked hard, and got wherever I needed to go? Why is it that with no experience I found I job in one try, yet now that I have some university under my belt and over three successful jobs behind me that I have not been able to find a job for over seven months? Why is school so tortuous? Why can't my boyfriend be happy with how I handle things? Why why why this and that. I just want to write and be married to him, happily. That's it. I'm not asking for riches or fame or anything. Just content and a book. That's it. Please, I'm begging you... work WITH me instead of against me. You don't even have to be easy. Love, Cecily |
Dear whoever you may be.
I don't care really. Stop bouncing around me, you energy is too much for me. Also, stop trying to start a conversation with me. I hate your guts and opinions. I have a reason why I'm a snob to other people, why I act like a total Squidward towards others. And believe me, you don't wanna know my reason. |
Dear self,
You need to stop procrastinating. You need to clean your room. You need to just go to the DMV and take the written test for a driving permit. You need to set deadlines and reach them. You need to figure out what you really want. Stop living in the future and live in the now. Right here. The future won't happen unless you get your ass in gear right now. Sincerely, the tugging at the back of your mind. |
Dear Fellow Students;
I can hear you, you know. I'm not deaf. I heard all the little comments about me, the fat chick with the large pizza box in her hands. The girl who really doesn't need to eat that pizza, who's already the size of a house. I could hear your snickers, even as I walked away. Heard you chittering with one another. What if I told you this pizza was all I got to eat today? Unlike you, Mommy and Daddy aren't paying my way through college. Not everything is handed to me. This pizza is my breakfast, lunch, and later dinner. If you knew that, would you still laugh at me? Not that I care, really. It just gets annoying...I shouldn't have to explain why I'm eating. Cause, you know, we all do it. |
Dear diary
I am so tired of how selfish my family is. They are all a bunch of liars and manipulators. Why cant they tell the truth for once. Why cant I defend myself properly. Its not the end of the world to tell the truth. They all use me. Stefan and Christian are the worse. I'm fighting but I'm not strong enough. They always beat me down. -asami |
Dear Arri,
Trying to change people isn't going to help anyone, unless you first change yourself. You have many bad habits, just as they do, only some of them actually have medical reasons for it. You're not superman - you can't save the day with a baby in one arm, and a breadtruck in the other. As much as it might seem like you can't do anything at all, as much as you might understand what people are doing to themselves and the eventual consequences [damn you medical books] - there are just some things you can't do. Can't do. Not won't do. You always seem to get that confused. These people know you want to help them. They know they should be listening to you. But there isn't anything you can do - and you know it, they know it. Stop making people feel bad. It makes you a nasty person. And we don't want to be a nasty person, do we? - Yourself. |
To the Boy Who Randomly Bought Me Lunch....Again;
I want to thank you, but you never slow down so I can. Why is that? You keep patting me on the head and calling me sweetie....you're really nice. I'd like to actually meet you, but you keep dashing off. Why is that? ....anyway, I want to say thank you. And not just for the food, but for being genuinely nice to me. It's a nice change of pace, and you really did make my day today. So again....thank you. And if I see you again, I plan to properly thank you. If not....well, I hope karma does something really nice for you. You deserve it, you awesome person you. - Rinni |
Dear ____,
Look, I understand that you're inquisitive by nature and overly protective of your friends, but honestly, I shouldn't have to tell you where I'm going and what I'm doing every minute of every day off I have. I'm not going to be in town on one of my days off. That's all you need to know. Why should I have to tell you where I'm going and why I'm going there? And while we're at it...when I'm in a relationship, no matter what kind or how long it lasts, you DO NOT need private information about anything that happens between the other person and myself. So while I understand your side, you really just need to back the fuck off. It's my life and I really don't need you to play "grand inquisitioner" here. Got it? You are not my parent, you cannot ground me when I do something you don't like or approve of, so either be my friend and respect that, or get out of my life. -K.Triste |
Dear me...
How could you let this happen...You're doomed...You have to fix it ASAP... Sincerely, HURRY UP!!! |
(RATED M FOR LANGUAGE)
Dear Self, Stop being a bitch, kay? No, you aren't always a horrendous bitchsqueler, but you have your absolute bitchy moments and they need to stop. Worst of all, it's your family that gets your bitchy side. You put your best foot forward for those nice little friends of yours, but when you get home the patience fuse has run out and you turn nasty. It's ridiculous, it's childish, and it gets old. You need to learn to shut the fuck up when your family members are talking. Yes, you may have your voice too, but not while they're using theirs. Respect is a nice thing to give if you want it back. That's what you complain about all the time isn't it? You need more respect, more space, more time to be a fucktard in private cause you're a fucking teenager and that makes being a bitch to everyone in your house A-OK. No. Get over yourself. The world doesn't revolve around you, "Pinfeathers" and you're going to change. Starting now. Put more effort into your relationships at home because honest to God whatever screw up relationships you have with your siblings or parents it's your own damn fault and you need to fix it. Hop on it kid, Pinfeathers. P.s. Stop muttering Fuck You as Dad walks away. You're just a pussy for not saying it loud enough for anyone to hear, and a disrespectful fucker for saying it at all. It makes you a disrespectful fucking pussy. A DFP. |
Dear me,
You're only seventeen. You have a world of experiences out there that you still need to have. You have a lot left to learn, to see, to feel and to do. Feeling fed up and restless, acting like you've seen it all at such a young age is not on. You know that there's more out there. You're just too set in routine. You're too set in your ways. You do nothing with your life. You sit online and fester. You only really talk to people at college or through a computer screen. Whatever happened to a social life? Whatever happened to living loud, wild and free? You need to pull your head out of your arse and start living. You're a miser, prematurely aging into a cynic. You should be enchanted with life and know that there's a better future out there for you, not hiding away, scared to spread your wings and soar. You're doing my head in with your bleak outlook on life, and starting tomorrow, I won't have it. You're going to Dannii's birthday party tomorrow. Out of the thirty or so people going, you only know about five. This is going to pull you right out of your comfort zone, but you know what? You're going to go. You're going to let your hair down. You're going to party like you've never partied before. You're going to exude confidence, and by the end of the night, you will have a hand full of new friends. Stop worrying about what others think of you. Fuck societies expectations of you. Be what you want to be, do what you want to do and fuck everyone that doesn't agree with you. As the saying goes, you only live once, so live each day like it's your last. Chin up, chick. You can do this! -Me. |
Dear shoppers,
Just because you think that "the customer is always right" doesn't mean you are. If a sign specifies that the "variety" pack cheesecake is on sale, it does not mean that the caramel pecan one next to the variety pack cheesecake is also on sale. And just because I look like some "slacker" punk doesn't mean I am one. Sure, I have blue hair and facial piercings. Get over it. It doesn't make me a bad person and it doesn't give you the right to treat me like I am or to slam your cart around when the transaction's over just because I wanted to bag your groceries in the best way possible. And yes, there are times when I will move some of your items around on the conveyor belt or wait for you to set some items down just so I can do exactly that; bag your groceries in the best way possible so that the weight is distributed evenly of the eggs and delicate fruits don't get crushed or broken. It doesn't mean I'm being impatient with you and it doesn't give you the right to be impatient with me. So get your heads out of your asses, and quit treating me like garbage just because you can. Sincerely, Your Over-worked, Under-paid Cashier. |
Dear Mother,
I know it took me some time to find a job, but there are days when I feel like you aren't trying and you do not do anything but consume our food. Now we quite literally have nothing except for things that will make you vomit if you eat them. I have been living off beans for two weeks. That can not be good for my insides. My dad and I worked just fine living with two people and well you are a third wheel. You can not simply abuse my father because he is a nice man, I am not going to stand for it any more. (of course the irony in this is how emotionally distraught you will get when I bring it up, and how my dad will come to your defense. I feel like Cassandra and you are Helen except just vain, not that beautiful) You have sucked down all of his change that I use for bus fair when I am desperate. Do you realize how embarrassing and time consuming it is to drop 175 pennies into the bus? You used it to buy Soda's instead of using it for bus fair to find a job. Sodas because we were out of sugar. That you drank. We can not change our diet needs for you. I can not eat fucking spaghetti all the damn time. I rarely pray because I believe God, helps those who helps themselves. If you do not earn it you do not deserve it, however I am praying that you will get a 3rd shift job. It will be better for all of us if you can sleep during the day while my dad is at work and not consume our food. Go to work at night and my dad and I will be a sleep. Look it saves power and food. Ohoho to have a 30 dollar power bill again. I will have you know in the wake of the funeral last saturday I have been thinking about what I would say at yours. Honestly there is only one quote that keeps me smiling when you see your failures. “A woman may have 1000 daughters but a daughter only has one mother.” You are my one mother, and if it gets you out of my hair I want wants best for you, so I hope that the angels receiving the prayer emails will deliver you a chance at a job. sincerely your starving malnutritional daughter you do not take care of because she is taking care of you. |
Dear government assholes...
Why the hell do you feel the need to punish the good people who are trying to do their best to take care of their families and do what is best? Why??? We are trying are best to take care of things to get a job again and get our bills on track.. like our rent we can't even pay because we live on my disability!!! We are doing what we can. We are trying with what we have right now. You don't need to punish us just because you think you can and because you have a thing against men. You worthless bitch who should die for doing this to us. Leave me and my family alone and give us some space to do what we need to do to live our lifes and take care of each other!!!! |
Dear Creepy, Old Guys,
You're creepy. And old. And no matter how hard you try, I will never respond to your attempts to hit on me. Why is that? Because you're creepy. And old. So just give it a rest and look for some young gold-digging bimbo elsewhere. I prefer men that aren't old enough to be my father or grandfather. Ewww. Thanks! |
Dear Ex bf
Thanks for being such a nice guy. You picked the wrong day to break up with me and now it's just affecting everything around me...hopefully I can get through all of this. I mean, you're not the only guy around and I know I'm not ugly. I'm too pretty to be depressed over you. |
Dear self,
Stop dreaming and start living. Sincerely, Yourself. |
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