I went once last year and almost missed out on the 3DS I wanted. I got a black 3DS with gold Zelda etchings on it. I remember being in the middle of the line of people, by the time I got in the store, the PS3 bundles were sold out. Haha.

I've made a few friends here and there. Some I don't communicate with anymore though... I think that's a good way to make friends too by doing group projects.

Thank you, it was really hard at first to break up with him. It was even harder to stand my ground too. Knowing me, in the past I would bend over backwards or give up when he stopped trying. This time I stood my ground and I'm happy for it.

I have another problem though. I want to quit my job. As stupid as it seems, there's a few reasons. I thought I would be able to handle school and work when I start school again but now I'm not so sure. Getting so close to the end and being able to graduate I feel I may need to dedicate all my time to school. That's one of the most important things to me. Another reason is the recent problems with my family. My grandfather seems to be getting sicker and sicker lately, we're not sure how much longer he'll be alive. Everyone is really worried about him. And yesterday when I was at work, my mom went to the emergency room. She was having chest pain so they kept her over night to test her for 24 hours. I feel extremely overwhelmed and when I'm at work I'm unhappy. Everyone there is really nice and helpful but I don't know if I can take the pressure. I'm a little too shy to ask for time off or what if they deny me because they don't understand what I'm going through? All of these factors are stressing me out and making me miserable on the inside. I'm trying so hard to just be okay but I don't know what to do. I don't know how to talk to my parents about it, because I feel they'd give me a hard time for it. I know they're only looking out for what they believe is in my best interests but they don't truly understand how I feel on the inside. Every time I've tried to explain it, my parents don't understand. I don't know what to do.

The suggestion of taking a leave of absence or time off, is not a bad one at all. To be honest, I felt giving my two weeks notice was a better choice of me. It likely won't look good on a future job application but I'm much happier with this choice. I feel at ease knowing that I won't have to worry later about both when school starts.

As for my parents, I wrote my dad a note explaining what I'm going through, my emotions and how his support can help me. My parents weren't happy about me quitting obviously but I hope eventually they'll understand how light I feel. Like a weight has been taken off my heart. I know they want what is best for me and they were just looking out for me. I feel that this was what was best.

My job was understanding too. My supervisor said she was sad to see me leaving and sad to hear the "bad news" but when I explained what I felt, she understood. She's on medication for depression herself. Until my two weeks are up, I'm going to continue trying to do my best. I've began something else to occupy my time as well. I started making Lets Plays on youtube which is something I've been waiting a long time to do. I can't explain how happy this makes me feel right now.

Of course. I couldn't even ask for money I have no paypal yet or a P.O. box. Haha. But, I don't think that would happen anyways, I just want to entertain people! I started up the thread, I hope it takes off. The thread in Gamer Heaven. Oh, thank you! My GameSage wife bought it for me. It's based off of one of my favorite outfits on Eden Eternal which is the game I used to 'mod' for.

Well since the hospital isn't part of it's bigger organization yet, they have a board made up of people in the community. Turns out my uncle is part of that committee so... yeah. Hopefully that stuff will get sorted out. They did however today give her another option. She's allowed to "bid" on other jobs in different units/hospitals which means she can try and get a job in a different unit/hospital and she still has her benefits for a while. So... It's gotten a little better.

Yeah I hope so too for her. She deserves so many things that she hasn't gotten. I just want her to be happy.

Yeah! It's going a lot better than I had hoped. Here's to good things to come! -Imaginary glass raise.-

Aw thank you. It's always nice to hear support.

Oh? I just made a twitch account when I started making Lets Plays. I thought, you never know~ It seems the commonly used program is Xsplit which ranges from free to premium. There's another one my friend uses that's.... Adobe Flash... something... He said when he started streaming stuff, they offered a list of streaming programs that you can choose from. Then there's googling whatever else you need to know.

As for what I do, I record the game and my commentary with separate programs then put them together in Windows Movie Maker. It's really easy to get the movie and audio to together then jut edit them so they line up. I do need a better microphone though because when I amplify my voice later, it gives it a little bit of a fuzzy effect when I'm not speaking. Like the mic is picking up a breeze or silent static when I'm not talking.

Ahh, I see. Yeah that's a problem I had with my video quality. Super Mario RPG looks a little fuzzy, I tried making it clearer but I'm not sure how either in WMM or in Youtube itself. But at the same time, super nintendo games were pretty unpolished so it could be waaaaaaay worse. When I was first making videos before, they were really really bad.

Oh yeah, I don't use Storyboard mode at all. Haha. It's much better to use Timeline mode so you can see where talking is and where silence is. It makes it a lot easier to edit. It's been a saver for me. :3

Well... My SNES is pretty old. To be honest, I'm not recording off of that. SHH TELL NO ONE. My SNES seems almost kind of haunted sometimes... or stuff glitches out. But by haunted, I played Monopoly once on my SNES, made what would be considered a poor move and when my turn came back around, the game tried to play my turn for me by trying to make decisions for me. Honestly, I don't think SNES had that intelligent of an AI? But... I could be wrong, I was like 9 or 10 at the time. xD

Pssssh, that's like saying Windows 8 is easier. I know so many people that don't like Windows 8, just like so many people didn't like Windows Vista. But yeah, Timeline mode is the way to go.

So, off topic for a moment. Tomorrow is my last day at my job and I'm really hoping they don't work me over again. I was scheduled to work yesterday for 8 am to 3 pm. When I went into work that day, one of the store managers who handles the stock workers (me being one them) told me to go get a drawer so I could cashier too. Normally, I'm okay with this and they don't call me too much. But no, for some reason one of the supervisors was playing favorites and kept calling me up to ring. Let me just explain how ridiculous this is. I get my drawer, then I go back to working in my section. 10 minutes later I'm called up to ring, for 20 minutes... that's about 3 customers give or take. After ringing for 20 minutes, I go back to my section, 15 minutes later, they call me up for another 20 minute ringing session. This happened six fucking times. That's 2 hours worth of time, not to mention the half an hour break I get, running back and forth like a chicken with my head cut off, and trying to do the job that I was assigned to do. How do I know she was playing favorites? Overhead speaker system: "Jack, please come to the front to ring." .... "Cancel Jack, <Chi> please come to the front to ring." I don't mind helping out, in fact I kind of enjoy it but why the abuse? Seriously. Call someone else for once and leave me alone to do my damn job. >_>;

Sorry for the swearing. c:

Here's my system history not including handhelds.
SNES > N64 > PS2 > Gamecube > Wii > xBox360 > PS3 > WiiU. xD;
I'm hopefully gonna buy a PS4 around Christmas time, I'm not sure though. Well, I'm not sure if it was just super glitchy or haunted. There was one time when Annie and I played Clue and were pretty sure we figured out who did it because the game gives this prompt after an interrogation: "That seems like an interesting scenario..." When I did the Accusation and it said I was wrong, we were both pretty shocked. xD; It's never given us that prompt when it was a wrong guess.

I would like to have Windows 7 on this computer instead of Windows Vista but everything else on this computer seems a little too out of date.

Well, my last day, they asked me to get a drawer. I rang two people and shorty after I went on break. They called me up to ring right after I clocked out for my break. One of the cashier girls told them I was on break, but before she did they called me three times. After that they didn't call me again. But you would think, if I don't show up after the first or second call I'm on break or not there. o_O;

Oh, that's good. :3 I've always felt privileged for all the systems I have. I'm lucky that my parents bought them for me either as Christmas or birthday gifts. Lucky indeedy.
Yeah, it's not supposed to do that. xD;

There's a few games and stuff I want on my computer that either can't be ran our have to be the lowest settings that it's not very fun. ): I would like to have a whole new computer but I don't have the money.

Yeah, it doesn't matter anymore I guess. Nothing to worry about but school now.

My parents did that a few times. One time my brother-in-law ruined it when he asked about my PS3 before I even opened. He's a different story though, can't stand him.

I can't afford a new system right now which sucks. Oh well. o-o;

Nothing I'm really excited for, I just hope to be done soon. I guess, a class that does interest me is my Mobile Apps class. We're working with the Android system to make Apps. Or at least to learn how to make Apps.

Sorry I've been gone for soooo long. I've just had a lot to deal with lately. A lot. Mostly school and home issues. I wouldn't doubt that the home issues may get worse if something is changed soon. I've also just been really depressed and stressed lately too.

The mobile app class is really fun and I think I may have thought up an independent app for my final project. I'm gonna try a paint program and maybe add more to it as I go along. Like maybe after you complete your drawing, you can send it to your friend and your friend can draw on it then send it back. I'm not sure if this is "original" or not though since we already have drawsomething... We'll see.

EDIT: I just wanted to add this in instead of making a second post. I'm sure some people will be able to guess what I'm talking about... I watch a Lets Player that is playing one of my favorite games right now. She was talking about getting guests and when people asking her about female LPers and stuff. She said she didn't know any that could. I want to say something, but I feel I don't have the right to. Not that I'm mad or whatever but I have under 10 subs and I'm pretty unknown. I thought about asking her about it anonymously but I don't want to unintentionally annoy her either. This just unintentionally made me upset because I'm just not gonna say anything. I'm too shy to say anything and I feel I don't have the right to.

I know that was kind of whiny, I'm just disappointed in myself about it...

I decided to make another post instead of editing my first post or making another thread...

I've been in a low point of my life right now. Probably not low as some of you have said lately but if you could, please bare with me... My thoughts are gonna be really jumbled too, sorry if I'm not clear.

I didn't read through it, but whether I mentioned it or not. My sister and her husband moved in with us back in May or April. At first I was pretty mad about it but now it's starting to have a different effect on me. When they moved in they were given a set of 'rules', and by set of rules my parents told them they had to do certain stuff and that was it, nothing written or whatever. They haven't been following these 'rules' and the last time I brought it up to one of my parents their reaction was either, "I didn't see it so it did happen." or "Oh my god get over it and quit complaining." It gets under my skin because as soon as I do something my parents 'don't approve of' all my sister has to do is say it happened and they talk to me about it. Another thing my sister and him do is doing stuff just to upset me or emotionally hurt me. I'll start talking about my day or something and they weren't listening even though they wanted me to listen to their story. Or one thing that my dad has actually done a few times that when I start talking they interrupt me to say, "Get to the point" or "Don't care", the latter is more of my sister. This all probably seems so small to some of you. It is hard for me though to see my parents say that them moving in doesn't effect me and, "Well what am I supposed to do? I didn't see it happen." When my sister and him treat no one with respect. To put this a little more into perspective, my brother-in-law hasn't had a job in two years, does not actively look for one and does not take care of their two dogs or help around the house. When he does help, only after he's been asked/told several times and not during some sort of game on tv. It may just be me but if I was in a situation like theirs I would be trying my hardest to get a job and move back out. My parents also keep promising to talk to him about this stuff but never do and I'm starting to doubt they ever will. Sorry this seems so childish but it's starting to take it's toll on me...

Another thing that has been wearing me thin is school. Things were starting to get better I thought but it's actually just been going downhill since the semester started, it only slowed down when I thought it was getting better. I was originally set up to graduate in the summer with a Major in Computer and Information Science and a Minor in Mathematics. That much is still true, except I had to push my graduation back to next year. Not only will I be in university for 5 years next Spring, but I need to go an extra semester because of unseen bs on the school's part. Not only did some of my credits from my first university not count for anything besides, "Look I wasted my time on this course because you won't even count it as an elective" I was also told I could graduate from completing an internship. Surprise, Internships count as 1 elective credit hour and it doesn't stack. It's one, total. Whereas Co-Op is up to 3 or 4, but the way they set it up is really asinine. When you do a Co-Op, its full time work, you can't schedule any classes with it, and it's only offered Spring Semester + 6 weeks of Summer. No Fall, only Spring and Summer. This has caused me a lot of stress which has fueled my depression. After all this had 'settled out' I still wasn't doing well in my courses.
One of my courses ended last month and I got a D which I was extremely disappointed about. I cried for several hours because I've never gotten anything lower than a C before. I was also really afraid of what my parents would say. I went and talked to my professor about it because even though he was very nice it was just hard because I was doing okay, my quizzes were very high but he put so much emphasis on exams, we only had two, and I did not do well at all. When he was talking to me about my grade and rhetorically asking me, "What happened?" I started crying. I felt so embarrassed and told him I was sorry for getting so upset, I just couldn't help it. When I finally told my parents, they were surprisingly supportive. I say surprisingly because they've been rather harsh before, my mother has even called me a failure before so I was afraid of what they would say to me.
I'm also falling behind in my classes. I am trying my best to catch up and do the work I need to do but I'm struggling. I also don't have much of a drive besides trying to do well and get a good grade. From the stress and depression I've been sleeping a lot which causes me to fall behind too. One day I slept for 16 or some hours, that's two thirds of the day sleeping. I still managed to complete my assignments this week but not after struggling to make up for lost time.

I wish I had something that could maybe pull me out of this funk, busy work if you will. I tried with video games but I'm starting to get to points that are after story or side stuff that just takes a long time. It sucks that something that normally gives me so much joy is starting to 'fall short'. I don't work anymore, I left my other online team because I didn't like the way things were going and besides school I have 'nothing' to do. I was gonna start a project with my grandmother's help but I'm going to need to wait until Winter Break.

Sorry I'm so mopey and meh. I wish I could get out of this funk.

@Nex: I haven't tried knitting in a long time. I learned to knit when I was 17 but I've long since forgotten. The instruction sheet I had might still be around somewhere...

Is childish as it is, it is something that effects me. I know my parents have to handle it but it's hard to be effected by it and there's nothing I can do. He's actually detrimental to our family. Especially my sister, but that was her choice.

I've been trying to ignore them for the most part. At least, recently I have. I wish I could be close with my sister but I really feel that she's changed so much. That her husband changed her. There's nothing I can say though or I'll just upset her...

Thanks.

@Lucid: -Hugs Lucid- I would really appreciate that. I'm not sure what we would play honestly. I don't really remember much about Civilization and as for League of Legends I'm not so sure, I don't really have great memories linked to that game. I might be willing to try it though. I'm trying to think of possible Free to Play games that don't suck... It kind of depends on the company.

It's subscription. They're doing 14.95 a month or something. I don't understand why all these companies want to go the "World of Warcraft route". My friend and I were talking about this. That so many games are coming out this year and 2014 that are pay to play. But it's ridiculous imo because they almost never succeed. I mean Square Enix launched Final Fantasy 11, that flopped and then they tried AGAIN and now they're doing the same with Final Fantasy 14. TERA was a pay to play, surprise they're free to play now, lol. If ESO is good, I may be willing to buy it. Only if it's good though. I may just wait until I get a better computer too.

Ugh, I feel so bummed now... Like I'm not good enough...