Open Letters Thread
 

Over on one of my old forums, there was a thread for open-ended letters, which could be answered, or could just be left to be read.


Dear universe,

I know you've got awesome things planned for me, I just wish you'd hurry up and send them my way. I'm getting really sick of being handed the short end of the stick when I work my butt off to try and better my situation.

No love,

Me.

I've loved this idea every time I've seen it, and have put it to use on a lot of the sites I've frequented. It really helps to get things off my chest. Although, you should add a disclaimer (as most of the other threads of this nature I've seen) that replies to open ended letters shouldn't be posted in thread. I've seen where it can cause drama, and that was some ugly stuff. But anyway, <3 <3 thanks for bringing this to Tris. :)

Well, the reason I didn't is because sometimes, it takes another person's perspective or a suggestion to help things out.

Not saying that people shouldn't reply, just take it to a PM or something. :)

Parents and Friends,

If you could, I would much rather be punched than yelled at, especially if it is not my fault. In fact, if you want me to avoid you, overreact, and/or not fix whatever it is you are mad about, yell. Physical bruises heal far better than mental.

With self-loathing,
Law

Dear friend,

I do care. I really do, but it's killing me that you've let yourself wind up in a very toxic relationship, and then to have you say you want to hurt yourself... I know things are rough, but I don't know how to tell you to get help without coming across in the wrong way, which isn't my intention at all. I'm starting to get to the end of my rope, and it's scaring me that you'd be willing to hurt yourself. I want to help, but I just feel so powerless to do anything or to say things you've probably heard a million times before.

Wishing you would actually listen and get help, because I don't know what else to do,

Den

On the topic of open-ended letters, responses, etc.

Having a place like this to vent is good. The thread is good. We even used to have a thread like this. However, it was deleted due to drama, and I don't want that to happen again. I want good threads like this to thrive. That's why, as a mod, I am going to step in and add two simple rules to the thread. I give forewarning that the thread will have to be deleted if anybody breaks either of these rules:

1. Please do not answer anybody's posts unless the poster explicitly asks for it. Please take the conversation to PMs if this is the case.
2. Please do not post anything to or about other Trisphee users, even if they are not directly mentioned by name.

Nobody's doing anything wrong right now, but I want to make sure that this thread remains a safe environment for everybody who wants to post here.

Thank you. :)

Dear District Manager,

QUIT MESSING MY SYSTEM UP. Unless you've actually worked in our store, which I highly doubt, quit trying to "help" us. We know what we're doing. We're the ones in the store day in and day out. We know how to keep the store going. You only manage to frustrate us to no end.

No love,

one of the underlings.

Dear You,

Thank you for all that you do when it comes to my son. Thank you for helping my husband and I out when we were truly struggling over the last year. I understand that your heart is in the right place, but mind your own effing business. As long as we can come up with our end of the bills, don't you DARE tell us what we do and don't need to have under our own expenses. For once, you are truly over stepping your boundaries.

Sincerely,
The Pregnant One

Dear Corporate,

Screw you. That day you were there? My first day ever of putting Home Decor fabric up on the racks. Of course I was slow. I didn't know what the *beep* I was doing! Now, that stack of boxes I was working my way through before I got put on HD duty? I can knock out at least half a truck load of those in 4 hours. And I'm not talking the smaller loads. I'm talking the 100+ Box loads. So take your "Needs to pick up the pace" and stick it where the sun don't shine.

No love,

The only back room stocker this particular store has currently.

Dear family,

I'm trying my best please cut me some slack. I don't purposely make myself sick to miss one day of class when I've been attending, doing my homework, and doing really well this semester. I'm only doing the best I can, I can't do any better than that... It also doesn't help that I have depression that none of you seem to understand and just tell me, "Well stop feeling that way." If that were possible, I would do that. Please stop being so insensitive and disappointed so easily over really miniscule things. I already feel alone and rejected enough as it is, I don't want to feel the same way in my own home.

Feeling guilty,
Chi

Dear Graduate School,

I dislike when you have projects that require me to bother people at work to complete the assignment. Work is paying for my classes but not my time to attend/do homework, and asking others to watch a presentation or provide me with information on their own time is rather unfair to them. Not to mention, I work for a rather large company who has quite a few limits on what sorts of information can be shared about Corporate's methods for accomplishing things, meaning I must review everything presented in light of "Can this be told to others outside the company?" and frequently the answer is "no."

I won't say I don't see the benefits of looking into how my work makes business decisions... I had a rather interesting conversation today about project cost prioritization... But I had to squeeze in 10 minutes into a rather high-level manager's schedule to discuss this information based upon a topic provided yesterday for an essay due tonight. What would I have done if he was on a business trip, or too busy to see me? What would I have done if I were a new hire without the ability to get the recommendation from the person who got me into this manager's schedule in the first place?

I know you provide alternatives if you can't achieve the necessary information, but they're geared 100% towards full-time students fresh out of undergraduate school, and are inaccessible to me without burning vacation days I don't have.

Isn't it possible to find some middle ground?

Signed, me

Dear you,
Yes, I know that you have a thing about wanting to be the one that's in the room when my newest (and hopefully final) little one is finally delivered... Here's the thing; I don't want you there! For my entire life, you've come and gone as you pleased, not caring what was need of you for the life you brought into this world. Yes, you lost one child, but that doesn't mean that you could just give up on her sibling like she'd died as well!! You have always been so quick to jump to the worst possible conclusion about me like I'm YOU! I'm NOT!!! And I don't really OWE YOU ANYTHING! Yes, you've been a godsend to my family over the last 4 years, but when I chose my fiance over you when the nurses told me that only one person could be in the room with me, you lost your sh*t! You told me to have a nice life, that you were gone. I sometimes feel like I shouldn't have let you back after you'd left that time. You volunteer for things (i.e. taking your family to appointments) but when you don't get your way you like to act like you're the only means that these people have to get anywhere or do anything, and that is NOT the case! While yes, you're welcome in my children's lives, don't think that it's only because you're doing for me. It hurts my heart to see you do my son the way you did me as a kid. You can't just show up and "be the hero" then disappear for weeks on end, nor can you be the bad guy. You're a grandparent now. Enjoy my youngins for the role that they're in. Also, I really cannot see you handling the role of housemate for GGB very well. And I think it was really low that you're trying to fill that little old lady's head with the misconception that you're sister was cruel to your mother. You lived with your mother for less than 3 months before you finally said eff it and abandoned her. It was me and my best friend that moved in to take care of Mom when you left. You're unreliable, and when the going gets tough, you disappear. Do you really think you have it in you to take care of an 84 year old woman, who is part of the reason why your mother was a stubborn and willful as she was?? I really hate to see you take over GGB's house, just to turn around and leave her when she needs you most.

--Me.

Dear Mom,
When you said you wanted to bring up the family to celebrate my birthday, I thought you really meant to celebrate my birthday. I'm glad you like my sister's boyfriend, but it was my birthday, not his, and my sister wasn't even there! But maybe that's why you wouldn't stop talking to him while he was there, and talking about him after he left early to go to work.
I appreciate that he is a guest. I just feel that you SHUSHING me so loudly and announcing that I have already said I want Caesar Salad, so that was my choice for dinner and I couldn't pick anything else, and then fawning over him about how we'll order anything he wants shows to me that the visit was to see HIM, not ME.
And my sister agrees! Speaking to her last night after everything, she feels that if she ever breaks up with Jim, you'll disown her to keep him. Why don't you just run off with him? You get Jim, and we'll get Dad (and hopefully get him to the point where he can actually voice an opinion someone didn't spoonfeed him), and I can shave a couple years off my therapy sessions?

It was good to see my brothers. I wish you would have let me actually talk to them, instead of cutting us off so you could domineer the conversation, but at least I got to SEE them... The only reason I haven't cut you out of my life completely is because they are still stuck under your thumb.

In another six years my youngest brother will be done with college, and I will be out of your life, and you can go as crazy as you like about whoever you want on my birthday. Just leave me out of it.

Dear Weather,

three days in a row of rain? ick.

NO love.

-Me.

You,
Please stop trying to be my friend. you are a crappy friend when you are dating someone. You will ignore me and I am not in the mood to get upset because you keep deeming it fine to ignore me. Come talk to me again when you are single, because then we can be friends. Because then I won't be ignored and pushed away as soon as you are around your girlfriend, which hurts. A lot.

Dear Social Security Services;

It's been thirteen years now. I've done everything you've asked, gotten every test conducted, sat through every hearing. I still hurt every day from all the various issues, and any time I bring up the idea of applying for work anyway, I immediately get shot down.

Please, before I expire, please give me just a little while where the money in my hand is actually mine and not whatever little stipend I can beg for from the tribe or spare change from family. My nose can't take too much more rubbing into what a failure I am.

Sincerely,
Me.

Dear corporate,

y'all are idiots.

no love whatsoever,

-me.

Dear Self,

You need to learn not to take everything to heart. You are blaming yourself for what is happening in Ferguson. You repeatedly try to force yourself to fully accept and believe different incompatible views so that you can be accepting to two groups of friends who talk like, if they so much as looked at one another, they'd kill each other. You blame yourself for people being stupid.

Your nature is good in that you put your all into trying to help someone, regardless of who they are. However, this self-blame is irrational and interferes both in your life, your happiness, and your ability to stand other people. So, please, self, stop blaming yourself for every bloody thing.

Sincerely,

Your non-self destructive side

Can you two please stop fighting?

I get that you two hate each other, and nothing works between the two of you but god it is frustrating to listen to you bitch and moan about each other all fucking day. You choose to stay with him and shoot down every plan i give to leave. I would have been gone years ago, because he is a dick. I have put my life on hold because you keep thinking that you are going to leave him soon then lose the backbone.

Dear Thrift Stores,

Y U NO HAVE UGLY CHRISTMAS SWEATERS?!

-Den

I'm sorry I got upset over your attempt to guilt trip me. I don't do well with those, and my point was a valid one.

I have a lot of people who want to spend Christmas with me, and I have chosen to celebrate it at my own house this year. I have owned this house since last year, and I still feel like it's a house, and I want it to be a home. So I am holding a Christmas party.

Just because you are my sister and "everyone else" is going to be there on Christmas and that you are going there "even though you have to work" doesn't mean that I have to be there. I was there for Christmas LAST year, despite my desire to celebrate it at my house for the first time last year, because I let you strong arm me into it and pull Mom into the mix to pull all her unhealthy manipulations. I gave in because I just couldn't take it anymore.

I'm not doing that anymore. It's my decision, and I will be HERE at MY HOUSE for Christmas. I'll still be up around Christmas, I had actually been thinking the 26th, even in spite of your offensive reaction to my decision.

Thank you for ending the conversation, though. I was going to step away from the conversation, but you beat me to it in an actually graceful manner, so I have great respect for that. It shows we still have hope for some sort of relationship at some point, which is a nice improvement from the usual.

Dear call centers,

please be considering me for hire! I have the experience, and I need a job that isn't going to bring me to tears due to being in severe physical pain to the point that I almost can't do the job I'm being paid for.

-Me

Dear Slick Deals

Would it really be too much to ask that someone find a r9 280x/r9 290x under $170?
I'd like to finish this computer and get it up and running so I don't disappoint Eric.


And to find another Bundt pan off Ebay would be nice, had to sell mine for christmas money.

Bel

Dear Mother,

I'm apologizing in advance for what I'm going to do. I love you and Dad very much, but given our recent track record with holidays, my decision to no longer spend major ones around you two and the Sibling is really for the best. We all have our demons. I'm wanting all of us to at least try to beat them down before I'm willing to subject myself to being around you and Dad again. It may seem a bit selfish, but me, and my mental health HAS to come first from now on. I'll still come to The Sibling's wedding, and I promise I will be tastefully dressed, but that's only because you guilt tripped me into agreeing to go, despite the fact that I'd intended, and had begun saving up, to visit my best friend up in Canada for her birthday. I now, instead, will be going up to see her for Christmas next year.

As I said, all four of us have our demons. I'm wanting to at least knock mine out of sorts for awhile so I can try to heal and can start to become the best person I can be.

It hurts to write this, because I know I will hurt you, and likely drive a further wedge between us, and for that, I apologize. But the line has to be drawn somewhere, and boundaries enforced and respected, and maybe someday down the road, we can speak to one another as mature adults, without hurtful words being said and reactions to said hurtful words coming out.

-Your daughter

Dear Self,

Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Just because you outlined the viewpoints of Absurdism/Nihilism/Atheistic Existentialism doesn't mean you should let it send you back into the negative, hopeless state the topic tends to send you into. Yes, it's descriptions are rather cold, and if you let it get to you it will violate your sense of self-efficacy...again...
You personally would like to never hear of any of the "Four Horsemen" again. Fine. Don't give them another thought about them in your philosophical viewpoints. Their view is not worth your ability to be happy and your ability to believe in yourself.

Do yourself a favor, and stop doing this to yourself,
Yourself

To my conflicting housemates who thrive on drama and shit talking,

Despite you getting angry with me and basically condemning me to be absolutely silent while you make all of the noise you want. Despite you ignoring me, purposely avoiding me, and shutting your door in my face, I've decided to buy everyone gifts with the 3 days of work I got on my last paycheck.

Merry Christmas :)

Sincerely, self.

I know you didn't mean it to be like that but the night i just happen to come over, you know that night before our date, because I had a crappy day your ex pulls out a positive pregnancy test and suddenly everything goes to hell. It looks really suspicious, even more so when you delete me off everything. I am not going to extend an olive branch after you cut everything off, and yeah I am upset because I actually liked being around you and then this happens. I am hurt, and I know you are upset but at the same time… I really wish I hadn't been over at your place drinking when you found out because it isn't like I could leave and I lashed out because it felt like this was all a set up.

Your upset 'no I don't have a date tonight now will you please stop asking' whatever

To everyone who celebrated Christmas with me this year,

Thank you for having a positive spirit in light of the holiday, and for celebrating with me. I hope you liked your gifts and that your new year brings great things ahead. I'm sorry if you might find my previous post in this thread. Things just get out of hand sometimes and the best way for me to deal is getting it off my chest. It's sometimes hard finding someone who will listen.

Sincerely,

Self.

Dear Vali,
I am massively upset with the way you've treated me ever since I moved away. While I still love you, you ignoring me and manwhoring around is putting me through more pain than you know or will ever understand. I occupy myself with art and keeping my grades up, but I am less social and less happy. Most of the time I am on the internet, and I used to check up on you, but now it's like I no longer want to. To each his own, since you never seem to take a interest in caring about me at all and pretending I don't exist, I might as well do the same. My heart has been broken since they day I left. Sometimes I go through spurts of hate, some love, others sadness, others hating myself.
I hate how our relationship as friends/lovers/acquaintances has fallen and pretty much disappeared.
I may die one day miserable and alone because of you. My blood is all over your hands, as well as my heart.

Dear Trisphee,


Have a happy new year!

-Den

Dear -----
You need to go to hell. Nobody asked you to ruin my life by trying to control it, especially not me. And take those other people with you.

Yours in utter hatred,
Me

I was fine, I had left you alone for over a month. Why in the hell did you feel the need to bother me? Because you didn't need to send that. And it was like you sent it to remind me that you exist, to hurt me. Because when you haven't spoken to someone civilly in over two months and then send them a box full of stuff instead of just getting rid of it you are trying to hurt someone.
Good job, mission accomplished. I got wasted, and I got rid of everything in the box except for the one thing I had asked for. I don't need your pity, or your anger. I can talk about you with out being upset, I don't need you. I don't need your pity by sending me a box full of shit that I didn't ask for.
I wanted three things from you, I got one. The others I will never see again most likely.

Thank you for trying to hurt me, it just reminded me of how much of an asshole you are.

Devon

In honesty, these days I feel like it's a repeat of what happened else where and makes me question if it's worth trying to be around in your life anymore, seeing you ignore me most times when I try to be active and makes me feel unwelcomed and makes me retreat farther back into my protective zone, I am just tired of trying anymore if all that is going to happen is being ignored.

Anyone listening,

Life feels so dull, and this feeling of worthlessness and fear of the unknown have really taken a toll on me. All of this uncertainty about everything. I don't feel like I have a place in the world. It's as if I'm more like a fading shadow as the sun sets each day. My life is just fading before me and what little I've accomplished makes me feel like it's hardly worth the effort anymore. This isn't living and I'm not happy, with anything.

Lost in all aspects of my life.