The bad habit.
 

Alright, so as we all know, smoking is a bad habit. A really really bad one. The top one bad habit, other than excessive alcohol intake at a regular basis.
I have started smoking again. I smoked before, when I was 16 until I was 17 and suddenly stopped. So for about 3 years, I was smoke free until about two months ago. (not smoking at the moment because the bf doesn't like it). I remembered the feeling of smoking; it usually calms my senses down. I would get this numbing feeling along my fingers and my head would feel light and I'd just sit around at home and think then slowly doze off.
Now that I'm smoking again, that feeling is so good. Especially now that I'm stressed with work and personal troubles. When I was a teen, I'd smoke one or two in a day, but not everyday. However, recently I have this urge to smoke 4-5 sticks a day and want to do it everyday.
If you want to know what I smoke, I only smoke flavored ones or special ones. I'm not a fan of marlboro and it's fellow manly regular flavor. I smoked Gudang Garam (the yellow colored one, forgot the flavor, but damn it was so sweet and soothing).
And currently, smoking this one:

http://goodfortunecigarettes.com/con...ard%20pack.jpg

Yep, it's vanilla mint. It's not that sweet and as soothing as Gudang Garam (the yellow one) which has 5% marijuana in it, well all gudangs have 5% mj in it. But this black bat vanilla mint smoke is so minty, it actually clears my throat and sinus. Weird huh? a cause of a variety of respiratory diseases actually clears the air ways. Kinda makes me laugh.
Anyways, I'm planning on only smoking this kind of cigarette brand and specifically this flavor.

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Also, I don't smoke in public where people can see me. I hate doing that, I respect others for not smoking at all so I won't ruin their lungs by me smoking. I also think that it's kinda a private thing, the smoking that is, because my main reason why I smoke is to calm myself down so that I could get a good sleep or just chill.


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People who have seen me and finds out that I smoke are quite shocked that I smoke. For one, they think I only eat to relieve stress and they think I'm a goody-two shoes. Then their opinions on me change once they find out. It kinda pisses me off because a stick alone changes these people's opinion on your personality thinking that you're a different person, you remain the same, you just smoke.


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and please, if you're just gunna start flaming, better not post. We have trisphee to's.

Hehe you liar you are to smoking just a lot less because you get in trouble for it. It really is a bad habit though, and I find it rather nasty. As long as you're not doing it to often, and not inside the house though I can ignore it a bit. I know it calms you down, and you mainly do it when you're upset but you have been doing it a lot lately. I would prefer if you would come to me for help, or to be calmed down but I can't in all consciousness demand that you not do it if this helps you so much. I really don't like it though, so please maybe we both can help you quit.

hehe, yeah, I do get in trouble for it. Thanks for being there to talk to when I'm upset with lots of things.
And I do hope I can lower the urge of smoking 5 sticks xD; Despite my want to smoke this good thing xD I don't want to die early.

Mhmm, and I'm sure you don't want a certain someone getting lung cancer because you decided second hand smoke was okay. Hehe not that you would purposely smoke around anyone.

I'll be here to help though, and I know you want to smoke but I can't allow you to do so.

Honestly my opinion on smoking is very biased as my nose and lungs absolutely cannot stand it, and once my nose even picks up a microscopic whiff of cigarette smoke my body will start trying to shut down in order to keep it out of my system. And with my heightened senses, I can usually pick it up fairly quickly if it's within the general vicinity of me. *nodnod*

It's gotten to the point were I have to inconspicuously plug up my nose and filter out what my mouth breathes in when I'm in public and see people smoking. >.<

Sometimes I wonder if I'm allergic to the smoke or not, but then figure I'm not since i don't get any allergic reactions from it.

Totally off topic.

I want a pack of those. You're smoking me!

@batty: OMG. Yes. I am smoking you. XD I didn't notice that.

@Sharkie: You know well I won't do that xD and I need your permission always anyways.

@Arikana: well, when I was a kid I hated the whole act of smoking and swore not to smoke, but meh. Promises are broken.

I didn't read the whole post, but, I can't really be any help on this subject. mostly, because I'm a smoker myself. I don't plan to quit, seeing as I enjoy it as not only a hobby, but as a stress reliever myself.. I'm a pretty heavy smoker, too. And I'm not ashamed to say it.

But I'm a considerate smoker. If theres someone around me, who doesn't like it, I either won't light up, or I'll walk a good 15 feet away from them. I blow my smoke in the opposite direction. I won't, WON'T smoke around kids, even if the parents say its fine, I just don't agree with pushing my "bad habit" onto other people.

I say if you enjoy it, have at it. Don't beat yourself up for smoking, but if it makes you feel unhealthy and "wrong" in some way shape or form, then do OTHER things to take your mind off of wanting one.

And I was being serious, bro. I'll pay for the shipping and everything. xD; /cant find them online

Don't influence her Batty. Hehe. :P

But bats, I like smoking this specific brand. I'll just make sure I smoke once or twice. I won't really beat myself up for it. I know when to stop anyways. :D
I know a site, bats. Let me link ya to it.

then, I say have at it. Theres nothing wrong with it, since its YOUR choice. Your of age, you enjoy it, I wouldn't feel bad about it.

Besides, how bad could flavored ones be? Its almost like a clove cigarette, or the [yummy] occasional flavored cigar.

I swore I would never smoke to when I was younger. And I'm pretty sure that even if my brain falters in keeping promises, my nose and lungs will make sure I keep it cause they can't stand cigarette smoke at all. So I'm glad I have 'em. >w<

Aww, that's really awesome of you to do so Batty. <3

*tries to calculate if fifteen feet would be enough distance for my nose's heightened sense of smell to pick it up* Hmm... :ninja:

I also make sure I'm downwind. I mean, I don't mind killing my lungs. I'd rather go out happy, and doing something I enjoy BY MYSELF, than force someone else, who, doesn't agree with the lifestyle, to go out with me.

If you told me, right now, you'd much rather I didn't smoke around you? I would either find some secluded area away from you to do it, or I'd be the slowest of the slow pokes walking behind you, so that I knew you'd be alright.

Ehh, I'd manage. I have ways to combat when around those that smoke, though I dunno how effective they really are I could last at most a minute or two with them. So I hope those people can smoke REALLL FAST. XD

Or else I be shifting away a bit to put some fresh air in between us. *nodnod*

@bats: yeah, it is my choice. However, my goody self tells me not to because it will affect the people who love me and basically don't want me to smoke ^^"

Hehe your goody self. I'm not going to demand it, and it does not affect me that much. The only reason it bothers me is because it's bad for you, and the longer you live the better. :)

Thanks though, bats~ your opinion is helpful in a way ^^ *smooches* in the smoker's POV

and thanks, arikana for that :D I shall remember to be sensitive to others.

@sharkie: Yeah, I know, honey. xD; that's why we're gunna help each other.

Help each other? What is it that I am needing help with? Hehe. :)

The smoking fast bit? How fast can one smoke anyways? owo

Well, it really depends on the person... I smoke quite fast ^^;;

owo

Interesting... *stores said information* >w<

My brother found out about my smoking...and he scolded me for it. He told me that he's gunna take my pack and my lighter and throw it away if I don't quit cold turkey D:
I'm just lucky enough Sharkie allows me, but only one stick xD;

Well, to me there are worse things that you can be doing to yourself. If you want to stop smoking, it should be because you want it and not because someone else to forcing it on you. Yea, it's not a pleasant habit to have but your brother throwing out your pack unless you quit cold turkey isn't gonna really help. I'm friends with a bunch of smokers and not one of them would be able to quit in that fashion.

Also, different brands burn differently. Marbs tend to burn quicker than say American Spirits. There are a lot of different factors, surprisingly enough.

Like I said, there are worse things in my own opinion. But if you wanna quit than I wish you the best of luck. =)

That's good. Just being limited to one stick a day should help gradually keep you from smoking so much, and maybe one day none at all. It certainly would be healthier to not smoke at all. So maybe, just maybe... ;3

How many sticks do you normally smoke per day before Sharkie (Is that his actual name? o.o) limited you to just one stick per day?

well i can honestly say i learned something new today about cigarettes. xD

@Desmond: Awws, thanks. And yesh...I could do drugs and be addicted and what not, but I chose smoking which is a lesser evil


@arikana: Sharkie is just his nickname xD; I call him Addy because Adam is his second name (irl one)


@koga: what do you mean? O_O?

Ehh Marijuana is illegal, but does not do much to you. Smoking is legal, but kills you and those around you. She has been working her way with me though, and forcing extra cigarettes out of me most days. When I hear how stressed she feels from work and what not I can't help but bend to her will.

^^;; well, sorry about that. I'm trying to deal with it...

Have you tried those smokeless cigarettes? My friends mother uses one. Not only do I come home not reeking of smoke, but it sedates her smoking habit with out causing harm to her health or the environment since its just water vapor.

I suggested those to her, but she was saying they are rather expensive to buy. I don't wanna force my Keiko to buy really expensive cigarettes.

I am not sure how much they are were she lives. Here they are about the cost of maybe two packs combined but considering its refillable it pays for itself after a while. I understand if she doesn't want to pay for it though. I just hope Keikofly does other things to keep herself healthy, and to find a less stressful job. u-u

Well, I could buy one by the end of June :D and I don't like the smokeless tobacco D: it might stain my teeth permanently.
*huggles the poglet* thanks for you concern, mah love~ *smooches*

I'm sorry, I find smoking disgusting, just being honest. I have tried twice and it feels like I am suffocating...My grandfather died from smoking and ever since I refuse to touch one, I guess it scarred me. It's nothing against the people that smoke though, I just find cigarettes and smoking unclean.

I know it's a disgusting habit, when I was a kid I hated people who smoked as what I have indicated in the first post. I can't judge people who smoke no more since I know what the reason is why they would since I myself am experiencing that. I'm trying to stop though since I was able to quit a long time ago.