This summer/year has been awful.
 

I am super done with my life at the moment. Financially, emotionally, physically drained. I feel like I have very few people to talk to because my family is not very close knit and my friends are all far away and removed from my life in a sense. talking to people I don't know doesn't really help because I get the same things from all strangers that is never helpful to my specific situation since they don't know all the details and factors involved.

I want to spend a day doing stuff I enjoy but I don't enjoy anything anymore.
I want to do stuff that is productive but any time I do anything I feel like I leave it incomplete or have no way to get it all done.
I want to get out of my house and spend time outside but the air is unhealthy and it's too hot and my cars are both dead.

I feel like all I can do is sit in my room, play mindless video games or lay in bed all day wallowing in self loathing and despair.