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wow this weekend has been terrible

especially the past hour

not gonna talk about it (yet) but it has to do with. familial issues. holy shit why am I suddenly the voice of reason among the three of us

i need a drink but i promised myself i wouldn't drink before class days and especially not before the day of a quiz or exam

gods i'm so tired

i haven't had a legitimate weekend in three weeks

AND THE AC IS FUCKING BROKEN AND IT'S 88F INDOORS

I haven't been feeling like myself, probably due to the seasons changing. :/

yeah, seasons changing tends to mess with things.

a acquaintance's cat died and he's got a delayed grief response, which is pretty normal, all things considered, but it sucks that his cat is dead.

i'm also finding myself unable to help people as much as i'd like to, whether it's from low empathy / emotional burnout or my own problems.

i also still have a very unrequited crush on someone, but as long as they're happy, i'm happy.

EDIT: also, nobody except friends seems to reblog my art on tumblr.fuck -- it's sort of fucking with my self-confidence in the vein that i *know* my art is marginally decent, but nobody seems to like it if they're not reblogging it.

it also really doesn't help that i primarily motivate myself via getting attention.

i'm fully aware that my brain lies to me, but god, it would be nice if i got some sort of attention for making fan-content. then again, the don't starve fandom is sort of dead and there's a few big name fans about that regularly get reblogs.

i'm just. sort of jealous, really.

what’s your url

:[ It's Monday.
I've got classes again.
And I feel like I REALLY don't need to be here other than to hand in work. /B[
Wish I could ditch, but I guess attendance counts for something. >~>
I'm still on period but it's simmering down now, so I'm getting very tired, weak, and unmotivated..
Three classes. Lunch. Library. Home. Workout. Shower. Whatever.
Not much, I know...but, it's gonna be a struggle. <x{
I already feel like a burden since I had my bro lift me over here at his time and expense.
All I have is my metal and my food bag to comfort me. <n<
I don't feel like going to claaaass… <x'{ Mmuhhhhhhh! I'm just going to fall asleep and do something elllllse! I can do that in the library!
But I'm gonna feel bad if I don't go.. >n>;

:[ Aww Francisco. I feel for you buddy. </3
I don't have any friends either. <x} And I'm always questioning myself about it. hehe. I think I'm just too odd and tiny and unapproachable being myself for people to wanna be friends. :[ But one day I'll make a friend, maybe...
she says,
as the last time she had physically and emotionally belonged amongst other people's company was more than 8 years ago..
...and I always think my old friends hate me now or am too busy for me, so.. *shrug* <u>; Ah well...I guess I'm alone but not alone 'til then. <:] Glad you're sharin' the same sad lame vibes I ooze Francisco. You alright.

*is in no friend club*

We can be alone...together?

Aww, RIP kitty. :(

I'm also kinda crushing on someone but idk if it's gonna go anywhere. ;u;

Yeah no one really likes or reblogs my cosplay stuff on tumblr unless it's a friend so my confidence gets shot down. :/ I hardly post on there anymore though.

I can agree my brain also does that to me "No one's noticing your cosplay stuff cause you suck at it and they'll give the attention to someone a lot better than you" ;___;

<:] Yehh...the Friendless Friends..I guess.

We merry band of misfits.

what a mood. it's harder to make friends the older we get. trisphee meet up when

lewd wilson

my new daily awful i guess:

I just want people to talk about fandoms and projects with. :')

<U<; Same.
But all the fandoms I kinda belong to are either too crazy or not very great...or totally dead...or nonexistent.
and my projects are mostly all writing based..

I am always too shy to talk to people in my fandom. ;-;

Making new friends is super hard!!!
I've joined a few discord servers, but most of them are gaming related.
And the few that aren't are usually ded. >:(