I've been getting some more headaches lately at the end of the day...
>~>; I think it's all the time spent in front of screens and not moving around much that's doin' it.
<x{ I have to try and resist taking naps now..
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I have failed miserably at everything...
<x'} I have not resisted naps, I have not exercised a lick, and I see absolutely no reason as to why I should even work towards my own future.
Oops.
Also I had to take my pillow fort down, and now I feel like I need to invade empty rooms constantly in order to have my peaceful, uninterrupted me time.
>->;
Ontop of everything it's gotten hotter suddenly. T-T I'm not ready for wildfire season, and it's already looming. If we frickin' have to evacuate our house, we're gonna have to move to a relative's house, and the nearest one is in a desert, with the second closest being all the way in Northern California. 8c Which I would rather go to, BUT I really don't need to panic about loosing my entire home and memories to a fire. ;u; I'm already depressed and anxious. No thanks pls.
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Fuck. Just realized that because my ipad needs a full on reset that I can't do because I don't have itunes any of my computers. (It's an old ipad 2 and they apparently tend to not work properly after a certain point apparently...) I can't access my scalemail gloves template. XP
Which isn't the end of the world, but is super annoying.
Suddenly sad. ;u; Finished computer business. Drank some water.
Then WHAM!
Sadness.
Wtf?
<x'}
I'm so alone, I just wanna cry.
Why tf can't I cry anymore?? </3
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so, i was wondering why i had someone blocked in a server that i'm in with a few friends of mine.
they recognized me as going by clockblockers back when i was younger, and, iirc, they professed some kind of attraction to me when i was fourteen. they lied and said they were sixteen, then admitted to lying about their age. (they turned out to be eighteen, but i have no idea if they were further lying about their age.)
worth noting is that this person was in a relationship with a pedophile that i had a very close call with. if i still identified as a girl at the time, then i could have been sexually abused.
my (ex) gf got the brunt of it instead. i was in a polyamorous relationship with her and a boy at the time.
i'm super pissed that it happened and i didn't realize until my (ex) gf told us and now this has happened and it's dragged up a bunch of old memories.
also i keep forgetting how long i've been stuck in the house.
percival is busy being queer as hell. he was also here.
I can feel my period approaching...
<x(
*BIG GROANY SIGH OF WOE*
Booooooooooooo. I do not approve of thiiiiis! <x'C </3
I only have 3 months of prescription birth control left.
;n; </3 Which is great but I now need to use either over-the-counter stuff if it's available, OR find a means to continue the prescription with new insurance. *sigh* <B'[ </3 Such a rough year...
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Mega Man: The Light of Will (Mega Man / Green Lantern crossover: In the lead-up to the events of Mega Man 2, Dr. Wily has discovered emotional light technology. How will his creations change how humankind thinks about artificial intelligence? Sadly abandoned. Sufficient Velocity x-post)
Games by Coda (updated 11/24/2019 - New game: Jigsawmino) Art by Coda (updated 4/20/2020 - untitled original music)
My medication, which was kinda helpful the first year I was taking it...
It's starting to become a living hell for me.
It's messing up my body in ways I didn't think it would.
It's starting to have an effect on my life in other ways... I need to come off this medication, I really do...
But this has been the longest I have been out of the hospital.. And this medication is considered 'last resort' for my "condition"... If I fail out of this medication... well, I'm f***ed. I've tried all of the "popular" medications. If I can't make it on this one... I'm too scared to think about it. I refuse to go back to the hospital... At least, not the one I went to last. It was a horrible, horrible experience.
I hate having this brain...
"Peleamos otra vez
La casa está encendida
Si me quedo es suicida
Dices que no lo volves' a hacer
Promesas que no oigo
Yo ya te conozco"
i'm starting to run out of my prescription for acne meds. while i can go without, it's just. heavily annoying because i have an awful tendency to pick at my spots.
additionally, people keep referring to innocuous little fandom gatherings as cults. i know a couple of cult survivors, and referring to nice things with a word that's horrible, it distills the meaning of the word.
percival is busy being queer as hell. he was also here.