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awws, thanks asamey.
I have felt this depression before and I hate it so much because I feel like I'm wandering aimlessly and ending up in a situation where I don't want to be in.

Yeah I know the feeling.
Ono //huggles tight

*hugs back*
Don't you just hate it? You wake up, sit on your bed asking yourself, "Where am I? What do I need to do? What's out there for me? Can I just go back to bed?"

Yeah its the worst

One time, after my friends helped me.out of a really bad depression in my senior year, I gave a speech about it. Well I didn't know we'd have to give a speech on the essay but it was about experiences lin your life or something like that and you had to have 3 different things in it. So I decided to do that because it was still fresh in my mind... I almost cried reading it because I wrote very descriptively.. talking about all my scars, some you can see others you cant. And even describing how it felt to spiral down... it was hard to get past that part because even thinking about it brought me pain... but needless to say I got a 100 and the teacher wrote a lot of comments on it. Circling words saying they were amazing descriptions and stuff.. and in a strange way I was proud... I was honestly scared to read it outpouring though... I was shaking and my voice cracked twice...
My friends all gave me a big hug and they were crying.. I:

Sorry, I just felt like sharing that... I didn't mean for it to turn out so long

naw, it's fine, asamey~
I mean, at least you were able to pour yourself out and people were there for you. I on the other hand, am too scared to even talk to my best friend about it.

You have us. There was a time when I was too afraid to say anything. But my friends noticed and they helped out a lot.

So start slow. Use us to help out. Even talking about it helps. Then maybe you'll gain the courage to talk to your friends

I actually much prefer talking to my friends online than to my friends irl... I dunno why it just scares me if people see my cry.

I have no more "irl" friends anymore ... My last friend just stopped talking to me and I don't know why... So now you guys are all I have =c

ULTIMA, FUCK THOSE BITCHES. I HATE THEM NOW FOR LEAVING YOU.
*clings on you*

It is easier to talk to 'invisible' people
though I don't view you guys that way! Ilu guys!!!

Also ulti. Who needs them. We are so much better!

You know what my theory is on online friends?

They know you better because they see your deeper side.

-huggles Lauv-
This is why I have anxieties meeting new people and why I'm hesitant about making new friends. Because this always happens ... I get attached to someone and they either stop talking to me, turn into a bitch because of a new guy or whatever, or they suddenly move away. Or a combination of any of those ._.
I've always been the type of person to have a few good friends rather than a posse of okay-ish friends. But then I lose them and have nothing left.
And it's really sad when online friends are like "wow, you're such an amazing, nice person" because then I wonder why the hell my friends all left me.
-sigh- Anyways, I am glad I have Trisphee and such. You guys are amazing and I love you all <3

Lots of text o . o

I need them o^o One in particular, I won't get into any reasons. But I really hope he is just "busy" like he keeps telling me and not ignoring me....

That is true. Though I am sure most of you are annoyed by my constant complaining of my family and life... :/ I don't mean to... I just cant bottle.it up anymore

//hugs ulti
I wish those people could see that they lost an amazing friend.

I have a ton of okay-ish friends and they usually depend on me for comfort and an ear to listen to them whining...but when it's my turn to speak, they all scatter.