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That's me, right there. xD I apologize for so many things even when I didn't do anything wrong. I've always been quick to apologize. Like I said though, I think it's because of stuff from my childhood. My parents were always quick to yell at me for even small pointless stuff. Even when I'm doing something right, I constantly felt like I was wrong. So now I preemptive apologize over everything.

A lot of problems stem from how our parents reacted to us during childhood, so it makes sense.

To make Chi feel better she can come with me to work today and help paint walls ouo,

Haha, I'm hoping to get a real job soon. It's hard to keep faith sometimes though. I want to be successful somehow, I want to help others and I want to be happy. None of those things seem possible right now though. It's hard to feel happy when I feel like I'm screwing something up.

I'm afraid to get close to people too because I don't want them getting the wrong impression. I've ran into so many people that just think I want to date them. And I really don't. I want friends first but even that seems hard. It's a lot hard for me to open up to people now.

=/ why does everyone have to think all people want are boyfriend/girlfriends? =o= People have their minds in the gutter too much some times ._.,

I'm cheering for you on the job part =)

I would have to agree with DK there, I am in no hurry whatever for a boyfriend, even through my mother is crying for grandchildren. I rather focus on my school and work before even considering trying to settle down and raise children. Too many have settled down young and I honestly never was that social but I still want to live a bit before I tie the knot or have children.

As for the job, I think it's like that every where. I'm doing 10 hours per week just because a job is a job and earning me some cash while I finish college.

Unfortunately, I am not in the States, I use to live in Maryland and I would of said, if you needed someone to really talk to besides DK, I could of giving you my digits or even offered you a break to Maryland for a bit, not much to really do in the area where I lived, only downside and I worked 5 days. I'm overseas but could offer you a break to Scotland if you ever needed it, sometimes getting out of the States helps.

My mom was just bringing up grandchildren a bit ago and looking at my sister. Like seriously? My sister is at the age when my mom had kids but that doesn't mean my sister needs to put that kind of strain on her and her husband right now. They have two dogs, adding a baby isn't going to help them financially.

I finished school so I'd really like to make more friends and maybe start dating someone. I want to start with friends first and see where that goes. Dating is gonna be pretty hard for me actually. Asexuality is not common at all...

Well that's the thing. My job right now is not giving me enough hours or money for that matter for me to live on my own. I wouldn't even be able to live on my own with a roommate with the dismal amount of money I make. The job market is garbage for everyone. I'm trying to read up and get educated on the job market but it's tough. Things are constantly changing how employers look for employees, we have to adapt to their methods.

I appreciate the thought, Chloe. Thank you. I would love to take a trip somewhere and just relax for a while. But, fun things require money, which I don't have.

Life sucks. -shrug-