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I was feeling great now I'm feeling kinda not great. x(

man not having ctrl+z and the transform tool throws me off balance
also the art is on lined paper now...taken with my phone camera lmfaooo #nostalgic AF

Suffering some pretty bad anxiety over my museum job and I keep overthinking the email replies I sent to my boss. And I have to be up for work in about 2 hours, but I haven't been able to sleep yet. Because severe anxiety.
I need a new job, I shouldn't be this stressed out as a janitor...

Can't tell if it's my anxiety or just hunger pangs (because I haven't eaten yet today), but I feel somewhat nauseous...

I hate people

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This is gonna sound so stupid, but I was so much excite .-.

So I don't have much that makes me feel happy, but then spyro trilogy was coming to the ps4 ON MY BIRFDAY! I could have all three of the original games remastered.

So I preordered the physical edition because I like games on disc. Well, if anyone has been interest in the trilogy....ONE game is on the disc supposedly, so I don't even want it now. The one game on disc is the one I can still find my ps1 copy for. I have shit internet and don't want to deal with that much downloading. And I already put some down at gamestop and they do not refund preorders. So now I'm stuck either using that money to something else, which I can't think of anything I want other than spyro...and if I go digital (using the preorder money for a psn card) there's no point in getting it digital (which means my birthday present is now gone, though it was from and to me) since most games go on sale eventually and digital buying should get a little bit of a discount.

I'm just a sad salty ball now. I got excited and this tends to happen if I get excited about anything.

I've been living here over a week and I haven't gotten more than maybe 3 hours of sleep a night from pain and toddlers stomping on the floor above me at 6 or 7 am. I'm that kind of tired that usually means "pass out once head hits the pillow," but NOTHING IS LETTING ME SLEEP. NO TEA, NO MUSCLE RELAXERS, NOTHING. I WANNA DIE RN.

i want to turn back time, but i cant. i can only do better moving forward, but it's hard. damn hard. tbh this quote/phrase is so overused that i feel nothing when i say it. i have to delude myself into thinking i've already turned back time, but forgot everything and i'm living my second chance rn if tht makes sense???

Have a migraine, which is making it really hard to focus on work...
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Hello darkness my old friend...

(But no seriously tho I'm sorry u okay?)

I will be. I've sunk to the level of depression where everything is exhausting and I just wanna sleep until the end of time. It'll pass eventually.

Lost one family member in the past week, and poised to loose two more by year's end. I don't know how I should be feeling about all of this. I think I'm scared to think about it too much.

I'm so fucking tired of being made to feel lazy for being disabled... Fucking beyond tired of people telling me I'm letting it hold me back and cripple me like YEAH, NO FUCKING SHIT IT'S CRIPPLED ME, IM GODDAMN FUCKING DISABLED YOU STUPID FUCK
But noooooo, I'm being fucking threatened with eviction from my goddamn sister in law's because I'm a lazy cripple. If I weren't so goddamn suicidal rn I'd stab the bitch

WAILS FOREVER I LOST ALL MY PROGRESS SETTING UP MY DUM THRED DURING MAINTENANCE