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Speaking of anxiety I need to get in contact with people through messaging but I keep procrastinating. :') Go figure.

Had another migraine before work today...ugh

My dad is going as well. We learned in the spring he had cancer, and from the docs we thought he had a couple years if chemo went alright, but they weren't entirely straight. He has an incredibly aggressive form of esophageal cancer that comes from acid reflux damage. The chemo failed and the tumour is too big for surgery. They've given him 6 months. We don't live together, so my sister and I went over to visit him yesterday. Seeing how he looks, I doubt he has even that long. The punch to the gut is that this could have been prevented so many times. He complained for years about his stomach and no one went further then prescribing meds. When they did feel they had to do a test, a power outage delayed it by three weeks. Just that three weeks might have been just enough to put the cancer past treatment stage. My dad always said he would die before my stepmom, but none of us thought it would be this soon.

My uncle died roughly two weeks ago. My aunt who was married to him is in dire health, more-so than normal (we share the same chronic illnesses) and it wouldn't be surprising if she goes at any time, and I worry about how my mother will handle all this when things finally end. I'm holding myself together with distractions and things to do.

Rest in peace to both uncles. My sincere condolences.

"There's no cookies or donuts at home and Kadewin says she can't affowd to buy me any!"
Derpy sits on the floor and cries.

Oh no, Derpy! D8 Hope you get cookies soon!

Galla, I'm so sorry to hear that. ;_; That's an awful for the whole year, not month. I can almost feel the pain he's going through from hearing that but not being able to move or speak. That's.... scary... D: I would be terrified. *big hugs for Galla* ;u;

Quiet - Oh no. :c Cancer really does suck. My aunt battled it before it finally took her in 2014.... one month after my grandmother passed. ._. Last time I ever saw my aunt was at my grandmother's funeral.... </3


My daily awful is my allergies acting up. x_X

wow if anyone here needs to vent/talk hmu, i'll be around. sending love to all of u

Ugh. Taking a different bag today than normal so I can work on a large project on my break at work, but I forgot to switch my phone charger from my normal bag to the one I took today.

Running into idiots on FB is always fun. Not. ;_; I pity the fools.

Ugh. Strained my wrist (the one I sprained earlier this year) today so now I probably should rest it some instead of loom knitting even though I'm so close to finishing my shawl.

We finally got our real mattress into my room at my parents house yet it still didn't help me sleep through the night
I've been up since before 3am and I'm dead inside

My daily awful is my son peed on me, and also people think Im crazy and am getting unwell, when Im not.

How old is your son? My son did that when he was a few minutes old.

my waifood didn't come home

kinda bummed i can't wear multiple dabicorns and blazers and have them all visible at teh same time. these recolors are so good???? 😩😥✨ it's like they were made for me

I don't know why both of my Achilles want to fail me. Going from doing some type of work out every day to not at all, and everything else I've tried, isn't helping.