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Oh.... D=
well... that sucks... ;3;

*shrugs* It happens.... I have lots of issues with my eyes.

... In all honesty- I'm going to quit the paladins. It's too much hassle to be in it at this point, and I really don't agree with the no black listing policy.

Completely unrelated to Hiko's reasons for wanting to leave the Paladins I think that I am going to leave as well. I feel like I have brought a lot more drama into this thread than needed, and I apologize for all of that and I relinquish my title of elemental captain to Obbiesan if he cares to take it. Thank you for the time that you have given me and I take my leave.

......
/sits in a corner/
I think I'm the reason why you two are leaving...

You aren't amaya. I promise.

You're not. Our reasons for leaving is completely unrelated to you .o.

Yeah... That's ONE reason... So the other must be about me "pressuring" you into not dating cause of my opinion in the family tree thingy.... Dx

The other reason is something that I don't wanna say on the thread.

Amaya- believe me when I say you aren't ANY of the reasons why we decided to leave the paladins. If anything- you were one of the only reasons why we stayed.

I really need to go to sleep now... Hiko... You made me feel like a bad person by saying what you did in the comments about the relationship thing. It hurt me... It added on to me crying, and I've been crying for hours straight... I can't even go to sleep from what's running through my head right now... ;3;

....I dint think I made any sense up there.... ._.

You're amazing Amaya! I promise you that you have nothing to do with all of this. I promise! *hugs* get some sleep honey.

I can't go to sleep cause my pillow is literally soaked with my tears...

*gently curls up around Maya* I'm sorry Maya. I'm the reason they are leaving and as the leader here I will take full responsibility for any grief you may be feeling. *grooms Maya gently*

Oh.... alright....
/sighs and swishes tail/
My grief is mainly caused by real life.... so you aren't responsible for that...
and you aren't responsible for my choice about the family....
Hiko and Airi want me to choose:
Airi be me and Hiko's sister
or...
both Hiko and Airi be my parents....

I am not good at choosing... Never have been....
When I've had to choose something in the past, it's led to me stressing out and crying...

Like... for about 3 years, my mom has wanted me to move in with her... my dad wants me to move in with him...
I'm living with my grandparents...
they want me to choose who to go to...
I can't choose between my parents, so I stay with my grandparents...

My grief has been going on for over 10 years straight and still going. So you aren't able to take responsibility for my grief... sorry dear....

Also... if this post leads to causing drama or whatever.... please don't argue to me about it.... it might make be burst out crying in the middle of class and running to the bathroom.... D=

Oh Maya! There's no drama. Feel free to get it out. You take your time to choose and until then you are welcome here with me as your foster mom