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My stupid family was so busy being distraught they forgot about Monkey, so while they cleaned up the kitchen I changed her and got her her breakfast and played with her until everything was ready. Then we buried Max and my brother got all up in my case and asked how come I didn't seem upset.

I didn't feel like explaining that there was stuff to be done and that I don't want to fall apart with everyone watching.

Good grief. Upset or not, you can't just forget about things that need to be done...

No, and no one seems to understand that, I made one attempt to make that point and got the response "People aren't robots...but I guess you are." Mom says he's just mad but it might have made everyone feel better if I'd been less clinical about the whole thing.

And this is why I don't want to live with family, ever. :/

Yes, they're all still consoling each other. They haven't said anything yet but of course they'll be upset that I didn't "reach out". Because wanting to deal with my feelings privately is the wrong way to do it, apparently.

Gah... Of course, their way is the only way. As with everything.

yup,

They just came out and said that it bothers them that they can never tell how I'm feeling or what I'm thinking and that's why they're always so cross with me.

I have no idea what to do with that.

Me, either. o_o That just seems kinda... crazy.

Indeed, but they aren't the first to have this complaint, it seems to make people really angsty and uncomfortable if they can't tell where they stand with someone.

'Deed, which I guess is understandable, but you'd think it wouldn't be that hard to accept that not everyone deals with things in the same way.

yes, but not in this house hold, I can't even grieve without being bothered.

Sooner you get out of there, the better.

What are your plans for the weekend?

I don't really have any, I haven't even really given much thought to the weekend.

'Deed. Maybe you should come here? Willis will not question your method of grieving, and everyone will be off your back. ...and also I miss you.

I think I'd like that, maybe I can spend Saturday night/Sunday afternoon with you?

That should be fine. We don't have any plans around here, either, so my grandma won't have a problem with it.