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If I lived any closer, I'd gladly dress up as you for the board game time so you can sneak back home earlier. Might even act as stunt double for going to church, but Derpy got to bribe me with a hug.

Daily Awful:
My left arm still hurts like hell from balancing a 3d cake tree in the car to my aunt, and I still got the car ride with the second cake to my other aunt ahead of me today.

To truly survive the forced game time, you'll need to learn pinochle.
And I can't speak for Derpy, but I bet he'd give you lots of hugs!

One of the cards is literally referred to as pig? I'm in! XD

I...what? Pig?

Also pretty sure someone gifted me a cold. XP
I don't want it!

wanting your art to be commented on + loved vs wanting to not seem like an attention seeking mess, fight.

Mum is sick. =w=; Her coughing up gross vomit sounds woke me up in like the early AM. >->; Only got a couple hours of sleep extra, and trying to stay FAR away from her germs..blueghh. <x{

My awful;

So since my dad recently got a new job, I've been seeing less and less of my therapist. :(
My mom can't drive me there and I don't have a license. My therapist says I might have to see someone else who is closer because she feels she can't properly help me if we only have video chats or over-the-phone sessions.

I'm very upset. It took me a while to feel used to her... and now I may have to start all over from scratch with a new therapist. The stress of the holidays was already hard as it is, but to know I'm losing a good therapist... well, I'm worried everything will flare up again.

My medication already got increased last month... Things were going okay for a while because I had a nice little routine. I'm very, very upset... maybe even a little distraught. When my routine gets f***ed up, my symptoms get worse and it'll be really hard for me to see a new therapist, I'm sure...

1 hour and 40 minutes left of work and my tummy just feels super upset (not sure if just gas pain or if related to the cold I picked ip over Christmas as I know stomach flu is going around...). Hang in there, tum-tum! I will make you a nice herbal tea with ginger soon!

I've spent the past several weeks with that kind of exhausted that you're ready to cry by the end of the day and just WHY

EDIT: it's 3 AM and I've been awake for hours... my body decided an hour of sleep is enough, even though I feel like I'm gonna pass out when I'm upright. I'm just... wide awake once I hit the pillow, for some reason.

@Kaderin
well, I never heard of pinochle before, so I googled it. One of the cards is referred to as Sau - which is German for pig. Female pig, to be precise.

hi hello i'm very tired as per usual.

man, does the anhedonia make it hard to enjoy things.

Ah frick. xP

I had food poisoning yesterday x(

food poisoning sucks ass.

realizing that some of my symptoms line up w/ bpd and i'm just sitting here.

(yes, i did cry at one point bc i was scared that my dad was abandoning me + mum when he was really just kind of late due to traffic.)

I caught some form of crud at some point. throat's scratchy.

My awful;

Period started three days ago and I was supposed to go see Frozen 2 with my mom for her birthday,
But I ended up feeling much too sick to go anywhere.
I'm really upset also since my sleep schedule is all sorts of f***ed. And the longer I go with a f***ed up sleep schedule, the worse my mental health tends to get...

I've also noticed lately that I've been forgetting doses of my medication. :(
Which sucks because if I skip too many doses, my psychiatrist will find out (I have to get blood drawn once a month and my results have to be cleared by a pharmacist before they can even give me my next month's worth of medication) and I will have to start all over again with blood draws once a week...