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I just found out 2 people i knew in high school died. One in a car accident earlier this week, the other murdered via brutal beat down by a guy not fully sane it seems.

My response: Same as always, avoid people who were associated with the dearly departed out of ear of offending them somehow. Has it really effected me? No, but should it? I never know.

When I found out that my highschool friend (still was a good friend, until she died) had died from leukemia, I cried for a few days. I still haven't gotten over her death.
Thing was, she was a good friend of mine, there were moments that we didn't communicate and didn't understand each other, fought a bit sometimes...But we both let go of it because she said that we were kids at the time and we know that we're better now.
I tend to never let go quite easily because I think I'd offend them if I do. That's just me.

To each his own, I suppose.

When I was in high school, a boy who was exceptionally rude to me was hit by a truck and died a few days later. I felt nothing. A lot of his friends were sad and got excused absences from class to go grieve, but I hated all his friends too. I've wondered since then, is it wrong to feel like the world as a whole is better off without him? I felt sad for his family but I didn't feel sad about his death.

The only person close to me who has died is my aunt, a few years ago. I was definitely sad then.

i've had aunts i view of as grandparents (i never met mine) die and honestly felt nothing but confusion, so i dunno...it might?

the only person that i know that died is my grandfather. he wasn't my grandfather by blood just a friend of my grandparents that said to call him and his wife grandparents. he died and his was my first and only funeral. i cried my eyes out at the funeral but then it was like i was numb. i just didn't feel bad because we all new he was going for about a year. i just get sad when i think of him and his family.

does this make sense?

i'm slightly depressed i'm missing my grandfather today. other than that i am good i'm going to watch some movies today so i can forget the real world for a little bit.

From my experiences with death (both in real life and TV, thank you Dead Like Me), it's normal to feel exactly how you're feeling, whatever that may be. You don't need to beat yourself up over "not crying" or "not feeling so bad" or avoiding people. Dealing with death is a very internal emotional thing.

If you're worried about how others are perceiving you acting, you shouldn't really, but at the same time be aware that other people may be offended by jumping up and down in excitement or cracking jokes. I'm guilty of cracking jokes at funerals, but that's just how I deal. I know who to say them to and more importantly who NOT to say them to.

As for the day to day life goes on, I would advise ya'll to cherish the people you have around you WHEN you have them around, especially if you like them!

:)

Other than that, and as insensitive to you guys above me and OP as this is (I apologize if anyone gets offended by my happiness, seriously!), I've had a wonderful day spending it with a good friend of mine.

I'm an emotional wreck when someone dies...

I've lost all of my grandparents, all but one, before I was born.
So only my grandma counts since I knew her for the first 5 years of my life.
I didn't go to her funeral because of my age, but I feel happy/sad when I look back on what memories I have of her.
I lost my "Granny" Betty, who was my Grandma's friend but also very close with us, in grade 8.
That was an extremely hard time for me, because I loved her to pieces.
And I lost my aunt (who I was vaguely familiar with because she was on my dad's side of the family) shortly afterwards. It's the only funeral I can remember going to.
It's a bit of an angry memory, because my father didn't even show up to his own sisters funeral.
He's a dead beat dad who hasn't lived up to any of his expectations, but you would think he'd show up when his immediate family dies.

And just yesterday my aunt's close friend had a really rare brain stem stroke.
Today we found out she isn't going to make it, and my aunt had to help the son and daughter decide on taking her off of life support.
I barely knew the woman, she was a waitress at one of our few good restaurants, but I still feel like crying for her loss.
And her families.
And my aunt's.
Ugh.

The only people remotely close to me who died were my mom's father (whom I never met, as he died before I was born), and my childhood friend's mother. My friend's mother had been battling cancer, but she lost. I only found out at the beginning of this year, and I was very upset for my friend.

stressed out is my house clean enough for my family who are stopping by for thanksgiving.

should i vacum the floor again, or will they think i'm trying to hard. will my dogs behave when they get here? should i put them in the back yard so they don't bug anyone?

can't wait till the day after tomorrow.

Depressed as always. A little bored. Not a lot has happened today.

had an awesome day which is turning into a terrible night. the rest of the week will only get worse -_-;