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Haha I bet it will XD I've hardly had any idea what's going on and I was able to get through the teaching part fine XD

It's AMAZING. It's like I was born for the role.

I wish it wasn't just seasonal...but still I'm so happy to have had the chance to do this.

Not sure. At the very least it's not like I won't still be working for them when the job ends, just will be what I was before, phone operator.

Saiyouri, may I get your opinion on something that's been on my mind a while?

I'm currently in a somewhat complicated relationship with a girl in France. It's wonderful and I love her but the likelihood of it being more than what it is now is almost nonexistent because she has severe problems with being near people in person. For a while I thought I didn't mind it being strictly online...but for the past few months I've realized that it's not what I want. To be honest I have no problems continuing what we do even if we weren't in a relationship, and sometimes I think she doesn't even consider that we may be.

I have met Lunaryon from here in person and we're both very compatible with each other... Twice I asked her to date me and twice I threw it away because I thought I couldn't give her enough of myself to be worth it. I think I should ask her again but I'm afraid that my love for someone I can't be with will prevent me again. I'm just trying to work through it for now. I'm afraid of throwing her away a third time, but I really love her...not as much as I love the one in France but I know I can be with her and that is something I REALLY want in a relationship.

You can just give me thoughts on it if you want. I'm not looking for a solution from others, I need to figure it out on my own really :p

I did have a couple weeks away from both of them actually. They were both gone for a while. I was far happier when Luna came back because Luna shows how much she cares for me...the one from France doesn't really. I know full well a relationship has to be both ways...which is why sometimes it feels as if the one in France doesn't consider us to be in one, and just be really close instead. I really don't know still. I have a severe emotional block when it comes to considering what it is I want for myself.

I kind of feel like I'm meant for both of them. It's just that with Luna, it feels mutual. The one in France...well she often says she doesn't deserve my love. It's not true of course, she does. I just worry that maybe because I feel sorry for her I'm staying with her...I don't think that's true either because I care for her VERY deeply.

She and I share a bond, and it's a very strong bond so I'm sure that no matter what we will remain close. I think maybe I am pushing for something she's not ready for and may never be ready for considering what she's been though. But that's alright, as long as I can continue to spend time with her I think I will be fine with what turns out.

Thankies so much for your observations on this Saiyouri :3