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Might just go to bed.

talk to me later on skype when you can get back online, sweetie.

Actually, I probably wont be talking to many people for a while. Thinking about stopping this whole webtoon thing too, since it's so selfish. I'm not even really that good lol.
+reality sunk in+
Back to lurking I guess, if I don't feel better tomorrow.

Oh c'mon, meiz. I love your webtoon.
I know that one comment can really put you down, but everyone was really excited and happy about it.
> u < aren't you happy that you'll make me love shounen ai again?
it's kind of a good thing since I can rp with others who only RP yaoi. o3o

>.<
Ma face has been poked

*pokity poke poke's hyjin's nose*
> U <

It's not about what people think of the webtoon. This is sparked because I have barely a presence for my dad anymore. I can't share anything that makes me happy with anyone, because it's stupid to "normal" people. I'm just tired. I want to give up trying to do/be things I want to be, just because I want to be happy. I mean, as long as I'm not dead, nobody's going to give a shit.

Tomorrow, everything will be like usual.

so does that mean you're going to stop doing the webtoon?

I don't want to. It makes me happy. But I don't know what they want me to do.

Don't let it get through you then. Do what you want to do, something that makes you happy. You're not stepping on any people, they just disapprove of it.
I know what you feel because that's what I'm going through right now.

i made myself a new avi

Nevermind, I'm sorry for all this.
I'll be alright tomorrow, and if not, maybe the next day. I'll just keep trying to sleep it off.

That part, I didn't know, meiz. I'm really sorry...but as you've mentioned, I won't say anything comforting or considerate since you've mentioned it's unecessary.
But a just a question:: Your happiness to them doesn't matter? I mean, that's good for you. They want you to be normal which I know you won't like for yourself, and if you're gunna do that... you'll cheer them up?
So basically, you're gunna sacrifice your happiness just so your dad can "accept" you?
I don't wanna say this, but your dad's being an ass to you.

I made him sound really bad. He's not. He's a very good guy, and in fact, I shouldn't complain at all since he breaks his ass at work every day for us. So, lets just forget about this. ^^;
He doesn't do any of that intentionally, I don't think. I think he honestly just doesn't notice me. Nothing I do can really get him to. I think I'm just not used to being happy, so I figure I need to be punished in some way to make up for it. If nobody else does it, I do it myself, like this.

and your self-pity kicks in, meiz. I know your dad is not a bad guy, I did say though that he's being an ass to you for just "tolerating" you
is that because the way your are? = n =
Everyone deserves to be happy, meiz. That's cliche, but it's true.

Self-pity? I don't want to be pitied, so why would I pity myself? Sorry, if I came off like that, I wont drag this out. I just needed to rant a little somewhere, and Kai's been busy, so I couldn't go to him this time.
I won't make a habit of it, lol. You know I usually lurk instead.