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Just going to say this now
THERE IS
NEVER
ENOUGH
BALLOONS

leave me cow alloooonnneeeeee

xD Agreed with sPARX!!! The more the better!!!
/looks greedily at the cow

I have returned to haunt glitch!

My balloons sadly left me and became stars, I am now trying to summon them back...

Hey guys... do you mind if I'm open and honest with you? It will be some pretty heavy stuff :-/

yeah sure, go ahead. o.o

Yeah what's up monbon?

Everything I just typed up disappeared because I accidentally clicked outside of the text box and hit the backspace button on my keyboard :')

-dies on the inside for you-
That is terrible oh no D:
That really pisses me off when I do that too....

I guess I'll just tell you the tldr version...
My best friend of 8 years and old roommate attempted suicide on August 29th and told everyone it was because of me.

This was stressful for me and I ended up not eating since then until I ended up in an emergency room on September 20th.

D:
That's all terrible! I'm so sorry that happened to you!
Are you doing ok right now?

Well, my mom drove up from Texas and is staying with me until Wednesday. I have to start seeing a counselor. I have to send my friends pictures of my meals so they know I'm eating.

I still have a lot of negative feelings and don't really want to sustain myself, but I don't really get that choice.

Well quite a few of us do like having you around...
I will say I am glad you have friends that care enough to want you to do that though. Seeing a counselor will help you deal with the negative feelings too, usually.
That is more then sucky, its terrible this happened to you =(

Thanks :)

I... am trying. It's been incredibly hard to admit there is a problem or that I need help fixing it.

It's hard but as they say it is the first step. god I hate those words XD
And your tries are worth every one =3
It will be nice down the road when it is something to look back upon instead of living it currently.... Until then it's just each day as it comes along <3
I do hope you continue getting better (and your friend(?) for that matter, but you matter more to me) and things can get resolved in a peaceful manner =(

God I got stuck with trisphee server maintenance on my screen so I couldn't reply or anything lol XD Just wait until apparently they were done >.>
I know it happens every night it's just some nights I'll be on and booop can't reply for a while, because magically it's midnight XD but it is a great way to remind yourself actually how late it is....