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Just accidentally purchased a Mage Beard and it took 875 aurum out of the 1k I had xD

Now I have 172 aurum. Go me!

smol drama

Well, you can sell it back to recover half of that or you can find someone to trade it with.



My grump for the day: I stayed up way too late last night working because other people's jobs are on the line if we don't get this project in the customer's hands by Monday...

Just painted my nails and they're already chipping. XP

First instance of being dead named for the night just happened
My chest feels tight but i gotta act normal :)
MMMMMMMMMMMMMM I love family

Good idea. I actually just went through my entire inventory and sold all of the commons I don't really wear. Went from 900 aurum up to 17k haha.

I told myself I would finish this paper today and I'm not getting anywhere and it sucks.

I can feel the loneliness encroaching upon me once again. Why am I like this. Why do people always leave. I'm more confused than frustrated at this point. I just want to fix it.

I learned tonight that I can't sleep without my fiance next to me. I get right back into my old patterns of waking every single hour and being stuck awake at about 4 or 5.
We already figured it's that I feel safe around him, since I usually tend to just pass out when he's near me and I'm tired at all.
Is this a part of my PTSD? Because it fucking sucks.

It's not that unusual at all. I can't sleep well without my wife next to me. It makes business trips hard. I don't think it's necessarily PTSD (although it might tie into it) and more just the very human trait of craving stability, safety, and comfort.

I can't read the raws. t h e s u f f e r i n g c o n t i n u e s

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My landlords are raising the rent by $10 and even though I can afford it and it's not that big of a deal, it's causing some anxiety issues.

Everything is awful. It just is. All of it. Life is hard. I'm going to be face down for a couple of days trying to recover.