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Tiiiiiiiiired.

Put in like 30 hours of overtime this weekend. Didn't get to sleep last night until after 4 AM and had to wake up at 6:30 to get my son to school.

Either way, I never slept well before. I can remember being in 3rd grade and exhaused because I barely slept
So having him next to me and actually sleeping deep enough to dream is so effing nice :3

I came home to an eviction notice on my door. First I felt numb, now I feel sick. My boyfriend won't let me pack in case he can get things settled with the landlord. Supressing panic attacks is making me tremble violently. My eyes hurt from trying not to cry.

Cry anyway. It helps (like, biologically, it does!) I'm horrible for always trying to hold things back and all I tend to get out of it is a headache and more stress.

Once again received a rejection email for a job I applied for. Feeling really bummed and loosing my motivation.

I know the feeling, but hang in there! I put in a couple hundred applications last month. Most I never heard back from. A few I got rejection letters from. But lo and behold, I'm employed now! It takes time, but rejections are just a thing that happens. If you have enough applications out there, one will eventually work out.

My head has been hurting today more than usual
so that's fun

My brain is indecisive. The end. x(

Still pretty stressed out about some shit

bad vibes

My potatoes betrayed me. I had some last night as they are usually a safe food but my gut was acting up this morning so I've been sick all day. Wondering if it might actually have been my headaches causing the nausea.

So now I've been asleep all day when I planned to get the tail end of all school work done, so I'm attempting it now, and I also have to get food in before midnight cut-off as I have to fast for bloodwork tomorrow. Weeeee.

I thought I'd feel better today but I feel worse
head hurts again and I just wanna sleep :/

Had to drop out of Ludum Dare 41 because I got called into work on what was supposed to be my day off, because our ginormously big Fortune 500 client was having major problems.

sudden nausea inducing back pain making me skip out on all the plans for the rest of my day

Ugh. Work keeps giving me early shifts, which sucks because I am soooo not a morning person and I can't eat when I first wake up and my shifts aren't long enough that I get a lunch so I am always starving like halfway through my shift. And I'm always so tired and groggy that I forget to grab something to snack on before I leave the house.
And it wouldn't be so bad if I had a car, but I don't, so I have to be up even earlier so I can walk and get there in time. (And no, can't do the bus because I don't have the cash and can't take a cqb because the taxi service here is notoriously unreliable and costs more than I can afford anyway.)