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Why Pastebin, of all sites? You could be using Google Drive and have actual archival tools.

Because I'm stupid
Plus all my google drive accounts are full lmao I don't want a 12th email rn

Heh. Okay, that's fair.

I guess I'd better prepare for tomorrow and go to sleep. ;u; </3
*does everyone's dishes because no one else will ever do them, prepares lunch for tomorrow, and tries to climb close to the ceiling for sleeping time in time to sleep well...*

sweating

stares at mers like a sleep paralysis demon

actual vent, since i got back home: laptop's power converter crackled again bc of the lead not being plugged in properly. had to get mum to check if the lead was in properly and switch the outlet on because i'm getting a lot more nervous around it now.

i know it's sort of unreasonable but the one talent i have that isn't to do with art and it's being ridiculously nervous.

>n> Dammit. I gotta go to class and try not to fall asleep in the middle of lecture again...
*stares at Voidbarker like I wanna drape a sheet over them and cover them in pillows* e_e...shhhhhh...no staring.

continues being a sleep paralysis demon

the good thing about being seventeen is that i no longer have to go to a shitty secondary school that does jackshit about the bullying issues.

The daily search for money to put into my account because my gov't allowance is just shy of covering my bills. Joy.

TFW you start to put your face down and you’re close enough to notice, even without your glasses, that the brown spot on your pillow is actually a cockroach.

oh, lord.

still being wildly uncertain about my future. i'd like to get a job as a concept artist in a game studio, but given that my hand has been getting spikes of numbness for the past few days (both of them have this problem), i might have to look for something else if it does end up being either carpal tunnel or tendonitis.

Today is a dark day, mentally
And that was even BEFORE I started wheezing painfully. I hope my money comes in today, because I literally need an inhaler so fucking badly ;-;

you have asthma?

also, got pains in my shoulder, hoping it's just a case of me sleeping weirdly. pain's mostly gone now that i think about it, more towards uncomfortable, if anything.

Yeah, I've got asthma. Also same on the shoulder

oof. my YTer bro had asthma, i think? idk if he's still got his inhaler.

Yeah, asthma sucks. At least people can get over childhood asthma, I developed it as an adult

Also daily awful part 2: I finally have money on my card now, was gonna catch a bus down to walgreens to get my money and my inhaler, suddenly my mom's beating down my door to show me a severe weather "threat" (wtf is a severe weather threat compared to a watch or warning) starting right after I'd fucking get there. So no inhaler, no FINALLY getting tennis shoes, no paying off my fucking credit card, no pedals for my bike, no nothing because I walk/ride the bus anywhere.