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>~>; I am not going to get sick! Mm!! Mm-mm! Not gonna do it. -~-; *has been runny nose and sneezing on and off + throat still warm and scratchy-ish*
I refuse!! >~<;

i don't get ittttttttttttttttttttttt

not to be both feral and touchstarved on main but i really want kisses. and hugs.

double posting on main because topic change.

spoilered because of heavy talk and animal death. read at your own discretion, i'd suggest taking a breather if you find yourself sad or triggered by this. i think that's about everything.



shit is pretty fucked.

Didn't get a good sleep due to indigestion. >~>; and I woke up a bit dazed and sore.
I don't think I'm going to be able to have any fun today, despite me feeling a little better.
>n> I'll be too busy going back and forth between work, and rest. Both homework and housework. Won't even get to touch personal project works. <n< and that's what saddens me the most...
Well...better hop to it..I guess. >n> There's always tomorrow.. *big ol' frowny face*

that cyclic pain

house is so empty

So much stress lately...
It feels like things are going south...

But I think I'll be okay.
I hope, so anyway.
;-;

Apparently spending time within bright yellow walls makes me depressed.

I have to do my homework despite planning not to attend class tomorrow morning. =~=; Which I feel is the most pointless effort in the world, and a sheer waste of my energy which I should be using sparingly and gingerly.

>-> But, since I am not planning to attend tomorrow, I have extra time to focus on assignments and work...well, provided I'm not still hounded by this illness whatever it is...I've got a feeling it's a cold. <-<; But if I'm not careful, it could turn into something much worse.

And as much as I would like to spread the germ in my own petty, emotionally originated spite and contempt, I'd like to keep my integrity of consideration for others intact more. >n> People might irritate me, depress me, and make me feel quite alone...but I know they have much more important lives they are likely living, than that of my own. To get sick, would be a cruel misfortune for them, and a minor inconvenience for me.
I wish more people were allowed to stay home and take care of the- *ASNEEZE!* >~<; themselves until their illness is gone completely, just to be considerate of the people around them that can get sick from them if they returned to work or sc- *ASNEEZE!!* =~<; school, still sick from whatever they contracted. *sniff* guh...and now the sunlight is in my eyes...great..
..actually, I suppose it'd be an opportune time to take a picture of the goldshine in my irises. >.>; Or not. My eyes aren't even gold..

*insert annual "Had great coffee but wish the moment could last longer" complaint here* XD

Kinda makes sense? That's a lot of stimulation. I'm not surprised that it could be draining.

I always wanted a bright yellow kitchen!

I don't know why? I guess when I watched TV, all the "happy" families had bright yellow kitchens

Yellow reminds me of cheese...
...and of creepy old bible pages. >->

Well, it appears I'm forced to be taken to my campus against my will. -u-
...*long, deep throated sigh* T~T
In a state of displeasure and petty defiance, I shall find a safe place on campus to avoid the student populous, and get done some more work...Preferably a place with easy access to a trash bin, restroom, wall outlet and microwave..

ugggggggh too much sugar
this is how i cope. i snack. strangely. i used to...nvm. too depressing to type.

Yep, the irony obviously being that people 'round here recommend yellow as a happy color and use it in overabundance everywhere they want to cheer others up. I am not feeling the happy. At all.

Then again forced happiness has never worked for me anyway, because... duh, forced.