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i despise the people in this town. we're not a bank, stop making your financial problems our problem.

I should journal my interactions with wildlife. Not that it would be particularly interesting. But there seems to be something new every day.

;U; I just want to play video games...that's all I want. Video games. Memes. Snuggles. and SOME sort of clarity or certainty in my desired life direction!
Is that too much to ask??? ;n; That's not too much to ask for.

vaguely wishing my voice was deeper so that i could do voiceovers for videos.

Derpy waddles through, bundled up in a large blanket.
"Make it stop being cold pwease!"

Trade you. Wednesday's high is 72.

Derpy looks at the thermometer, which is reading -4 degrees.
"Deal!"

hhhhh oh gods what are feelings. can i go back to deluding myself that i'm 100% aro/ace and not just nebulously on the deep end of the spectrum?

when i said, "plant the boot on my arse and kick me forward", i didn't... expect you would actually do that, and now i'm juggling feelings for you *and* her. that's not fair.

There is nothing wrong with shifting where you fall on the spectrum at any time.

yes but now things are *complicated* and i don't like complicated.

everything is chemicals at the end of the day. sometimes it takes time to realize where you fall on a spectrum, and that's alright.

Speaking of chemicals, my own chemicals just randomnly decide to make me feel things during, before or after my period. I shrug them off, but sometimes they kinda get to me. ^~^; Like wanting to visciously destroy a fax machine, or cry into a pair of fluffy arms.

>x{ Damn chemicals mucking things up and making me feel like a total nutcase!
>8( Also for getting me hot n' bothered as well as super depressed!
Sorry, this doesn't seem to relate to Espy's situation... >~>;

<xc Actual shout tho:
I don't know what to do with myself. ;_; I'm scared to try getting a job because I feel like no one would ever hire me, and it'll make me even more depressed feeling like I have no value to anyone, while at the same time,
if I do get hired, it means I'll be stuck in that job until I could find another one I'm also unhappy in. ;U; </3 *covers face with jacket* All I wanna do for money is travel and write..but I can't get that job because I have no credibility...aaaaaaaaaaaa

Sometimes I wish I was one of those people who had passions that pay. People who know what they want to be when they grow up and can make it happen.
Instead I'm an adult who will never know what they want to be when they grow up. And my passions are things you can't really make a living at. No one is gonna pay me to snuggle cats. Or read books quietly. To myself. Without writing a review or article afterwards. Or to sit at home and loom knit. (And yeah, people will buy the things I make...so long as I massively undervalue my time. Because no one wants to pay almost $70 for a hand-made, one of a kind, stuffed animal when they can pick up some cheaply made, mass-produced in a sweatshop stuffed animal at Walmart for $5. So I basically have to charge 50%-80% less than I should in order to actually sell anything.)

Thanks for the comments guys XD I've been watching the movie on Disney+ and the song has been in my head lol

<x} I had to Kitty. The Belle cosplay is so great! How could I not?

Also, just bought the sugar swirl recoloring collection with the rest of my runes and I am happy to have gotten the single item I was eyeing in it for a while...<x}

Thank you 8D

And yay! :3