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Hey friends,

I am so so sorry I've been MIA lately. :(
I feel like a really bad friend. >n<

I've been having some drama in life lately,
And to be honest, I really just didn't feel like pretending to be happy and talking with friends.

But I'm going to try to be a bit of a better friend.
I don't want to abandon good friends and then get upset and wonder why they move on without me.
>n<

How's everyone today?

Honestly, you're not alone in that Ava.
<:'}
I always feel like I'm such a bad friend, even though I've been told it's not true.
<:c But since I've been told I'm a bad friend for like, 7 years, consistently, by the person I pretty much decided was more important than anything else...it's tough to believe otherwise.

But you're not a bad friend. <:} It's tough to be there for someone when you are still struggling with other things..
<:c Feels like you're letting someone down, but it isn't so.

I'm doing ok. <:] Got some writing I'm doing. Trying to write consistently all week long, and so far, ^_^ I've written 12 chapters for my fantasy story. I will need to fix them, but I'm at least getting them done I think. <:T
Other than that, I'm mostly dreading the fall semester being online, and moping about my current still jobless situation. TT-TT And feeling rather alone..

shooooot, i would say whine,cry, complain, bitch, bicker and fuss! noone asks for perfection and ideal sweetness, you won't be thought less of here<3 we care ^^

:] Exactly.
Like, today,
>8{ I feel grumpy because I haven't eaten breakfast yet, and also,
>x{ because I feel like everybody around me is so much bigger and taller they expect me to be so fast and busy but hey!
Hey yo! >x/ I'm like a teeny crab in a king spider crab world!
>8/ Y'all don't expect me to hustle around with my tiny legs and somehow keep up with everybody else making huge ass strides with their enormous stilt legs, do ya?
>X{ No! It's impossible, and also extremely stressing! So I'm gonna scuttle around at my own pace!
>H< I don't care if I'm too slow. >8{ I am doing my best despite my 1/2 foot footsteps and with what little energy I have. S-so there!

....that was much too cute

<x]
It's a blurse I never asked for.
*shrug*
Said it once, I'll say it again...
._. I'm too cute for my own good. It's bound to get me into trouble..again.
=~=; I'm like a funny lazy babe but somebody took a shrink ray to me and forgot to shrink my eyes.

Now on, I will always be reminded of baby crabs when I see Merskelly around
OwO


And I'm not mad about it.

xD Good gracious my legs aren't nearly as tiny! Though I do have a lot of spares... <8/ so probably as numerous, if not more. <x}
But the old addage still rings true!
-U- the smaller you are,
>8{ the more you threaten to pinch!
And snip snap!
>x} and annoy others with your crazy raving.

Although I once had a couple of little hermit crab, as those are so cute and most relatable. <x}
They didn't look like this, but they were still cute lil' crustaceans.

At first it looked like they had knitted shell cozys and that seemed like a really neat idea. Grandma crabs crawling about shoo-ing away the kids.

<x'D Hehehe,
I can't unsee that little hermit crab as a granny crab now.

Hey friends!

Sorry I've been MIA again. >n<
So much has been going on!

I've had some doctors' visits and I have been just crazy busy with other ventures!
I'm in an online improv class also, and things are slowly opening up again here...
It's hard to keep up with my online forums and discord servers! ;-;

Those krebs are cute, tho OwO

online improv? OwO tell us about it??

It's a super fun class!
A few of us get together with the owner of our local improv theater (it's closed since Corona has mostly everything shut down right now)

And we go over some games and it's really fun because it's almost like we get to direct our own mini-movies via our webcams! I have so much fun in class. >u<
I've met some cool people also, but I am longing for the day the theater opens again so I can physically see and touch (not inappropriately! >:T) the other members in my class.

It's fun seeing them on a screen, but I'm a person that likes seeing people in the flesh also... at least when it comes to acting. As far as friends go, I don't mind if I never see my friends' in person. Although, it's always been awesome AF the times I have met online friends IRL.

I've always seen imorov classes as being really good for intelligent people. And it's really useful to help improve a lot of other skills, so it seems like the sort of thing a lot of people can benefit from.

well try not to be too eager. places where restrictions are lifted often see an uptick in people getting ill

I think improv has helped me in conversations.
I know it sounds silly, but I have a hard time (always have) with small talk,
I feel like one of the major rules of improv known as "Yes, and..." has helped me get a little bit better with impromptu small talk.

"Yes, and..." basically forces you to listen to what the other person is saying. In improv, though, if someone says something like, "You know, I went to the lakes the other day and they were filled with jelly"... Instead of saying, "No, that's not true" you'd say, "Yes, and... I fell into the jelly and somehow bruised my belly button" Or something like that. :)

Ideally, you never want to shut the other person down by saying "No". It should always be "Yes, and..." Because that shows both people in the best light and makes it much easier for the conversations to grow into more hilarity.

<3