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i've been there for quite a while, too... I've seen changes.

*high fives you back*

:] My Nina worked at Michael's a long time ago.
Now I'm working there with one of my good old friends from high school! ^-^
I don't think I would've gotten the job if it weren't for her. <u> I'm really glad I ran into her.
This is my first job. :T

well that's cool! my daughter works at my store too, and she knows some of our new people too!

new hyperfixation, fuckers.

it's the goddamn conductor from a hat in time.

I asked an artificial intelligence trained on video game music to continue a song I wrote.

It sounds like the lead-up to a joke, but the reality is... actually kind of impressive: http://greenmaw.com/aimusic/

good news, my friend's friend's coronavirus thing got tested as negative.

confusing sentence, i know, but the word machine is fucking broken.

Wooohooo! May be making some pretty good money on a custom pair of scaled gloves (and maybe a Totoro plushie if I can figure put how to modify/make one) if my coworker decides to get them. XD
Just gotta do a little research and math first.

Also...I forgot just how good sales plus employee discount can be. Just got a little bead storage set plus just over 11.5 yards of fabric for only $53! >w<

WELL!

I don't know if I have told you all,
I've been kinda lurking and not posting as much as I'd like to... :(

But my old psychiatrist left the clinic and I've been calling every day trying to get in contact with my case manager to get me in contact with my new psychiatrist. I've been ignored pretty much... UNTIL! They FINALLY replaced my psychiatrist and she was really, really nice! She gave me her direct number so I don't have to go through my case manager anymore. ;u;

I was getting concerned because my case manager is the one who is supposed to set up my appointments with my psychiatrist. She's nice, but she doesn't ever return my phone calls. Feeling ignored is a HUGE trigger for me also... and everyone in my care team is familiar with my diagnosis and the things that can trigger me.

ANYWAY!
Positive! My new psychiatrist heard me and she says that antipsychotic injections would be helpful for me! Which I'm really excited because I've been struggling to stay med compliant...
So hopefully by next month, I will start a new medication and then hopefully start injections soon after we see if my body can tolerate it!!!!

It's not a huge thing, but it's one of the few things that has gone "right" for me this week.

My new psychiatrist is amazing!

She called just to check in on me and make sure things were going okay,
And said if I have any questions, I can feel free to reach out to her on her personal number.

I know it sounds pretty standard.
But I'm poor, and the care I've been getting from my team has almost been bordering "just enough" and absolutely abysmal since I've been here. Very few people in my team especially in the first few months actually took the time to properly help me with my mental health struggles. Even after I was discharged from inpatient treatment the last time, I didn't really have anyone other than my therapist in my corner who actually showed that they cared about my wellbeing.

So to have this psychiatrist actually want to help me! And for her to actually like.. call ME first?!

I know it's sounds silly,
But it means so much to me!

That's great news Ava! :D
Glad things are getting better for your mental health!

Actual tiny Awesome:
I found a really cool metal song about actual history. >:3 It's a song called Night Witches by Sabaton, and it's about the 588th regiment flight squadron from Russia during WWII. ALL female pilots, in little canvas planes, taking out Nazi bombers victoriously. >:D The song is super badass!

Also my dad visited me at work today and it was a nice surprise! ^U^ <3

"I got a new Cwismas twee today!"

Oh yes, I love that song! Night Witches themselves were super badass, so it's cool to have epic music salute them.

Coffee bean print fabric for Derpy clothes!

The FF XVI trailer dropped...
...it looks pretty cool.
8T
...*attempts to hold self together*
e~e;....*can't hold it together*
>W< IFRIIIIIIITTTT!!!!!!!!!!~~~+
>8D FIRRRRREEEEEE!!! PHEONIX! AAAAAA!!

It looks good, but I'm likely gonna be waiting for its PC release.
Watch me cave and buy a PS5 right before it releases like how I bought a PS4 right before FF7R came out

Oh, that's right, daily awesome.
Uhmm..... I got another mask done today. 8D

I have a new Halloween-y themed mask. c: It makes me happy!!

And I feel like a lot of my "awesome"s are med related. >n<
But I am starting a "new" med, (One I failed in the past, but hopefully will work this time around!) and I'm excited to stop taking the one I'm on now.. It'll take a few months to transition. But STILL!

I did some cleaning today and found some old books I had thought I'd lost.