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I know that its not real.... its just.... freaky to me.... in some situations like action movies.... where it could be real..... if that makes sense.....

Silent thread is silent.*nods*

I know..it's kind of scary in a way o.o

It's too too quiet..... O_O

Hi there Airina, how are you doing today?

I'm doing pretty well how are you?

I *want* to say I'm doing pretty well but I'm feeling kind of depressed about some stuff and it's making me not want to do anything tonight >>

Awwww what's wrong?

It's basically a combination of a lot of things at once.

My roommate and I will be moving to a new place this month, which is good for us because our apartment will be right over (well, almost) a dear friend of mine, and it will be nice to be closer to her. The problem is that it's still 2 months before the lease is up and while this is a touristy location and they can probably re-rent the place for just 2 months to someone, if they can't do it I will still be on the line for rent and it's been so tough for me I'm hesitant to ask people to loan me money AGAIN. So I'm terribly nervous about that.

Also for the past 5 weeks I've been applying to several places for jobs, as a requirement to continue getting food stamps. Now I can certainly understand that they'd want to push me to find work partly so they don't have to give me money but I have mystery leg pain and dizziness problems but nothing specifically wrong with me so I can't get a break on this because I can't get a doctor's okay on me having any medical requirements as all my tests have been negative.

And finally I got really mad at a game my beloved and I play, called Fists of Fu. I mostly like the game and it doesn't lag too much (which is nice since my beloved and I live 7 time zones apart) but there has ben very little company support and I suspect it will be closed down soon. I just got mad at the fact that the game is very hard on melee characters and my playing today made me feel really useless and helpless, as if all I was doing was being a punching bag while my beloved did all the work. It wasn't really this way of course, it's just the other stuff making me overly sensitive and it made me want to lie down and cry for a while...which I did. I still don't feel perfect but I do feel better than I did a couple hours ago at least.

Awwww *hugs* that's no fun at all. i really wish i could help you out. but i'll be here for you if you wanna talk! ^~^

I'm trying to motivate myself to play something ^^; I really want to finish playing White Knight Chronicles so I can stop using my ex-roommate's PSN account :P

-hugs Airina- Just posting it helped a lot really. It always helps but when I get this way I start to feel worthless and that no one should bother with me >> So I don't SAY anything until after I breakdown. It's a terribly bad habit of mine D:

*wiggles in*

fists of fu isnt going to close down anytime soon, its an outspark game :P

maybe you should switch to fiesta and play on bijou >.>

I do the same thing... I've been trying to be better but its really really hard..... i don't like having people worry about me.... i don't say anything till my breaking and then the breaking point keeps going on all of the time..... until i finally leak it all out. I feel bad that i lean on people so much.... but if i don't i just freak out..... and its not good.

-waves at Burlesque-

Ashy... Fists of Fu hasn't has any events in a month, not even the usual daily ones. And the original version was closed down, I just don't see much hope for it. And Fiesta is cute and all but... I don't like the gameplay of it past level 15 :/

-hugs Airina more- Someone told me that the hardest part to do is admit to people you're feeling weak. But in doing so it shows how much you trust them and are willing to let them hold you up. Sometimes I can admit my problems before I break and sometimes I can't...but I believe I can get better and I'm sure you can too :3

What's going on y'all?